Michelle K's Experience
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Experience description:
I had a
lucid 'dream' where I was walking to the foot of the entrance stairs at my
grandparents old home in my hometown. My surroundings, although were familiar,
were seeming to be of no importance other that a feeling of safety because
everything had a washed out, dry appearance. I was aware of my body, and the
weather was fair. I knew I was to walk toward the steps, and as I was about 10ft
from the ascending staircase, ribbony type of rainbows came down toward me from
the sky above. Except that it wasn't a generic type rainbow; it was off-toned of
hues of a mustardish yellow color, and were only about 3 hues. They seemed to be
bright, like a neon sign but but not shiny or shimmery. The 'rainbows' fluttered
down toward me in the motion of a flag in the wind/snakish movement. I wasn't
scared, and I reached my hand out to try and touch them, when a face appeared
from out between/from the 'rainbows'. A hand extended down to me (there was no
body) and put it's hand in mine. As I touched it, an intense feeling of heat
spread from the point of contact, and out through my arms. The face
was androgynous, but child-like. It had no body hair; no eyebrows, lashes, etc.
It had large intense eyes of no distinct color. And the skin tone was warm, and
peachy like. Although it had a youthful face, it was ageless, wise, adult in
behavior (but not alien-like in any way). There were no need for words as
everything was telepathic. In fact, it was so intense in wordless dialogue, I
asked all my thoughts at once; like they were layered upon one another and asked
in one sentence. The questions I asked (some but not all I am able to give here
due to the inability to consciously review them; it was/is like even my
subconscious was meant to keep it from my conscious self for a reason. If that
makes any sense) included --'am I on the right life path? How can I keep going
on? Will the world's people/future be okay?-- It smiled
at me and nodded it's head slowly to me. We squeezed hands together, and I
realized then that it had to leave. I started to feel separation anxiety/sadness
that this was to be, but it smiled at me again and the feeling quickly faded. We
pulled our hands away from each other, and it gave me a palm outward wave, and
then everything sucked into blackness away from me, it stayed like that for a
few seconds, and then I woke up. The
'dream' left me with a feeling of intense love and understanding. Sound-No
need for sound as it was telepathic, but heard in my head Touch-Yes Taste-No Smell-No It's very
difficult too make it understood!!! I do not
believe in organized religion, I am spiritual, but not religious, and this has
not changed. I do not believe in 'God' or 'Allah', etc., but in a grater
energy/soul-life we all (birds/trees/rocks....) share in. I enrolled
in an Assoc. Degree in Environmental Studies (Environmental Ethics) for the fall
of '05, and it was a definite change from my previous trade diploma of
Merchandising (how to make a customer buy essentially). But... this was a
decision I made prev. to the dream. My priorities, and life views changed
radically in the past few years, and the schooling choice is an example. really,
it gave me the pat on the back answer of 'yes, this is the right thing to do'
for school. But I
couldn't tell my husband for a few weeks, and when I did, he laughed me off
somewhat which I expected of him, even though he is quite intuitive. He won't
admit it too much, calls it 'hippy stuff'.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes Just the ability to put
into words what exactly was experienced mentally, so as to be able to examine
all facets of the occurrence. Just thinking of it makes my eyes water, and my
throat knot up with joy/love in remembrance of the experience. And I am not
someone who tears easy!
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
It was a lucid 'dream'. I was in
my bed sleeping, but the dream itself was purposeful by something other than
myself. I was fully aware, like I was waiting for this experience to happen but
did not know what 'it' exactly would be. I was not aware however, prev. to the
dream/ sleeping that night, that this would come about.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
see above
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
The 'dream' left me with a feeling
of intense love and understanding. But also the feeling of sadness, etc. when I
realized what had to happen re: to the experience ending.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
No, there was no sounds of nature,
people or anything that would interfere with the telepathic conversation.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes I was walking to the foot of the entrance stairs at my
grandparents old home in my hometown. My surroundings, although were familiar,
were seeming to be of no importance other that a feeling of safety because
everything had a washed out, dry appearance. I was aware of my body, and the
weather was fair.
Did you see a light?
Yes It wasn't a
pinpoint of light or anything to start. Just the strange fuzzy neon type lights
coming toward me. And then the same type of glow of the visitor.
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes Sight-yes
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain The sense of
knowledge is difficult to describe as I feel I was told a lot but my unconscious
is privy to things my conscious is not. Like, I feel I am given the human
desired gratification of knowing my life purpose ( a little taste for the
conscious body) so as to keep on my way, but not to the deeper aspects of
spiritual existence. It is there within me, I was given it, and a question I
asked regarding if my path to spiritual harmony was correct in understanding,
'it' seemed to state that/confirm that. But that it is almost unnecessary at
this point in my human body form to worry about it. Hence, my subconscious knows
more than me to keep my soul on track.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events? Yes 'It'
confirmed a question about my feelings about the future in the next 10-15 years.
And that after that point, things would be different.
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes Aware that I would wake
up.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I am more positive about
me personally, and my beliefs were enhanced.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? I am more
positive with personal relationships. My daily life is still the normal grind,
but I know that at the end of me... I will be at peace.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain I am patiently
waiting to see what will unfold for me. I felt like I was almost lost before.
But now, things are shown to me in the greater outlook of life, and it's easier
to deal.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes My mother. She feels the
same as myself about certain spiritual beliefs, we share our experiences/views
all the time.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Elation, love.
Reassurance as to my existence, future.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
was the whole experience. The worst was the feeling of having to go, that I
wanted more time with 'it'. Although it definitely wasn't like I didn't want to
go back to my waking existence, just visit a while longer.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I often
find myself hoping for another incident to carry on my deeper questions.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes