Michael P's Experience
I was driving home from work. Wasn't really tired but I was on
"auto-pilot". Next thing I know I am totally disoriented because I am looking
down from above at the top someone's head. He was sitting down. I remember after
a while thinking "Oh, that's the other me" and not thinking anything of it. As
soon as I realized that I moved higher and through the roof and started
accelerating through this complete blackness. I remember I wasn't scared but
very excited. The thrill of moving that fast was amazing. I don't remember
having a "body". I was weightless and felt I was being pulled. Traveled for a
while through this blackness then there was a beautiful glow of blue. The blue
kept getting brighter and brighter until it was bright white intense light. I
stopped moving and stood, well with no body, in front of this light. I felt the
rays of this light go through me. This was exciting and I just bathed in it for
a while. It was the most amazing intense feeling I have ever experienced.
Unconditional love, peace contentment and happiness. I knew this was God. Not
what I had learned as a child... the old man with the beard. I wanted to stay
there forever. I felt like a baby in his mothers arms. No worries. I think I
remember "dimmer lights" between me and the loving light. I feel like one came
towards me. This is when things started getting fuzzy for me. I have a feeling
it was my grandmother. But don't remember her saying anything to me. Actually, I
don't remember any auditory experience. Next thing I know I was SLAMMED back
into my body. I was laying on my bed. Strange thing was is that I hadn't slept
in my bedroom in months. Hadn't even gone in my room. Don't remember the drive
home or going into my room. For months after that all I could think about... all
day, every day... was that experience. I started reading about anything I could
get my hands on. Astral projecting, near death experiences... trying to figure
out what it was that happened to me. It definitely put me on a spiritual
journey. I am not the same person at all. I like who I am now. A loving being.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The unbelievably indescribably feeling of unconditional love, peace, contentment and happiness. Also, I had no body and there wasn't really a direction a was looking in. The experience just surrounded me. I felt the love rays go through me.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was feeling the rays go through me.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When I was feeling the rays go through me.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes My sight was non directional. I saw a never ending light so it seemed like it wrapped around me.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I don't remember hearing anything. I do remember thinking my own thoughts at the time.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? unconditional love, peace, contentment, excitement and happiness
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes Total blackness. I couldn't see things moving but I felt like I was moving millions of miles an hour. I felt something like G forces.
Did you see a light? Yes From the black tunnel I started to see the most beautiful blue light glow. It kept getting brighter and brighter until it was whiter then white but did not hurt to look at it. It didn't seem like I was looking at it with my eyes but more like I was feeling it or experiencing it. I did know it was a bright light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain I think there were "dimmer lights" floating in front of the light. One came towards me (I think, my experience starts to get foggy here). I have a feeling all of the time that it was my grandmother. I remember feeling her love nut don't remember if she talked to me.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain Don't recall anything like that. But could have happened. It got foggy.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Was driving home from work. Next thing I know it was dark.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain I have always had the feeling the I was given information. But don't remember it! I think I will when I need the information. Or I'm already using it subconsciously.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes Just the light. I knew I was to stop without entering it fully
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
I have feelings of things now. I think I am developing psychic abilities. I feel other emotions now. Sometimes overwhelmingly... empathic?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes see #34
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes The next day. And every time a could for months after it. Stopped sharing the experience because of the reaction I got. "Your loosing it", "You were abducted by aliens"
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I had heard of them but didn't know the details. It was fun every time I had an "Yeah that's what I felt" experience.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Hard to explain, just seamed more real then a dream. The love I felt I never felt before.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The unconditional love part. I was at the time, constantly thinking of death. Every day. Wanted to be dead but to chicken to do it.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was probably real I don't know. I think time has made me doubt myself. And others reactions too. I do know it happened. It drastically changed my life overnight.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I know how to love unconditionally now and practice it all the time.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I had really kind of thrown out all beliefs at that point in my life. Gave up on religion. Now, although not religious, I am extremely spiritual. Kind of believe all religions had a base to them that was right at first and have lost the message over time. The message of unconditional love. I guess that's my religion now... unconditional love.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No I wish. I want to go back BAD!
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I feel now I am supposed to do something major for humanity now. Don't know what yet.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain Well, except that I didn't have a life threatening experience. So why did it happen to me?