Since 2003, I dreamed from time to time about past situations, more or less close to my childhood. I didn't write them down, but the memories of those dreams were remaining vivid, so strongly those "reminders" seemed to be anchored in my memory.
At the very beginning of the year 2005, while at that time being a statutory manager of some individual enterprises, I found myself wrongly suspected of wrongdoing which was classified as "affair of state". Immediately placed under arrest, I found myself imprisoned in the worst prison of the country, while awaiting judgment in court, that came only some years later. Being a practicing and obedient Christian (Anglican) since early childhood, I couldn't find at this moment any reasonable cause justifying this misadventure, that I considered then as a shameful degradation of my existence, and that was leading to very dark thoughts. After the confusion, I decided, not without some anger, to submit to the unlikely divine entity, a fundamental question; it was in the morning of the 20th of May 2005, around 09.30 during a short moment of meditation:
"God, You who must know my whole journey, of what acts are you accusing me, that I have to endure such an abasement? So, if You really exist, prove it to me, otherwise I will not have any consideration anymore about Your Reality."
Then, I went back to read the Bible, the only literary work accepted in this place, where our cell of 5 square meters hosted 7 guys sleeping on the bare ground. The other 5 prisoners of the room were outside walking that morning, while another one was on fatigue duty, to cook the only daily meal for the prisoners: 175 gramme of dried manioc per person at midday. The door of the cell stayed ajar and the other prisoners of our area, were walking in the dark and narrow corridor.
At 12.05, a few seconds after a fellow inmate left our cell, after a short discussion and having asked me the time, I felt a sudden paralysis that affected my complete being, while I was stretched out on the heap of cloth, that served me as a mattress, my Bible in the hand. Then my sight started to become vague, unbridled, the elements: walls, door, pavement seemed to disintegrate into an indescribable mess, while my body was lying there, helpless unable to make the least movement, I wanted to scream for help as I knew there were people close by, in the corridor and the adjoining rooms, as I heard them speak louder or slower. Then I felt like a detachment in me, something seemed to come loose from me, in a deafening atmosphere of bird chirping; but the place where we stayed, was a fortress built in the middle of an arid area, where normally the monotony of silence tormented the imprisoned. And this 'thing' that came loose from me, whose form I couldn't see, but which presence I felt, with the dull chirping that became strongest at this moment, moved away more and more with a derisive complaint. And all this noise dimmed as the 'thing' moved away with its derisive sound.
Still aware of my immobility, I slowly recovered my senses, with my sight that was, little by little, getting back to its normal 'standards'. When I finally was able to turn my head, I sensed that my whole body was like taken in a huge tiredness, very weak but it was recovering little by little. As soon as I got back my abilities, my clock showed 12.11, a minute later a roommate entered the cell. Still breathless, I hardly was listening, still dumbfounded of what happened. I nevertheless asked him if he did hear the loud bird chirping, to what he answered in the negative. Puzzled, I told him that I wouldn't go out, to line up for my daily food ration. I then curled up in my corner, to try to understand what happened. I suddenly had a strong desire to get some sleep, while at the same time remaining very aware, I heard myself snoring. The situation was very strange as, while my body was lying there snoring, I heard my roommate sigh:
"Hey, what a lassitude this guy has, he even started to sleep without taking the time to listen to me!" And from a dead angle, as my face was turned towards the wall at the moment of my sudden sleepiness, as if I was standing in front of him, I saw his man get up, take its mess tin, then leave the cell! I was bewildered of what happened, the closed eyes of my head towards the wall, I could see from behind my head through another 'pair of eyes' with perfect vision. Then another body of me got up from the one that was snoring, I was stunned by the sight of the sleeping me. I was also aware that all my senses had 'sublimated' in sensitivity, listening, I heard all the noises and conversations of far ( in the courtyard 50 meters away), or nearby (the neighboring cells and the corridor) in a precise and distinctive manner. I also felt very well, light, in a state diametrically opposed to the sensations of my body, during the previous experience some minutes ago. I have no correct words to express the quality of perception of my other senses. It's in this state of 'grace' where I still searched to understand what happened, that my roommates came back, everybody with his mess tin in the hand, my body still sleeping and abundantly snoring, what triggered discussions between them, me hearing all what they were saying with incredible sharpness and finally, when they decided to put a small part of their ration aside for me, I wanted to talk, and reintegrated spontaneously the sleeping me, talking with my mouth, I replied directly to my roommates, that they didn't have to do this, as I had no desire to eat anything at all, speaking like a person wide awake, but my head still turned towards the wall. My roommates subjugated by my sudden intervention, accused me of pretending to sleep, for what ever reason; but to tell the truth, I was much more subjugated then they were, in this embarrassing situation; it was 12.27.
