Nena J's Experience
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Experience description:

I had spent two months working and studying at a Baha'i summer camp in Michigan. It was enjoyable, challenging, etc. but not a grand spiritual experience (I was not a particularly spiritual person, at the time). In fact, I had on-going clashes with the camp leader who I called "Das Commandant" and we were not sorry to part company.  

I returned to Canada early in September where I rented a very cheap room for a month and paid the tuition on a month of secretarial school. After that, I had only a few dollars leftover for the whole month. I calculated that I had enough money for 1 loaf of bread daily and a return bus ticket to school. Nothing else. This was very worrying so I went for a walk, wondering how I would survive on just bread. 

I was walking along on a tree-lined street, on a beautiful, sunny day when I suddenly thought, "I know, I'll trust in God!" I was instantly transported into an absolutely heavenly place where I stayed for the next two weeks. At the end, heaven gradually faded away. There was no way I could stop it but I was not extremely distressed as I knew I would be able to return someday in the future. 

I did not see this place with ordinary eyes.  I can't describe it. I was also always in the ordinary world. But it was heaven and not ordinary at all in terms of: spiritual beings; extraordinary knowledge whenever I wanted it; incredible joy at all times. 

I can't really say what I learned (far too huge) except that I knew this was reality and the ordinary world was not. I also knew it is always available to anyone who would simply accept the will of God. Nothing else matters. I believe (now) that I had to come back in order to be able to relate to people in ordinary reality and also to unlearn family patterns I had adopted at birth.  

Many people have described moments like I had (during prayer or meditation, particularly) but no one I've met has stayed there for two weeks. All of us identify it as reality, not a dream. 

Sorry I can't be more articulate.  

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No  

Was the experience difficult to express in words?....Yes....Impossible. It didn't belong in this time or place so there are no words.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?....More consciousness and alertness than normal    Almost the entire two weeks was "highest level", except for a few moments when it was fading away at the end.....I was in almost constant communication with spiritual beings on a myriad topics. Any question was immediately answered. In between, I felt joy which I had never felt before in my life.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    Just before I went into the experience, the autumn was stunning (trees, sunshine) and this helped me propel my acceptance of God's will, I think. After, I only saw the ordinary world but was entirely consumed by Heaven. Weird, I know.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    Don't remember.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?    Yes   Both here and there were real most of the time.I was often unaware of my body but not outside it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?....Joy. Joy. Joy. (lol, this was before I married my husband and Joy became my last name).  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?....No....

Did you see an unearthly light?....Uncertain....I think I did but don't remember with my brain.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin    Many beings. Can't describe them. They were just there. I was one of them.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....Uncertain    No one I knew so, again, I don't know if they were beings of that place or had previously lived here.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?....Uncertain....Don't remember. Could have been because it was like lifetimes.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?....Some unfamiliar and strange place....Strange and unfamiliar, infinitely beautiful, full of all the knowledge of the universe, past, present, future and beyond.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?....Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....Lost all meaning covers it. I didn't care about yet. Yet, I went to school, etc. on time. I was here and there at the same time but here was meaningless except I needed to do it, I suppose.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?....Everything about the universe....Lol, too big to describe. I don't know most of it any longer but some stayed with me -- no words, though.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?....No....

Did you come to a border or point of no return?....No....I had NO desire to ever come back. I wanted to stay there but it slowly faded out of my awareness.

Did scenes from the future come to you?....No....Maybe, but I don't know. Not overt, in your face scenes.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....Yes, but nothing unavailable to anybody else who is willing.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large changes in my life....I know where I am going and how to get there (accept what IS as the will of God -- doesn't mean I shouldn't change it, though)....

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?    Yes     Just that I know the spiritual Universe is 99.9% of reality.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?....Uncertain     I've always been a bit on the psychic side  but now I pretty much function that way. I trust it completely which is perhaps more than I would have. Not sure.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes   Don't recall. I share it often with people who are (or want to be) spiritual. They react well (I'm believable or at least they don't suggest I'm not) -- no idea of influence.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Uncertain     I think I may have had something as a baby but I'm not sure. No effect on the later experience except it did seem a bit familiar.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:....Experience was definitely real    To think anything else would be to deny all reality. It was more real than me or you or a Mac truck or an elephant I'm looking at at the zoo. Just real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience was definitely real....Same thing. Nothing real-et has ever happened to me.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Uncertain....I expect I'm more tolerant of the varieties of human experience.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes    I take religion and the spiritual a great deal more seriously

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes    Yes, a few times for short periods. Usually at the end of a weekend of spiritual learning/activity. Ordinarily, I am very concrete, down to earth, prosaic. It takes something out of the ordinary to break through that but then -- there's Heaven, again! Always there.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Uncertain    Too much emphasis on specific information. That just didn't correlate with my experience.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     No, the whole thing was one thing. It didn't come in parts.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?....No.