Mulder's Experience

Experience description:   

 I remember finding myself in complete darkness and going up towards a light. I was floating in the air towards the light like a puppet and I had no control over my body. I still wonder if I had a body because I wasn’t feeling anything physically. The most notable fact is this infinite love I had for everybody, this serenity, this peace of mind. I was “LOVE”, there are no other words to express it. I couldn’t tell the difference between my wife, my daughters and the rest of humanity. I was feeling great, going towards the light, spinning slowly and listening to amazing music I had never heard before. Then my youngest daughter, who was playing in her bedroom with her sister, said: “Daddy, come back”. My ascension ceased and I came down a little bit but then, I started going up again. Once again, my daughter said “Daddy, come back” and then, everything stopped and I woke up.

I don’t know what happened that day but it never happened again. NDE?... I don’t know because it was a period where I was doing a lot of sports. Dream?... I don’t believe it; it was too real. Anyway, if death is this kind of love, I am signing up right now.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     This sensation of well-being, infinite love I had for all living things,

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I don’t know what to say...

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness I don’t know what to say...

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Love, peace, serenity, no more pain.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      I think I can compare the darkness I was in to the one of a well.

 
Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     It’s difficult because it’s been a while but there was no time.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      Not really because it doesn’t happen often but I had a few premonitory dreams:

1- I dreamt that Jean Alesi won his first grand prize on his birthday (and he won the Canadian grand prize on his birthday)

2- I dreamt Michael Jackson was killed in London (it was years before his death so I didn’t know he was going to give concerts in London and up till now, nothing proves he wasn’t killed by his doctor)

 
Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I told my wife right away. She listened without judging or mocking me but it’s difficult to make your own opinion or blindly believe someone who tells you this kind of experience without having living it yourselves.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes            At that time, I was reading books about life after death, the projection of the astral body. Maybe it made an impact, it’s possible.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was amazing, something unforgettable.

 
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Yes, the fact that my 3 years old daughter who was playing in her bedroom told me to come back during my experience has always bothered me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I never felt this infinite love since. Never heard the beautiful music, never had the pleasure to not feel any pain. Like everyone I dream and often in my dreams, more or less I find the same elements, people, places... unfortunately, this experience happened only once.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No, I would only like to relive it.