Malcolm C's Experience
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Experience description:
I woke up
from being asleep, felt that I was not breathing and lay for what seemed a few
seconds not able to move or breath and it was dark and I was laying on my bed.
Then I saw a brillant light to the upper left of my vision that seemed distant.
It was increadibly hot and bright but I could look at it and I felt warm and
safe. I remember feeling very calm and happy and very emotional. I wanted to
be in the light and I felt like what was in the light was reality and the life I
have I did not want to go back to. I felt that everything I ever wanted to know
about me was inside the light and that there were people there. But I slipped
away and woke up. I was crying and wanted to go straight back to the light and
shut my eyes to see if I could get back. I grabbed my wife and told her what
had happened. I was shocked at how I felt when it was over as I have 2 kids, a
wife and a lovely family that I love greatly but I did not care if I left them
and went back to that lovely warm light. I know
that I am not so scared of death now. I have never been religious and love
science and maths (I am a math teacher!) but this experience has changed me. What was
the best and worst part of your experience?
The light itself and that feelings
I had and the fact that I felt that I was coming out of a dream back to where I
should be.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Full, it was as if I was
completely awake but not in control of any sort of body and I could not choose
what i wanted to do or where to go
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
yes but definately different!!
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I did not seem to have a body
but to me seemed to just be a set of eyes that I could look at the light with.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
I heard nothing
Did you see a light?
Yes
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
there is more to life that just
what is here and what we see and know. There is another place, not like in the
movies that heaven or hell is like, but simply another place, that as far as I
got from my experience, may well be unique to all of us. A place where you are
complete and are safe.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I now believe that there may
well be something after death.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? no
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I told my wife and family and
they took it on board. They did not say that much really. I suppose it is
difficult to react to that. They believed me at least! I dont think it has
changed anyone particularly, I dont think people can really react properly
untill they have had some kind of experience themselves.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I would
like to know if this was a real experience or if, because of lack of breath, my
oxygen levels were reduced in my brain for a time and my brain produced this
experience. I just don't know what to think as I know what the experience felt
like but my rational mind tells me there should be another answer.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes