Mattie A's Experience
Let me clarify from the beginning that this is not an NDE, this is a massive spiritual experience I had where I got entangled in evil spirits but God and Jesus rescued me. My account might bear some similarities to people who have encountered God in their NDEs. I was living in Australia at that time, a 34 year old female who was a University student who had graduated recently. I was finding it hard to find jobs even two years after graduation and I couldn't find a romantic partner either. I had sunk into depression and I was looking for something to alleviate the depression and heartache.
One of my University friends told me about a Mind, Body, Soul festival coming up in Brisbane and I decided to attend. I was agnostic, almost atheist, but I was so fed up of the depression I wanted to find some way to alleviate it, and I had vague memories when I was a kid attending a reiki session, and I felt very uplifted and full of energy afterwards, so I went with that intention. While I was at the exhibition I wandered into a Applied Kinesiology stall hoping I could find some answers to my future. Kinesiology apparently can give you life answers through muscle testing. As I was sitting on the table, the head kinesiologist suddenly walked in and said he would take the next client that would be me. I remember feeling a strong sense that this was meant to happen, and I was fated to meet him. I am not disclosing his name here, lets call him G. I told him I wanted to stay on in Australia and get a job and settle here and I was looking for love, why couldn't I find love ?
He told me to lie down on the table and G did some strange actions with his hands and suddenly I felt very light headed and swimmy, and I found out I was sharing my consciousness with him ! Whatever images came to my mind came to his as well. We were sharing our consciousness ! He saw glimpses from my past and then he ended the session telling me I have sent a guide to help you. Immediately my warning bells went up in my head asking ' What guide ?' I never asked for a guide but at this point I mostly disbelieved what he the folks at this exhibition were doing and dismissed him as a charlatan - nothing would happen to me. I left the exhibition, and strangely after that I started feeling very upbeat and for the first time in my life, spiritual ! I felt it was so easy to believe that God existed even though before I was almost hardcore atheist and only believed in our physical world.
However trouble was to start. A few days later, I suddenly felt some invisible presence descend on me and then I noticed strange things happening to me. I noticed weird guys on the street were veering towards me and grinning at me liked they liked me, and worse at night I could barely sleep. Images or strange visions started crossing my mind, and the weird thing was it was all about the end times or the apocalypse. How monsters would be walking down the streets and how God would change his plans and the apocalypse would be prevented. These visions didn't make sense to me at all because I was never religious and never believed nor cared about the apocalypse. I always felt like I was starving and running out of energy so I started eating a lot more during this time. Night after night every time I would almost fall asleep some vision of a monster or demon would wake me up and I simply couldn't sleep. I was getting exhausted and sick. And very, very tired.
I found myself wandering the city a few days later and I just felt drawn to enter churches. I wandered from one church to another in the city, sitting for a while, hoping to alleviate the sickness I felt. Finally I entered a church close to my University, a Roman Catholic church which I used to attend rarely because even though I was agnostic, I really liked the sermons of the priest in that church - it touched me even though I barely believed. He was gentle and philosophical and broad-minded, not judgmental at all. I wandered in and sat alone there. And then the most wonderful and oddest thing happened. My soul asked a specific question - It asked God - We all fell from grace to live on earth together, why cant all people go to heaven together ? After all we are one big human family, brothers and sisters ? Suddenly I felt a burning sensation of a spirit descending into me. I got afraid and left the church.
Then I heard a voice next to me say ' I will walk with you'. I remember this was a voice one has to listen to, a voice of authority. And then I felt the presence of other beings or spirits around me. The voice of authority asked ' Why did she get up and leave the church?' And a voice replied back - she is afraid of demons ! Who are these voices ? What is going on ? Who are these presences I'm feeling ? But I felt compelled to go back to church and talk to the voice of authority. I went back in and once again asked my question. I felt the burning sensation descend into me gain but much more gently now, so as not to frighten me. And the voice of authority replied Only the righteous go to heaven. Not everyone. But I told him there is love in the world, despite all the evil there is still plenty of good ! And then the darkness overcame me and I felt sad like God had abandoned humanity. But the voice of authority quickly reassured me that was not the case and God was very well aware of the love that existed, God will never leave us nor forsake us. With that answer I was satisfied, and left the church.
I had to go meet a friend for dinner so walked to the bus stop in the twilight. Strangely I could still feel the presence of these spirits with me. As I walked down the lonely street I became aware that a tiny dot of white light was floating just above the crown of my head. I was sitting alone on the bus stop at dusk and every person who walked past the bust stop would glance up at the tiny dot of light shining above my head. It seemed to flicker in and out of view. I met my friend (lets call her Sarah) in the city and at dinner I asked if I could come over and sleep at her place. I didn't feel like returning back to my room where I couldn't sleep. I just told her my housemates were having a party and I wanted to rest. She happily let me sleep over. She too glanced above my head once in a while like she too could see the light dot from time to time.
