Matthew B's Experience
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Experience description:

I went to bed around midnight. I cannot normally sleep lying on my back, but for some reason on this occasion I did. During the night, I awoke to find a very loud vibrating buzzing sound running through my body, this was extremely frightening and I thought I was about to die. I also became aware of an unseen presence "pressing" me down like a huge weight, although I couldn't see it. After trying to move and being aware that I couldn't, I stopped resisting it and there was a loud "bang", and the buzzing pulled me from my body. I kind of 'expanded' up into the room, and seeing the alarm clock go past as I went "up" - the time was 3:14. I became aware that I was looking down upon my body. I also became aware of a presence in one of the bedrooms down the hall, even though I knew there was nobody in there sleeping, but I was not bothered by it and felt the urge to go outside. At this point I expanded even more and viewed the garden outside, and the neighbors' gardens. Everything seemed translucent and transparent - this is very hard to describe. I was also aware that the everything was emanating a glow, and from this came beautiful serene sounds of music and birds singing, the sound was so clear and omnipresent. I then found that I could communicate with this 'glowing sound' in ways that words simply cannot describe. I then realized, although I'm unsure of whether I was told this, or simply realized it, that everything was connected like a "web", I felt a sense of bliss at knowing this, and became frustrated at my previous ignorance of it. The buzzing urged me to expand more, but it suddenly dawned on me that I might end up lost in space, and this hesitation caused me to go back into my body at a great speed, preceded by sounds akin to gunshots.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The feelings of love, the way things were perceived, everything was translucent and transparent. I would be inclined to state that the only true way to understand it is to experience it.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           What I can only describe as "super-aware". It seemed more real than bodily consciousness.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, bodily awareness would seem more akin to a dream in comparison to out of body.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     My consciousness expanded and somewhat contained everything I was experiencing, kind of like a void or vacuum.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Bliss, love, purpose and peace.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Yes. I heard (or maybe felt?) a loud buzzing during the experience which seemed to be guiding me, the sound was similar to when a channel on a TV has finished broadcasting. Upon separation and return, I heard loud bangs, like gunshots or doors slamming, they were much louder in comparison to normal perceptions of such things. When I was "out", and at the height of the experience, I heard soft, serene, acoustic music and birds singing with it, this seemed to be coming from the 'glow' that was behind everything.

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Uncertain      I never experienced any religious concepts. The glowing and peace seemed to emanate from 'behind' everything. I still experienced my neighborhood, as it is, but it was translucent, bright and transparent, almost like looking at it from another angle - this is also very hard to describe.

 Did you see a light?           Uncertain      I never saw a direct "light". I was aware of a glow, and I felt as though the buzzing/entity was urging me towards the source of this glow.

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     There were primarily two beings. One somewhat assisted my experience, the other was a presence I became aware of in another room, although I was not concerned about it in the slightest. Both presences were only felt, although this seemed more real than how one would perceive a presence in bodily life. There was no boundaries between anything.

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I saw the time on my alarm clock - it was 3:14. It was 3:16 when I came around. I had no perception of time during the experience, but afterwards it seemed as though I was there much longer. I do not have any events that can be verified by others.

 Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain            I wasn't aware of the senses. This is hard to describe, but everything seemed to be "felt" directly, rather than received via sensory perception.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      I didn't perceive time nor space. The only way I can describe it was that I felt like a "void".

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I realized that *everything* was connected, and that all actions affect the rest of this connection. I also felt a type of divine love and bliss, peace and order. This is the most profound aspect of the experience, I have never felt that before.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     I was aware that the buzzing/entity was guiding me somewhere. I consciously stopped to view the neighborhood half way through this "pull". I was aware that the buzzing was urging me higher. I felt a type of vastness beyond my expansion.

 Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes     Heightened intuition, empathy, the ability to incite clarity in others and their issues, the ability to absorb information with clarity, heightened intellect, the ability to notice everything around me clearer.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Happiness, service to others, purpose of life, spiritual pursuits, interests in science and philosophy, the conscious awareness of my actions and how they affect others and everything else, loss of fear of death. In a nutshell, the perceptive "boundaries" that have been imposed upon us have dissolved within me.

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I have learned to feel what others feel in relationships, rather than acting on the previous perceptions I made of them. I feel relationships are more important to me. I have become spiritual, although not religious. I can now see that everything previously categorized and viewed as "superstition, religion, supernatural" is an illusion created by the human imagination, and that there are no boundaries between what is called "spiritual" and what is called "mundane" - both are interconnected within the limits of certain perceptions at given times and purposes. I am still in my current job, but I am looking to take a career change in social work, psychology or bereavement counseling.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I have become highly spiritual with a sense of universal purpose and order. My life has taken a dramatic turn for the good, although I sometimes struggle to incorporate it into a world bound up by conditioned and imposed ideas and beliefs.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have shared it with friends and family, and have talked at great length about it. I have also discovered experiences of a similar nature (although less profound) that others have had, but have previously avoided talking about. I have also discovered that a friend occasionally experiences "bi-location." and I have inspired great clarity about truth and purpose of life in people.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Unconditional love, peace, harmony and universal purpose.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part of the experience was the realizations and love. The worst part was the "sleep paralysis" (as it is called) that led to it.

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Some people have asked me, "Why didn't you go spying on someone?" or visit a celebrity, but the answer to this is simple, when you are "out", there is no perception of personality or such desires, there is only love and purpose. I would also like to add that I was *fully aware* that my body was in bed asleep.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     I believe I have described it as best as I could, although the only way to know its true nature is to experience it.

 Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Possibly remove the question regarding education? Acquisition of knowledge does not incur intelligence or experience, but understanding of knowledge does. It does not take an intelligent person to have these experiences, and what grades are acquired in school are not relevant (in my opinion!). Aside from that the questionnaire was very efficiently structured and thorough. Thank you.