Nadir S's Experience
I was trying to sleep and praying to God with devotion, with a great feeling of gratitude. At the same time, I was in pain because of a cruel and violent child’s death.
Then something happened and I was transported to infinity, I didn’t have a body or even a soul. I was a thought, I was weightless and small, a golden light surrounded everything around me to infinity. I saw the earth and saw that our planet and all that existed in it was originated from the light which was alive, warm, soft, enveloping and penetrating all my core, trespassing my being. For an instant the light surrounded completely my being, and happy I wanted to join it, to merge in its warmth. I looked at earth and realize that I didn’t want anything that was on earth, no money, wealth, fame, travel, goods, even my own children!... absolutely nothing made sense to me, the light was enough! It was everything and gently the light showed me that without it nothing existed and I was loved.
Then abruptly I was sent back to my body. In the darkness of my room I felt all world’s weight, that seemed to me hard, cold, scary, I cried a lot but remembering my little son I hugged him and thought in my little daughter and the world seemed a better place, and I had the courage to continue. On the following day, I remembered everything and the world seemed unreal, weird, but soon I returned to normal, but what always accompanied me was the question: Why?
Why? If all that has not changed what I am? Not even my life, or anything…
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes They are feelings and events you do not see or feel everyday, there aren’t parameters on earth to express them. They are spiritual things, impalpable, inexpressible…
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the moment I was transported to space and felt alive and free for the first time, without any fear!
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness During the experience I could be wherever I put my gaze and feel and know everything about that thing or place, naturally.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience: Love, light, weightless, pure air, freedom, completeness, infinity. Daily: weight, insecurity, overwhelming feeling to be loosing something important.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No, I didn’t hear anything, just felt as I listened... before: I guess I could hear normally…
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes I saw the world in its fullness, I saw from above, from space and it seemed busy as an anthill.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Profound and complete happiness. Union with the cosmos with all and lots of Love, deep Love, perfect, strong and at the same time soft.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was golden and soft, warm, loving, I could almost feel it, it was alive!
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
I could not merge with the light.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes We are eternal, we are part of the light, the light gives us life.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes God is infinite and sage, He envelops us, gives life to everything and everyone. God is everything and without Him there is nothing.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes It seemed to me that oneness is real and very important.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes Everything is an illusion, ephemeral…
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes Everything is an illusion, ephemeral…
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes Love encompasses Everything! Without love nothing makes sense.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes We should Love more.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience less accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I no longer doubt God’s love.
My experience directly resulted in: No changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes After a few months, I shared with few ones and they didn’t doubt it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real I realize it is more usual than I thought.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would like to do a regression so I could relive everything again.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes It covers all.
What could a national organization with an interest in near death
experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?
Publicize real cases
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? It is great!