Malcolm C's Experience

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Experience description:   

I woke up from being asleep, felt that I was not breathing and lay for what seemed a few seconds not able to move or breath and it was dark and I was laying on my bed.  Then I saw a brillant light to the upper left of my vision that seemed distant.  It was increadibly hot and bright but I could look at it and I felt warm and safe.  I remember feeling very calm and happy and very emotional.  I wanted to be in the light and I felt like what was in the light was reality and the life I have I did not want to go back to.  I felt that everything I ever wanted to know about me was inside the light and that there were people there.  But I slipped away and woke up.  I was crying and wanted to go straight back to the light and shut my eyes to see if I could get back.  I grabbed my wife and told her what had happened. I was shocked at how I felt when it was over as I have 2 kids, a wife and a lovely family that I love greatly but I did not care if I left them and went back to that lovely warm light.

I know that I am not so scared of death now.   I have never been religious and love science and maths (I am a math teacher!) but this experience has changed me.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Full, it was as if I was completely awake but not in control of any sort of body and I could not choose what i wanted to do or where to go

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   yes but definately different!!

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I did not seem to have a body but to me seemed to just be a set of eyes that I could look at the light with.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           I heard nothing

Did you see a light?           Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

there is more to life that just what is here and what we see and know.  There is another place, not like in the movies that heaven or hell is like, but simply another place, that as far as I got from my experience, may well be unique to all of us.  A place where you are complete and are safe.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I now believe that there may well be something after death.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       no

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

I told my wife and family and they took it on board.  They did not say that much really.  I suppose it is difficult to react to that.  They believed me at least!  I dont think it has changed anyone particularly, I dont think people can really react properly untill they have had some kind of experience themselves.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The light itself and that feelings I had and the fact that I felt that I was coming out of a dream back to where I should be.

The worst part was being brought back to continue life.  Somehow I do not care quite so much for what I am doing here as I did and I know deep down I would rather be back in the light!

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I would like to know if this was a real experience or if, because of lack of breath, my oxygen levels were reduced in my brain for a time and my brain produced this experience.  I just don't know what to think as I know what the experience felt like but my rational mind tells me there should be another answer.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes