Melissa T's Experience
I was in the lounge room of my flat with friends, it was around lunch time. I started to feel 'fuzzy' in the head, there was also a loud growling sound. I went upstairs to lie down. Almost as soon as I lay down my pulse started to speed up and up, I felt like I was about to take off, I felt quite scared as if I was going to die. I took my pulse and it got to the point where it was so fast that I couldn't distinguish beats and it became just one.
minute I know I see myself lying on the bed and I go downstairs. I now see my
flat mate Helena making scones in the kitchen and our boyfriends watching rugby
on TV, I go outside and down the path down the street. Suddenly a figure in
black appears its wearing a black cloak and I can't see its face. It calls my
name in a really familiar voice as if it was my mothers, it calls me to go to it
and I do but then I get a really strong feeling of dread, to get away, to go. I
go back inside, upstairs to the bedroom, realize I walked into my flat-mates,
Helena's bedroom by accident and go into my room. I walk over to myself and the
next minute I'm in my body but I feel extremely drained and out of sorts. I go
downstairs and Helena is making scones and the boys are watching rugby, none of
them were doing these things when I was down there with them earlier. I know
something quite profound just happened but not sure what.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Real, I was aware of everything, the only thing that seemed not in 'context' was the figure in black.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
I knew I was me, I didn't physically see myself as I was walking around but I felt as I might normally...I didn't feel any lighter or less solid
What emotions did you feel during the experience? none until I saw the black figure and I was going towards it and then I got a feeling of dread, as if I should get away from it
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No, only before the experience: the loud growling noise like a tiger, in my head
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
I was in my normal surroundings, the only thing that seemed surreal was the figure in black
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes
A black figure. I didn't know who or what it was but it felt comfortable to go towards it as it called by name as if it were my mum. I then had a gut feeling, really strong to get away from it and not to go to it
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes
I saw what my friends were up to i.e what they were doing,during my experience, which was correct, that they were not doing previously.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
I came downstairs to join my friends and saw them doing what they werent't previously, making scones and watching rugby ( i saw the score and who was playing)
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
The figure in black blocked my path from continuing further, it was right in the middle of the footpath.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
My intuition was and is right all of the time, I trust it. I began to look into mystical and spiritual matters. I started to search for my purpose,my own religion and the meaning to life
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? It was the catalyst to where I am now and suppose to be:physically,spiritually,mentally,emotionally
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
It has become more productive and positive
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Some felt the hairs on the back of their neck stand up, some think I was dreaming.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? contemplative
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best - fuzzy feeling in my head disappeared afterward
feeling scared of the figure in black
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Out of all the reading iv'e done noone seems to have experienced the initial symptoms?
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
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