Maria N's Experience


Experience description:   

I was in my room thinking about my ex boyfriend (we had broke up a week before) and wishing to die. Then i went to bed in tears and felt asleep. At first, i saw a dream with me and my friends being at school laughing and chatting.

Suddenly, the dream ended. My whole body was paralyzed and i was hearing a strange sound like music that after 2-3 seconds it stopped. I tried to move by i couldn't. Then I felt myself leaving my physical body. I was very frightened and  had the feeling that I was about to die. I was about 2 feet above my body, looking at it but not clearly. The room was very dark and full of shadows. I tried to scream but i was so paralyzed that i couldn't even move my lips! Then i said to myself "I don't want to die". The moment I made this thought I felt being pulled down to my body very fast and then i opened my eyes. I was back!

The feeling i had right after I woke up wasn't exactly fear. I can't describe it but i can remember that I was thinking: "what happened to me?" After  about five minutes i went to my parents' room. It was 03:15 am so they were sleeping. I woke them up and described the whole experience to them. They told me to relax and try to sleep! They couldn't understand what had happened. They even told me to leave the lights open if i was too scared to go to bed after that "bad dream" (this is how they called it!!!).

I went to my room but I tried not to fall asleep in case it happened again because I was sure that I was going to die if it did. The next morning i didn't mentioned it to anyone in the house but I couldn't get it out of my mind. Now, two days after that I have the feeling that it will happen again, but if it does I will be more prepared.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain, the feelings

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           high. i have every sense of myself and of what was happening

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   no. before it i saw a dream, but from the moment it begun i was awake and totally knew what was happening

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            something like fear

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           yes, at the beginning i heard a sound like music but it stopped after 2-3 seconds

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           No

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes

as i was watching sleeping body i saw next to it my mobile phone. i tried to catch it because i thought that the sound was coming from it but then the music stopped so i stopped trying

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

i wanted to return to my body and it was very intense. when i thought "i don't want to die" i instantly returned

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

i wanted to contact everyone and especially my ex and tell them that i loved them because i had the feeling that i wasn't going to see them again because i would die

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       it's too soon to answer such a question

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

my parents. they thought that it was a dream.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  i was trying to seek some answers to questions concerning the experience

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      worst: when i was paralyzed and couldn't scream

best: when i returned to my body

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    It was ok