This state that I experienced several times afterwards, evolved into control, and I still sometimes re-experience it.
As the prison has no electricity and the sun starts to set early in this period of the year, the doors are closed at 17.30. I impatiently awaited the evening to try to make the same experience again as during the day. After a compulsory common session of prayer and the organization of the 'marks' (sleep zone of everybody), everybody was trying to sleep, while still listening to one of the prisoners who was hollering in one of the neighboring cells, telling a story in the way of radio theater, in exchange for some pennies. At 20.00pm, finally there was silence. Excited to retry the experience of the day, I couldn't sleep, past midnight I heard a member of my room moaning. As I didn't have the possibility to move, in the penumbra I just turned my head towards the moaning man, when to my surprise, I saw a little man (about 60cm) standing there looking down at the man, who was groaning as if he had a nightmare. What surprised me, was that this small person didn't belong to the room, nor even to the area, the more that all doors had been closed from outside. Then, there again, I suddenly lifted out of my me that was lying down, to question this 'stranger', a state that surprised me and surprised the other one, of whom I only saw the side, from my position in the cell; he disappeared completely in a fraction of second, stupefaction in his eyes. Immediately the moaning guy got back to deep sleep, and my 'second me' remained there, sceptical. Shortly later, a little marble of green light, in the way of neon lamps but much more fluorescent, entered the room through the small barred opening that was our window. It turned three times around the room and then left the same way. And I perceived a voice, I don't say "heard" but "perceived" as I couldn't describe in words the sensation that I felt in that moment, all the constituents of my being seemed to pick up and to assimilate the frequencies or waves or particles emanated by this voice, of which I couldn't locate the source, and that said:
"The reason of your confinement in this place is one of the phases of your initiation, you will only leave from here, when you will have assimilated the planned instructions, you should know that whatever intervention from whatever high graded person, could not change anything at the duration of your detention. So continue to read and to go deeper into the Bible."
27 month later I was
judged innocent and was liberated. So was the beginning of a very long story
full of incredible, and really enriching and revealing experiences. Even today I
continue my initiation that has been padded by several other aspects until now;
even if I have to confess, that I started to reasonably convey those empirical
teachings acquired in adversity.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes "I have no consequent words to express the quality of perception of my other senses... I couldn't describe in words the sensation that I felt at that moment, all the constituents of my being seemed to pick up the frequencies or waves or particles..."
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the separation, at the first experiences, my body 'piece of meat' was there, lying slumped down, while my other me, awake and endowed with extraordinary faculties, saw, heard, felt, reacted lucidly.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I'm using again the terms that I used already above:" I also felt very well, light, in a state diametrically opposed to the sensations of my body, during the previous experience some minutes ago. I have no correct words to express the quality of perception of my other senses."
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. - during the experience: a 'virtual' vision, perfect, pleasant, everywhere.
- after the experience: back to mediocrity; a very 'limited' vision
Actually, I don't think
to be able to compare the two states.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. - during the experience: a hearing incredibly more developed, precise and fantastic
- after the experience: back to mediocrity; hearing became easily disrupted
In fact, I also don't
think to be able to compare those two states. All senses of the body seem to
transform in power and efficiency in their respective sensitivities, but seem to
merge into a same essence.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes - Besides what I experienced and already told under paragraph two, I remember having received, in a very conscious waking state, the instruction to open the Bible at a precise verse. At the waking of my 'body of flesh', the version of the Bible matching in color with the cover, being held in my hand was exactly opened at the indicated page, while I was in the previous state. One should know, that since my first experience, I'm using different versions of the Bible, in at least three different languages (Malagasy, French, English,..) and that I'm not meditating with the Bible in my hands.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very difficult to express in words! Words that maybe could approximate this sensation are, ecstasy, wonder, bliss, nirvana, ... impossible to describe with 'material' words.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Yes, during different experiences, I had the opportunity to cross tunnels and corridors, alone or accompanied by one or several sublime 'persons'.
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes - In paragraph two, I'm telling:".. a small marble of green light, in the way of neon lamps but much more fluorescent entered the room..."
