Mary K's Experience
On 08/31/03 I gave birth to a daughter, it was a Sunday, at 11.45 pm. The following day my brother Jose Luis went to visit me at the hospital, but when he came to see me I felt sad, because he told me my mother did not want to see me. He said: "I think that for Mama to see you it would need something big to happen, or someone would have to die." Several days passed, and my brother did not come to see me, I was concerned about it all the week, and decided to go to his house. It was only 6 days since I gave birth but something in me told me that I must go. I took my car and my children and went to my brother's house. He was meticulously cleaning his house, and told me that this was because our sister in Minnesota was coming to visit us and was going to stay in his house. I stayed all day with him, chatting, laughing and crying over a movie, but something in me would not leave me in peace. Something was going to happen, I did not know what, and he was both very happy and sad at the same time.
But as we were about to watch the movie, around 8.00 pm, we were seated, my brother in one corner and myself in the other, when I saw a light which shone right through my brother's whole body. It was a very intense and narrow light. I was in shock, not knowing what to say, but paralysed, seeing my brother, then looking at his eyes, where I saw a deep, black emptiness in them. When I looked, astounded, I reacted by crying out, and I told him what had happened, but he laughed and said to me that he could see nothing surrounding me.
Time passed, we watched the movie, and it was then 10.30pm. He asked me to stay over, but I said that he should sleep, as he had to work the next day. He replied: "Do you know I hardly sleep at all? Since I had my accident I get nightmares about dying, for a few seconds, and then I come back to life, but I have entered through a window which I should not have entered, and this gives me nightmares. So I drink beer to forget what I've dreamed, in order to get some rest."
I did not know that my brother had to go through all this on such a scale. But I felt tired, had a newborn baby and I wanted him to sleep. I went home. At 11.15pm on the Sunday, I got up to go to the bathroom. I had to cross the kitchen, which is narrow, and it is hot in California, but when I came out of the bathroom and was crossing the kitchen, I felt a cold like that of winter, and the curtains moved. I felt this strongly in my body, until I came to my room, feeling very cold. I leaned out of the window, and heard dogs barking very strangely. We have a belief, that when a dog howls, someone has died; I returned to my bed after a few minutes, no longer feeling cold, not knowing at this point that this same night my brother went out to buy a beer, and on crossing the street was run over. The time was 11.45pm on Sunday, I found this out only on Tuesday at midday. My sister came from Minnesota for my brother's funeral, it was the saddest day of my life, as I felt guilty for not staying at his house. But, as he said to me, something had to happen to make my mother start speaking to me again. Until my brother's death, he was the only one in the family whom I spent a lot of time with.
On 08/31/03 yo di a luz una nina, fue un domingo a las 11:45 pm al siguiente dia mi hermano Jose Luis fue a visitarme al hospital,pero cuando fue a verme senti una tristeza por que dijo que mi mama no queria verme. El me dijo yo creo que para mama tenga que verte algo grande tiene que pasar o alguien tiene que fallecer.Pasaron varios dias y mi hermano no llego a visitarme me tenia toda la semana preocupada, me decidi ir a su casa tenia 6 dias de dar a luz pero habia algo en mi que me decia que tenia que ir,agarre mi carro mis hijos y fui ala casa de mi hermano.El estaba limpiando detalladamente su casa ,el me dijo por que nuestra hermana de minnesota hiba a visitarnos y se hiba a quedar en su casa,me quede todo el dia con el platicamos reimos lloramos al ver una movie,pero habia algo en mi que no me dejaba en paz,algo que hiba a pasar pero no sabia que era el estaba muy contento y triste ala vez.Pero cuando hibamos a ver las como las 8:00p.m estabamos sentados mi hermano de una esquina y yo de otra cuando mire una luz que atravezo' por todo el cuerpo de mi hermano era luz muy intensa y muy delgadita me quede en shock no sabia que decir pero me quede paralizada viendo a mi hermano y luego me quede viendo asus ojos y mire un vacio negro y profundoen ellos que cuando lo mire atonita reaccione y grite,les conte lo que paso y el me dijo riendo pues no miro nada a mi alrededor.Paso el tiempo miramos la movie ya eran las 10:30 pm el me dijo que me quedara yo le dije que el tenia que dormir por que al siguiente dia tenia que trabajar,el me contesto "sabias que casi no duermo?,me dan pesadillas desde que tuve mi accidente que falleci,por unos segundos,y luego volvi a ala vida,pero entre a ventana que supuestamente no tenia que entrar,y eso me da pesadillas so yo tomo cervesa asi no me acuerdo que sone y puedo descansar.A esa magnitud no sabia que mi hermano tenia que pasar por todo eso.Pero me sentia cansada tenia ina recien nacida y yo queria que el durmiera.Me fui ami casa.A las 11:15 pm ,el Domingo ala media noche me levantepara ir al bano tenia que atravesar la cosina es agosto y es caliente en California pero cuando sali del bano e hiba cruzando la cosina senti un frio como invierno y las cortinas se movieron muy recio por mi cuerpo asi senti hasta que llegue a mi cuarto con mucho frio me asome por la ventana y oi perros que ladraban muy raro y tenemos creencia que cuando el perro aulla alguien fallece,me regrece ami cama alos pocos minutos ya no senti frio,para ese entonces no sabia que esa noche mi hermano salio a comprar una cerveza y al cruzar la calle fue atropellado el domingo alas 11:45p.m.El y yo me enter hasta el martes al medio dia,mi hermana vino deMinessota para el funeral de mi hermano.Fue un dia mas triste de mi vida por que me sentia culpable que no quede en su casa,pero como el me dijo algo tenia que pasar para que mi mama me volviera a hablar, hasta que mi hermano fallecio,el era el unico hermano conque yo pase mas tiempo juntos
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes la lus que mire atravez de mi hermano.
Yes, the light which I saw through my brother
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain Por que la luz que mire, no sabia que significaba,y esa noche mi hermano murio 1 hr.despues que me fui de su casa.
Uncertain, as the light I saw, I did not know its meaning, and that night my brother died 1 hour after I left his home.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
When I saw the light.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When I saw the light.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain. There are times that I heard my name, or voices, but not always.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes, by dreams sometimes.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes. By dreams
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes. With family only.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. On my brother we were all present when it occurred, but I was the only one who saw him.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? when I was 15 years old I was taken by a big wave in my country. I don't know what happened, but it brought me back to the surface, I don't remember much, I only know that I'm still alive.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? It took me to move to another state to keep going in my life for what happened to my brother. Now I feel at peace, I was depressed for several years.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Since my brother passed away I believe strongly that there is something on the other side.