Some 20 years ago I was in a group about death run by my mentor Hans.  We talked about how to help people who are dying, those that have already passed and each other.  We meditated to reach people on the other side and bring back messages to their loved ones.  It was a group of love for the dead and the living.  I loved every minute of it.  It was an opening of my soul to a skill I was very good at and could help those we touched both dead and alive. The group has subsequently split up but at the time of this incident we were working together.  My friend Marilyn is still a friend and was in the group.  Her mother was dying and Marilyn trusted me to help her Mother pass over.

One morning Marilyn called me and told me that her mom was going to pass that day.  I rushed to her mother�s nursing home and found Marilyn alone with her dying mother reading passages that the group had suggested to comfort her mom�the 23rd psalm being the favorite.  I sat in chair to the side of the room and ask Marilyn to continue reading while I went into meditation.  Immediately I felt worried about my purse. I felt I had to watch it, to hold on to it, to worry about it.  I was disturbed and came out of the meditation to remember that my purse was in the car and not on the floor around me.  I went back into meditation and had the same feelings.  This time I was smart enough to realize that they were Marilyn�s mom�s feelings.  She was worried about taking all her baggage with her on the trip just as anyone does who is going on a long trip with a lot of baggage.  I told Marilyn   that her mom was worried about her baggage and to please tell her that she did not have to take it with her ever again.  I also began to mediate that she was able to drop her luggage forever.  Shortly afterwards I felt a huge relief like nothing I had ever felt before and realized that her mom had dropped the baggage.  I have to stop here and say that every emotion described in this piece can not be explained in  English or any other language.  They are so huge and overwhelming and wonderful that we have no words for them. 

Very soon after her mother dropped her baggage, I felt a gigantic swoosh  from both of our bodies and I felt the most tremendous and wonderful relief I had ever felt.  All I can describe it as is if I had been released from bondage after eons.  I had and have never felt  anything as wonderful as at that moment.  We moved quickly out somewhere totally new and different and I wanted to stay and continue the journey with Marilyn�s mom.  There was a brief reflection   when I wondered what Marilyn would do when she found me dead in the chair.  And someone of great power  said to me � that is for the living  to worry about not for you, you are now among the dead.� And I knew that I was dead and forgot totally about living and was going out and never returning. It was exactly what I wanted to do.  I could not have turned around for any reason.  I was gone.  But then, Marilyn�s mom dropped my metaphorical hand and said �you can�t go� and I dropped incredibly hard and disappointed back into my chair.  I was still in mediation and I tried with all my might to get back out but it was impossible..  The thought then  came to me was that I could find the first dying person and go with them.  To get back was all I wanted to do.  Just then Marilyn broke the  experience by saying� she�s gone�.   I told her that I knew and that I had gone with her. 

Both before and after that there have been death experiences with other dying people but none that have let me go so far out or feel more wonderful than this experience. I have never feared death, the dying or all that is associated with death since this experience. I know that every day I yearn to repeat this experience and I know with certainty that God is pure love and that there is nothing more wonderful than that.  I know he/she will never stop loving me absolutely and if any mistakes are made that they are mine and God does not care.  I (We all) are perfect in his eyes and thus we all are perfect even if we ourselves do not believe it.   This experience has changed my life forever and I thank God for it and think that I am one of the luckiest people in the world.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     No words in English

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Contact with all that is

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Contact with all that is

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Colors not seen on earth

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain     

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes           

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes    

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes    

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes    

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No
           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes    

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes    

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes    

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes    

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes    

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes                

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   TOO LONG