Martina R's Experiences
I had two distinct OBE's, both occurred spontaneously while I was dancing. The first time I was a teenager, the second time I was about 40 years old.
As a teenager I often used to put on my favorite music while alone in my room and danced to it. My eyes were closed and I enjoyed the music and the dancing. A feeling arose that I was more than my body, I was larger than it and was filling up the room. It was kind of puzzling because I saw myself as if looking through a telescope the wrong way round - my body (as other things in the room) seemed very very small, and very far away, while I was very very large. There were no thoughts, no emotions in me. I liked the experience very much and was in awe. It was a very peaceful, relaxed, and serene feeling. It was just 'I AM'.
I also experienced this 'telescope effect' a few times on other occasions, for example while doing housework or something simple, but not as pronounced as the time when I was dancing and had my eyes closed. I remember on some occasions I could listen to my thoughts like listening to a radio. It was obvious that on a deep level I am not my thoughts.
However, I have not had this exact experience again.
The second OBE occurred again when I was dancing, this
time it was with a group of people. We were participating in a dance meditation
that took place in a large hall. The music was very beautiful and I gave myself
into it, dancing. I started feeling that I become the music, the flutes and
sounds, there was no separation anymore between me and the music ... it was not
that I and the music merged, I WAS the music, I was sound. Next I felt myself
becoming larger and filling the whole hall. I was the music and the space in the
hall. It was a beautiful, almost majestic feeling. There were no thoughts, just
'YES, I am THIS'. I felt I experienced the real me, my body, my emotions and
thoughts were not the real me, THIS was! It felt completely natural. I was very
happy, joyful, relaxed. I was very grateful too.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes words do not suffice and I had to think about every word and sentence carefully
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? higher than usual, feeling of being wide awake
Was the experience dream like in any way? no
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I was just consciousness, without any appearance or form. I was space, I was nothing.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? joy, peaceful, serene
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? no
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes The 'telescope' experience - space seemed to stretch, I seemed to be far away yet I was in everything.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes The belief that we are our bodies that is given to us by parents and society changed after the experiences. I know we are not just our bodies - if at all. I know my real me is not tied to my body.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I am more aware of my body and thoughts. I meditate. I always remind myself to come back, to breath and center myself, and observe. I feel a lot of empathy and compassion for any form of suffering around me, be it humans, animals, or plants. I'm a vegetarian.
I have no wish to pursue any career. I have no goals
or plans for myself. I just want to help as much as I can wherever help is
needed to ease pain and suffering.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I don't know which changes in my life have come specifically because of these experiences. I guess that the first experience, when I was a teenager, led me to meditation.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Not until recently when I told my husband about it. He was interested but I don't know if it influenced him in any way.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? immense peace and joy
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was to be just space, just consciousness, an observer. It was so serene and majestic and peaceful.
There was no bad part.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I do sometimes feel like an observer. I have in other meditations felt the serenity and the peace and the joy but I have not felt the clear separation from my body again.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
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