I went over to her house that night and slept in her bed but I still couldn't sleep. Something like a spirit presence was trying to attack me and enter me and take me over. It was horrible. But the voice of authority was also there and told me ' you have been infected. The kinesiologist has infected you with evil spirits.' What !!! So that was what was going on ! Who was this voice that was trying to help me ? Well this voice came to me in church so it had to be Jesus ! Then I swelled up with determination, no evil spirits are going to take me ! If God and Jesus exist, I'm on the side of God and Jesus. Then I heard a knock on the door of my heart and I said 'come in'. Then the voice said, get out of bed and go to the bathroom. The evil spirits were probably swarming around the bed right now and I had to leave. I entered the bathroom and collapsed on the toilet and I surrendered everything to Jesus, let him cast out evil and take me over ! And miraculously it was done ! My mind cleared immediately of all the bad visions and demons and the attacking feeling was gone and I was left at peace.
I nearly fell asleep after that on the toilet ! But Sarah woke up and saw I was in the toilet a long time and got worried about me. She knocked on the door and asked me to get out. I left immediately and we went to have tea in the living room. Poor thing got a fright and asked me what's wrong but I couldn't tell her. I was so overwhelmed myself. She told me it is not good to stay on in Australia with no job and depression getting the better of me and told me its best to leave Australia and go back to India where my parents were and stay with them for some time. I thought that was very good advice, considering everything plus my awful encounter with evil spirits in Australia ! After tea we went back to bed, and as I closed my eyes I suddenly felt through consciousness I was connected to another spiritual realm. And I found myself wondering, who was that voice of authority ? who could it be who rescued me ? And the question that came back was: well who do you think it was ? Well my answer was it had to be Jesus because I encountered that voice in church ! Immediately my mind went black and I felt the presence of Jesus accompanied by someone else ( I believe later this was John the Baptist who is a witness to every person saved by Jesus), and the first question they asked me was Why aren't you Christian ? Sadly I couldn't answer that question very well, and I heard a voice, my higher self I came to later find out, say Here take my records ! Jesus and John the Baptist flooded my heart with love and flipped through my life records in a second. Information is instantly downloaded in the spiritual realm !
Then here comes the interesting thing, Jesus said I had past lives, reincarnation is real, and sin from my past lives was affecting salvation in my present life. My souls purpose in this life time was to figure out salvation and break the cycle of reincarnation, and my higher self figured by being Christian she would achieve that in this life time. But sadly my whole life I was brought up by very down to earth agnostic parents and I barely did anything spiritual in my life like going to church or praying. Yet that mustard seed of faith was in me that was enough (with a bit of adventure) to get me salvation. The next night I slept in my room and I got visions of Jesus visiting me and showing me glimpses of paradise. I saw the many levels of heaven and I saw the mansions Jesus was preparing for his followers, a home for us to rest. I saw many people already in paradise who recognized me and loved me but I didn't recognize them. Everything was bathed in a pinkish red light which symbolized that paradise was bought for humans by Jesus' blood.
And finally I met God, He appeared as an orb of white light at first and I was a
bit disappointed I didn't get a chance to walk with him. God never reveals his
true face; he always shrouds himself in light. The next time I had a vision of
Paradise God appeared like an old man with a long white beard and flowing robes
(an image I was comfortable with as I always imagined God like that as a kid)
and I walked hand in hand with him and I asked the same questions I asked Jesus
in church - why can't all humans go to heaven, we all fell together, lets go
home together ! But He also replied only the righteous go to paradise. The
righteous I know now are those who believe in salvation through Jesus. And then
the vision disappeared. God spoke to me a few times after that, He woke me up at
2 or 3 am in the morning and it was always like a burst of light and love on my
consciousness, like the divine essence of God touches the essence of my soul and
there was a connection. He told me He will give me his purposes to follow in
life and asked me to teach in Sunday School (which I now do). I am now a
faithful Christian and follower of Jesus and God, after all Jesus cast out evil
spirits and made me whole and healthy again ! I am forever grateful and thankful
to them and share their message and gospel wherever I can.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Possessed by evil spirits who didn't want me to live
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes So many things were happening at the same time in my consciousness, it was difficult to sift out
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After the evil spirits were cleared out of my consciousness
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal So much more clearer and sharper
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The colors in paradise were brighter, everything was rich and infused
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Nothing, God and Jesus spoke to me through consciousness
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Distressed at the evil spirits but elated to meet God and Jesus
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I met God and Jesus who spoke to me
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus as described above
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus as described above
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Yes They showed me my past lives up to 3 of my past lives and I did some good and some bad which was affecting my present life.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future
Flashes of my future to give me hope
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes As described above
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes As described above
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes Reincarnation is real I had past lives, saw 3 of my past lives and flashes from them both good and bad
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes As described above
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes Some flashes into my future, future visions that's all, no information
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Uncertain Some flashes into my future, future visions that's all, no information
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes Jesus and John the Baptist flooded my heart with love
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience As described above
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes Before I was agnostic, now I'm Christian
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am connected to the spiritual realm ,I see Jesus visiting his believers in church or bible study in the form of a dot of white light above the crown of believer's heads
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes No one believed me sadly
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I read Anita Moorjanis book
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Don't know
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Before I was agnostic now I'm Christian
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes