Maria T's Experience
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Experience description:

      At age 12 I was sleeping.  I thought I was dreaming about my grandfather's death but when I looked back over the way things went that day I realized that it wasn't a dream at all but was an out of body experience (OBE).  I recall the details vividly.  I was all of sudden in a hospital in the ICU unit.  I saw the monitors attached to my grandfather flat line and heard the emergency code for him.  I saw the nurses and doctors rush in and try to save him.  They did the paddle shocks on him but it was no use.  It was his time to move on to the next step.  I watched as his spirit floated out of his body and as he drifted off he looked over where I was looking on and smiled at me.  No one else was even aware that I was there.  I thought that was strange at the time. 

My mother woke me for school and said I was hard to wake up.  I woke up somewhat confused as to what had happened and mom asked what was wrong.  I told her I had had a strange dream or something.  She asked me what it was and I wouldn't tell her at that time.  I went to school and 2 hours later mom was there to pick me up.  She told me that my grandfather had died at about 7 am.  I woke up at about 7:10 am that morning.  I told her she was kidding and she said no she wasn't.  Then I told her about the "dream" I had been having when she was trying to get me up for school and she said that yes he had died from heart trouble. 

At the time it was kind of scary for me and yet was kind of comforting as well. When I was crying later after the funeral and things I woke up with my grandfather on my bed telling me it would be ok.  I know he was there because my door was closed when I went to sleep and open when I woke up.  When I asked mom about it she said no one had been up during the night to open.  That helped me better deal with the things that I had experienced and the things I continue to experience at times even now.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I was in a totally different place and I can remember coming back to my bedroom and seeing mom standing at my door and myself on my bed asleep.  I reentered body and woke up to go to school.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  confusion, sadness, peace that grandfather's pains were at end, guilt cause I didn't say goodbye and I love you but in a way I actually did and that smile from him was the acknowledgement from him that he knew.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  Yes.  I heard monitors flat line and doctor's and nurses talking and trying to save my grandfather.  Those were things I had never heard in a hospital before.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  Doctors and nurses and people in waiting rooms.  But the only one who actually saw me was my grandfather as his spiritual self left the body behind.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes the doctors and nurses did TRY to use the paddle shock things to bring my grandfather back from a flat line on the monitors.  My aunt and uncle were in the waiting room. 

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes, no one other than grandfather's spirit was aware I was even there.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I now know that it was my way of being able to let grandfather know that I loved him and would miss him.  Also a way to say good bye that otherwise I wouldn't have had.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  I was still somewhat dazed about being able to see myself sleeping and mom at my door but knew I needed to get back in the body I use to go one with the things needed of me in this life.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I have dreams, OBE's and "feelings" when something is about to happen whether it's good or bad.  I have felt my best friends labor pains when she went into labor.  I know when my friends need to talk to me or just need time alone.  I follow my instincts about all things and now have been able to tell when something will be for a good benefit or a bad one

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I began to believe there was life after death.  Before I thought it was just death and then nothing else.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  It helped me become more aware of how I feel about certain things and how to follow those feelings even when others think I am out of my mind.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  I am not sure how they were influenced and some didn't believe me.  My mom treated it as a dream and said that she was sure that was what I believed happen.  It's not just a belief of what happened it's a knowing that that is what happened.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  shock and curiosity.  i am still studying all kinds of things to better be in touch with my inner self.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best part was I got to say goodbye and the worst part is that I lost my grandfather on the earthly plane, but he can still communicate with me when he wishes and I now know that he is always with me in my heart.  We don't really die we just change back to our spiritual selves and shed a body no longer needed for spiritual growth.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I no longer fear death or cry so much when someone I love dies.  I have tried to help others when they lose a loved one understand that they are only shedding a body but not everyone is willing to believe this.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I have had other OBE's but not with the same person.  It is usually concerning something that will affect me or someone close to me.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes