Mark E's Experience
One night during a terrible argument between my parents and older brother, I was in bed trying to go to sleep, but was extremely upset at the atmosphere in our home. The constant violent arguments caused me to become very depressed and thinking strongly about committing suicide, just to get away from my situation. I was only six years old, and my home life and school life was just terrible. I wanted out.
I eventfully went off to sleep. I began to dream that I flew through the air very fast, and landed in front of our local church. It was dark, and I could see the traffic on the road going past.
My attention was suddenly drawn towards the church and I saw the front door open. I had a strong feeling to go inside. So I did. At this point it all still felt like a dream. I entered the church and stood there for a short time. Then this rather tall thin man dressed like a medieval monk came along side of me, to my left. Then the "dream" became real. He reached down and took my left hand, and had this strong urge to follow him. I was not scared or afraid, but I felt that this person was extremely "powerful" and wise. He sort of "told" me not to be afraid and to go with him. We walked down the central Isle of the church towards the confessional boxes on the left. The priest's center box door was opened, and we walked into it. Inside, we kept walking, but it was a dimly lit tunnel. Before I knew what was going on, we began to move extremely quickly until we began to "fly". The sides of the tunnel pulsated with different colors, but mainly with a strong emerald green color which was very soothing. Every time I see the green color from the 1930's Wizard of OZ movie, I'm reminded of this experience. We travelled very fast through the tunnel. It had a lot of twists and turns. As we went faster and faster, I was hearing this increasing high pitched sound, like the buzzing of cicadas on a hot night, but only higher in pitch and getting faster as we went. I could also "feel" the sound too!
Suddenly we came out of the tunnel into a very bright grassed field. Like a school play ground. Except that the people there were having a lot of fun chasing each other. But they were flying, and going very fast. I felt as if I had arrived at a birthday party and I wanted to join in. The tall person said to me, that eventually I will come back to this again, but I had an extremely important job to do. He said that my family life will change for the better very soon and not to be afraid. He then said that when I have finished the job I was sent out to do, I will return back here again and join in the fun once more. Then he said that I was not to forget this place because it was my home. But I had to return. I was shown this place in order to help me through the current difficulties and stay strong. Then he said it was now time for me to go back. I was not going to argue, as this person was very tall, and felt very "strong" and was not to be messed with. His word was his order. He was not a god, or any religious figure, but a very strong and wise "teacher" I felt. I felt that this experience was a bit of a pep talk, a sort of encouragement to remember when things got tough in my life.
The next thing I knew was that I was falling back down the tunnel very fast. The noise became very loud and fast, and I felt this incredible squeezing and pain. Like I was being forced into a tight boot. Then I woke with a start. Everything thing was now quiet and I fell back to sleep.
Eventually after a few years, my family life settled down. I first found out
about NDEs in the early 1980's. The experiences told, matched mine, only that I
did not die, only wanted too very much because of my home life. I've always
wanted to try to understand why a six year old, who wanted to opt out of life,
had a NDE like episode way before they ever became public.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Due to family issues between older siblings and parents, resultant arguments and violent disputes, and physical abuse at the hands of nuns at the catholic school I was in, left me wanting to commit suicide. I just wanted out.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was dreaming at first, then it suddenly became very real and the dream like quality dissolved.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Everything was more colourful and intense.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I remember seeing everywhere at once, yet could focus in to things as well.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Seemed normal, except for that buzzing experience before and after the playground visit.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very happy, yet vey lonely and wanting to go back again. Like I went to a really big birthday party where I knew everyone, but I was not supposed to be there, or invited. A real mixture of sadness too because of it.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Pulsating light and dark undulations. Emerald green in color which gave off a strong feeling I can't describe. Had a lot of twists and turns.
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Can't use very bright.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
As in my story.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Can't remember exactly.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I was at peace and had hope.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
Was not allowed to go forward, or join in.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Uncertain
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was too young at the time to understand what was going on.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: It helped get me through a very difficult time I'm my life at the time. And I still think back on it during difficult times.
My experience directly resulted in: Unknown
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes I was happier.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain There has been times where I've been "warned" about accidents etc.. Some I avoided, others I didn't or couldn't.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It gave me hope.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real It left me confused for some time after. I was only six at the time.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was probably real There's more to life than what we think!
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I tried my best