Mark W's Experience
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Experience description:

At the time of the accident I was depressed and an alcoholic. My life was a mess, I was kicked out of school at 15 due to a poor childhood. I drank heavily but still worked a hard physical job. The night before the accident, I had been to a night club and smoked drugs as well as drank alcohol. The next morning I bought more alcohol to keep me going throughout the day as I was going to see the final of a football match in London and I needed some courage to get me there. I traveled in a train to London with some friends, drinking and joking along the way. When we got to the station in London I remember looking out of the window and seeing a footbridge across the railway tracks and decided to head in that direction. It was on that bridge according to witnesses I fell 50 feet onto the concrete floor below. I fractured my skull 5 times, lost a lot of blood and was put on life support and was in a coma for a month. 

In the coma at some point during that month, I think almost instantly after I fell and was knocked out, I felt as if I was in a dim grey lobby of a hotel or waiting room with grey stairs, dark grey people I knew from the past laughed and joked and walked up or ran up the stairs, I reached out tried to get some attention, some acknowledged me as they passed me. Some of them just walked normally, some in a hurry. children scampered up the stairs, playing and messing around laughing. Some of the grey figures I did not recognize. Strangers were sat around me on chairs, it felt as if we were waiting for something or someone. I tried to make sense of it all. I also saw friends that traveled with me on the train, standing at the bottom of the stairs talking to each other, they acknowledged me, but did not enter in any conversation.  

Then I felt as if I was on a fluffy cloud laying back in comfort, surrounded by a brilliant white light, not a silver light or a light powered by electricity, far stronger than any high wattage light bulb. The light was infinite. the light enveloped me with unconditional love, I was totally relaxed, without pain, peaceful and felt an unlimited love oozing thru my body. No drug, no matter how powerful on this world could or ever would be able to give u this powerful emotion. I was in total peace, totally secure and safe, floating on this cloud of love in the brilliant light was an experience that no single word could describe. I did not want to leave that place, I felt serine, happy and loved. My whole life changed when I returned. I did not want to, but I was sucked back into the cloud and retuned into the hospital room.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    laying back into the cloud looking into the infinite white light, in awe of bathing in the unconditional love

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            laying back into the cloud looking into the infinite white light, in awe of bathing in the unconditional love

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     tried to see the end of the light, tried to make sense of it, Realizing it was infinite.

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      Hard to remember if there was soft music playing or anything at all

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            serenity, peace, love, every physical ailment or injury had gone

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      the enclosure seemed to be a grey hotel lobby, I was sat waiting with other people.

 Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     some people I recognized but could not put a name to them were in the grey room, none of them communicated with me. they seemed otherwise engaged with each other, talking or meditating.

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     time was irrelevant, there was no need for time. It was infinite

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I sensed that my experience was special. I was bathed in light and unconditional love

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      I am not sure if the grey waiting room was the final room before I was called.

What was first, the grey waiting room, or the brilliant white light?

 Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I can absorb other people negativity either by speaking to them or holding them. I follow my instincts, they are always right.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I spoke to a head injury doctor a few months after the accident and explained what I went through. She did not seem interested and said it was a chemical reaction in my brain.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I was always interested in the paranormal and read a few magazines of the unknown as a child. I knew afterward my accident without discussion with anyone that I had had an NDE

 How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    confused. My head injury was very bad, I had short term memory loss, I could not concentrate on much, I was always tired, I was paralyzed on my left side. I couldn't speak, I could not make sense of anything. But I new deep down that my experience was special.

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Total life changing experience. I followed my guide subconsciously, I went to a rehab, stopped drinking since 1994. I worked with the young homeless for 6 years, I am also chairman of a club for young people in a disadvantaged area of town. I also worked with Old people, disabled people. Drug users. Everything I do now has a purpose. I don't question it now, I don't argue, I go with the flow

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            The experience was meant to happen. I needed a kick in my life to see reality and to change for the better. I would be dead by now or caused the deaths of others by the way I was leading my life at the time. I was reckless, a time bomb waiting to explode. Now I can heal others, every word that I say to others is meaningful and can change lives for the better, without me realizing what gift I have been given. Its very special and I feel honored to be given it. I am not scared of death and now embrace it. If other people pass on, I know that they are in a happier place.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I am very aware of others and their needs, It is very draining being able to absorb other peoples negativity. I have met thousands of people that have 'dumped' all their problems on me. It is hard.

 Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I know there is a higher power, no matter what religion people follow, it makes no difference.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I can even pass on my healing powers over the internet. If I chat to a friend on Msn across the other side of the world and they have a problem, I feel my hands get warm and I feel the love in my body pass through my keyboard to them. I can relax them and make them feel secure. I am guided, I can feel the presence of that spirit as I type, I know exactly what to say. I feel drowned in that unconditional love and it has to be passed on. My thoughts and words can heal. I realize that now.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     It has been a relief to get it all off my chest. it has helped me make sense of the gift I now have. I spent years unsure and uncertain. I did not think anyone would believe me or understand, especially after it was brushed aside my a doctor. Now I feel positive. Thank you.