Several times, during
the following experiences, I appreciated the dazzle of all this extraordinary
luminosity, going from exophora to blue, pink, green, etc.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
After this first experience that I developed in paragraph two:" - And I perceived a voice, I don't say "heard" but "perceived" as I couldn't describe in words the sensation that I felt in that moment, all the constituents of my being seemed to pick up and to assimilate the frequencies or waves or particles emanated by this voice, of which I couldn't locate the source..."
Many other 'connecting
experiences' came to enrich my knowledge, and moreover, subsequently they became
almost commonplace, ... I'm still continuing to follow my initiation courses ...
by visible or non visible teachers
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes The beings of the beyond don't communicate their names and do not disclose their naming, they content themselves to give a hint of a smile, as only answer to this type of questioning, when I name them according to my appreciation by their appearances, related in historical imagery, photos or other similar knowledge.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It will be nine years now, more or less, that I started to get instructions, distilled by persons: my father for example, deceased in March 2004, was one of the very first of my guides in my travels in those other 'dimensions', then there were figures like Pythagoras, Mahomet SAW, ... who are keeping their roles and instruct according to their specializations in their respective fields of activity, then also some sublime beings are appearing and are distilling their knowledge within bounds. The case of Jesus will be the object of a special narrative that I want to edit.
Two of my close
relatives died during the period of my incarceration: my paternal grand-father
(November 2005), the elder brother of my father (June 2006). The family was
hiding those events from me in order to spare me more sadness, but I could
disclose to my visitors, the exact day of their death, as their 'parting'
spirits had come to greet me on the exact day of death.
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I don't seem to enter,
I'm roaming in those worlds. 'Doors' only known to the real initiates allow free
passage from one world to others, where you can feel the bliss, while at the
same time not being disorientated.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Notion of any kind of measure is different there, how then explain what turns out to be inexpressible?
Here an attempt of
dimensional approach : - Earth=cube of edge 12; - Dimension B= cube of edge 13;
- Dimension D= cube of edge 26, - Dimension E= cube of edge 52; etc....
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
This question is awkward as the level of discernment is such, that it can't be expressed at the level of actual science. ... empirical education, do you know that???
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
Each dimension having its own specificities, it turns out to be impossible to fix a priori conventional delimitations
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future
Those achievements will be verified by their accomplishments, personally, nearly one hundred percent of the foreseen revelations happened.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes The understanding of the deep being of the soul: the SPIRIT, will for sure contribute to the consideration of life after death.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes The facts that I told under Paragraph two, then all the experiences that followed, let me come closer to - and confirmed me a bit more of, the comprehension of the Supreme Being.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Words are not enough to express this impression, of being in unity with the visible and invisible cosmos, starting with the tiniest particle, up to the distant projection of thought.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes Yes and I'm just on the way to overcome the obstacles to achieve those purposes.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes Yes and I'm just on the way to overcome the obstacles to achieve those purposes.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Uncertain The expression in the other dimension or the other dimensions cannot be expressed by our words and feelings.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes The Supreme Being is existing, without any doubt.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes
Yes, and I'm right now
in full achievement of this 'destiny', this fate...
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience "I have no consequent words to express the quality of perception of my other senses. It was in this state of 'grace' where I was still searching to understand what happened.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I tend more and more to perfect the respect of physical constraints in order to be able to evolve. I eat less and less prohibited 'food'; stopping being hypocrite towards myself.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes Yes, I even come to actually provide a philosophy of life, following these many enriching experiences in a moral sense of the word
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes many premonitions, visions and understanding
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
I didn't talk about
these experiences, that still continue to happen by the way, until the month of
July 2007. The acceptance of the listeners remained reserved. The idea of the
sphere where I'm dwelling unveils a deep avant-gardism.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real There are not enough consequent words to express my admiration of the knowledge that I acquired during the different stages of my initiation.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Many people, especially next of kin, preferred refrain from the contact of people that suddenly, as if touched by a 'magic wand', changed their behavior, language, philosophy of life...
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes, as from a lazy assistant at the worship within the Anglican parish, where I was instructed about spirituality, I became a thoughtful practicing.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Yes, many times I experienced other enriching events, with too many details to get them precisely detailed here.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain The descriptions cannot pretend being complete, as the way of expression used is limited to this dimension here.
One really has to live it to be able to taste the unspeakable.