EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

Throughout my entire childhood I sometimes had a similar dream. I’m alone, desolated city streets. I know that there are Fascists in the city. I am trying to find someone who will help me hide from them. I knock on any door I can find.

When I was 12, this dream had a continuation. A married couple let me in. The woman led me for a long time somewhere underground. She put me in a cellar and covered it over my head.

But then someone lifted up the cover. Further I see from a distance, that a Fascist is beating me in the head with the butt of a gun. I see a broken skull, blood, and brains. I had been a young girl.

While I had been running, I felt fear and terror, paralyzing me. But at the moment of death I was perplexed. No thoughts whatsoever in my head. At this moment I woke up.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No  

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No     

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I saw from a distance how the Fascist was beating me in the skull.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   It did not differ strongly

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   In the dream my vision was a little hazy

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I don’t recall any sounds

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   After seeing the events I immediately woke up. I was very frightened. Most of all, I wanted for it never to repeat again.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No   

Did you see an unearthly light?   No   

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No   

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No   

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No   

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No   

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No   

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   Even as a child I knew that the soul goes home after death. My father died when I was 8 years old. But when this event took place I did not understand that I was seeing my own death.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.   When I was 24 I asked my psychology teacher at the Academy in Moscow about this dream. She said that it was similar to a reincarnation dream, that is, that it represented my own memories. Then I began to search for a way to remember my past lives. After all, it was no accident that I had been having these dreams.   

My experience directly resulted in:   No changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No   

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No        

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I told my psychology teacher about this 12 years later and asked her what the dream meant. She said that it was memories.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   Did not influence in any way. But in my family there are stories about the dead come and reveal what will happen, to help the living. And about lethargic sleep, when a person sleeps for many days, and then returns to the living. It came naturally for me.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Very strong emotional experiences!

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Very strong emotional experiences! Even now.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   After I was told that these were possibly memories, I also noticed that I had always been afraid of people speaking in German, I always cry when people talk about war, although there’s no reason for me to, I’m afraid of railway cars, and I can’t wear anything on my wrists (neither watches nor bracelets). These details one day poured into my consciousness.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   This experience drew me to the study of topics of reincarnation and led to me working with it professionally.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes  

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?      Thank you for studying this topic! It is so important!!!