Marilou S's Experience
My experience happened when I was very young. I'm not even sure how old -- maybe 4 to 6 yrs. old? I'm sharing this experience because I have not thought about it for decades--but in the last year, I have been thinking about it a lot. The memories are coming back to me, although not in great detail.
My mother died in 2007 of pancreatic cancer, but before she died I asked her if she remembered what happened about the lump in my throat, and she said she did, but never could explain it.
One day I remember feeling a lump in my throat. I told my mother that I had an "Adam's Apple", like my Daddy. She thought I was just being silly, but I insisted. She looked at my throat and immediately made a Dr. appt. for me. I remember having quite a few Dr. appointments., then my Mom told me they were going to have to operate on my throat to get rid of the lump. I never had any pain and I felt completely fine, except for my "Adam's Apple". I am an identical twin, and my twin sister never experienced anything similar, to my knowledge. We are very close, and my mother says we had our own language that only we understood.
I remember being very aware that my operation would be done on the following morning. Everyone seemed very, very worried about me. I went to bed, like usual, and fell asleep. During the night, I remember? (or felt) someone coming to me and pulling me upwards. I felt very safe and secure. I remember thinking it was an angel, but I don't remember if the entity was male or female. We were looking down on me, in a hospital bed. I recall conversing for quite awhile, but I don't remember anything we spoke about until the question, "Do you want to stay or come with us?". I remember thinking that it would be okay to go, but I wanted to stay with my twin. At the moment I thought this, I woke up.
At first I didn't remember what day it was. Then I touched my throat. No lump. I ran to my mother in the kitchen and told her she didn't have to worry about me anymore, because the lump in my throat was gone. Naturally, she thought I was just scared, and didn't want to go to the hospital, but when she looked at my throat, she immediately called the Dr. and took me to the hospital. After the Dr. examined me, he confirmed that the lump was gone, but he had no idea how it could have disappeared. I told my Mother that I had spoke to the angel the night before and that everything would be ok. I remember everyone being so relieved and mystified about it, but we never really spoke about it again.
I never had any other problems associated with the lump, and have been relatively healthy in every way since then. I cannot explain what happened or why, only in the last year, that I have continually thought about it.
That's my story, any
explanations or observations would be welcome. Thank you for letting me share
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Uncertain I do not remember if I was given medication. The experience happened to me the night before my scheduled surgery.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I remember everyone being very worried about me, but I was so young I was not aware of the seriousness of my condition.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Very alert, but on a "different plane".
Was the experience dream like in any way? kind of.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I was looking down at myself from a great height.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Safe, secure.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I don't remember.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain It was more like a white fog surrounding us.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Very beautiful and light. It was by my side. It communicated with me, but I don't remember most of it. I did not feel like I knew them, just that they cared about me.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I knew I was somewhere else, not really a dream, but definitely an out-of-body experience.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Yes, I remember feeling very certain then, but I do not know what I was certain of, or why.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes Yes, I felt like I was hovering close to the ceiling of the hospital room.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes I was asked if I wanted to return.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain My twin and I have always been able to communicate with little or no words.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain can't remember
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Not sure.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes My mother, my twin, my husband. Not sure anyone believed me. It was long before these experiences were commonplace or discussed in public.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Safety, security, love.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? It was all good. I just don't understand what happened or what it all means.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Wondering if there could be any info about this in my medical records. If so, how do I find these records?
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes