#1 We took out student loans and went hitchhiking around Europe. On boarding a cable car, to a mountain top in the German Alps, my companion blocked the entrance.
"we're gonna be stuck up there for a while".
"should we get in"?
"yes, it 'll be alright"
High above the trees the cable would drop and swing. Some passengers, especially parents, were hysterical, others calm and contemplative. The conductor and young men were performing exploratory missions poking their heads out of the top hatch. A sweaty, red faced conductor, made phone calls to the base. Everyone spoke German. An elderly couple kept us informed.
On one of the falls, I left our usual time-space. I reviewed my life. It was very quick but slowed down at a birthday party I attended when I was about seven. I was played a party game, knelt on a chair and dropped a wooden cloths pin into a milk bottle. Next, I was in a kitchen and a boy was reading about my accident to his parents. "there were two Americans". At the end of the review I heard the thought 'you did alright'.
Suddenly I was a fragment, so small in such an immense space. I heard the thought "so that's why I never felt right. I'm a fragment, broken, disconnected from the whole, differentiated. The void was not empty. I was the smallest part of my self, the fragment, moving towards the wholeness, the center, the light. It was joyous, happy, peaceful and I would choose to stay.
"Hairbrush" (whatever that means).
I was suddenly back in the cable car. It had only been seconds from the fall to the swing yet I had processed thoughts and had seen things that would have taken many more minutes.
I said to my friend "if we fall I'll be alright"
After the trip to Europe I returned to school. I barely made it to classes. I drank. I was in all kinds of trouble. I was laying in the bathtub trying to calm myself. Once again as a fragment I fell down to the depths. It was complex and in an inward motion, crowded confusion with voices, torment grieving guilt cries, arms reaching upward while I go further down.
Suddenly I'm taken back up. lightning fast
" You're not going there"
"What will I do I'll never be the same"
"No one could ever survive this and be normal"
"If you try to figure this out you will go insane"
"Be quiet" or "you can be quiet"
The voice was gentle. It may have been "you don't need to decide, etc."
I kept my mouth shut and extraordinary incidents followed.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes The cable car was high in the Alps and would drop and swing
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? as a fragment both times
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: I was a differentiated fragment from the whole.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I was in a completely different kind of space
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes There were no sound waves to accompany the sound
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? 1. simplicity wholeness. love
2. complexity, confusion, torment
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes there was a sense of movement
Did you see a light? Yes The light was the source of joy
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes some kind of quick messenger and a voice with authority and certainty
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes "Don't Decide"
"Don't Figure It Out"
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes I learned that others had similar experiences
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes The wholeness
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes It had only been seconds from the fall to the swing yet I had processed thoughts and had seen things that would have taken many more minutes.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I crossed to the point of being able to be in the light
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I told someone within the day of the experience
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? the visions also carried messages
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real It happened out side of our usual space and it was real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I did surrender during the descent (into hell). A magnificent being of unconditional love taught me humility and lessons that returned me to sanity/simplicity. This experience was almost thirty years ago.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes