It was about 11 o'clock at night and I
was sleeping peacefully when the telephone rang and I was given the news that my
great-grandmother, 92 years old, died in her bed.
I was immediately upset about it. I was truly very grief-stricken and I couldn't
stop crying - I missed her so much.
My mother took me to her bed to sleep because I was shaking and I continued to
cry.
I couldn't manage to sleep at all, despite all of my mother's efforts to comfort
me.
At a certain point, I suddenly fell asleep, much to my mom's amazement, which
she told me afterwards.
As I had fallen prey to the total fatigue I found myself in a place, identical
to any other place one can find on the earth. Only it was doubly wonderful.
Everything shone and all was as if it sang about the colors, the light, the
intense and joyous warmth.
In front of me there was a stretch of glimmering azure ocean. The air was
luminous and warm. I felt intense pleasure, peace, tranquility, infinite joy,
and total well-being all from within and even if I tried to think about all of
my earthly problems, I didn't care at all about them. They were only transient
things and of little importance.
I looked at myself. I was dressed in a white, very luminous tunic. I looked at
my left and I realized that there was a poplar forest and I thought that people
were supposed to arrive there once they were dead but I had already found myself
in the center of this magnificent meadow.
I found myself on a sort of sea-cliff, so high that I couldn't see how high it
was but I knew anyway that I was extremely high and I also knew that its rocks
were white, extremely white. There were some white pathways in the grass and one
led in front of me off of the cliff that presented a continuation of the cliff
towards the sea before falling off the cliff onto itself.
I tried to go towards that direction to look at the sea at the edge of the
cliff. However, as I advanced, the cliff elongated itself automatically,
therefore not permitting me to overlook the cliff.
The sea was extremely luminous. There was direct, high sun in from of me and it
illuminated everything. However, I saw that there was another fountain of light,
father away at my right, semi-hidden behind the headland that overlooked the
cliff. So I was interested in this fount of light, still stronger than the sun,
extremely luminous, intense and teeming with luminous sparkles. I don't know how
to explain it - it was a pure and white fountain. In that moment, a fount of
white and luminous light appeared at my right, but semi-hidden from my view. As
I was trying to look at it "in the face," it hid itself. I turned to look at my
right and that sort of "column" of light seemed to play hide-and-seek. It
didn't want to show all of itself.
It then transmitted to me telepathically, without words or any gesture but only
with direct thoughts in my mind, that my great-grandmother was absolutely fine
and that she was there (even if I couldn't see her). I was tranquil and happy
and I also wanted to stay there and for that reason I was tempted to follow the
white spring at my right, not thinking anymore about anyone or anything earthly
- not even my family. My only thought was the column of light and that I wanted
to pursue it and stay there. Just as I was about to follow it towards my right
in the white spring (that anyway went beyond a sort of palisade if I don't
remember badly) it told me severely and still telepathically, "No! It's not the
right time!!" I then woke up in a very abrupt way.
I immediately told everything to my mom. I was much better than before. I wasn't
crying anymore and I managed to sleep the entire night.
My mother was shocked by this dream and how it happened was unexplainable, even
because she herself told me that I suddenly fell fast asleep.
I swear to you that I've never had a dream so beautiful, never a dream of this
kind, even though there have been many losses and I've suffered for many other
things, I've never dreamt something of this type.
I say dreamt because the sensation that I had was of sleeping and finding myself
physically in another place, in another place where one would find above the
earth and also above the earthly sky. It was a place much farther above, very
high.
I've even tried to draw that place but I can't seem to fully communicate all of
my feelings and do them justice.
That column of light that met me I thought could have been Jesus Christ, or
anyway some holy and important saint, even though i couldn't tell with
precision.
I have never been able to, no matter how much I've tried, to communicate the
totality of my stupendous experience with simple words.
At that time I wasn't at all familiar with near-death experiences. They started
to interest me some time after when my aunt, very believing, having recounted to
her my "dream," and very surprised, gave me a book "Life After Life" by Raymond
Moody, Jr., that in the end I read entirely only last year.
When I lived that marvelous experience I wasn't dead and in fact I saw nothing
in particular that had to do with my live on Earth.
I was amazed that I wasn't judged because I was worried that I had sinned.
I still don't know how to explain how this experience could be classified as so
similar to an NDE, especially since I wasn't dead and I continually search for
an explanation for it.
I would be very grateful to you if you could help me...
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes le emozioni di pace, tranquillit� infinita, armonia con tutto,
piacere e benessere interiore, felicit� e gioia immensa
Emotions of peace, infinite tranquility, harmony with everything, pleasure
and inner well-being, happiness and immense joy.
At the time of
this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
non appena ero nel luogo meraviglioso
As soon as I was in the wonderful place.
How did your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your
normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
non appena ero nel luogo meraviglioso
As soon as I was in
the wonderful place.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception
degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes si, era come se riuscissi a vedere a 360 gradi, sapevo esattamente
cosa mi stava intorno, � strano da spiegare, e anche quando mi voltavo
vedevo comunque tutto anche ai lati.. l'unica parte che non potevo vedere
forse per qualche strana ragione, era ci� che mi stava dietro, forse era da
dove ero arrivata io, forse non potevo vedere come ci ero arrivata li... i
colori erano molto pi� vividi e luminosi rispetto alla nostra realt�, tutto
era luminoso, avvolto in un'aura di luce quasi "calda" provavo sensazione di
tepore, di calore...
Yes, it was as if I were able to see 360 degrees around. and I knew exactly
what was around me. It's strange to explain and when I turned I saw all
sides. The only part that I couldn't see maybe for some strange reason, was
that which was behind me was from where I arrived. Maybe I couldn't see as I
arrived there. The colors were much more vivd and luminous than our reality.
Everything was luminous, at times in an aura of light almost warm and I felt
the warmth and the heat.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Uncertain non c'erano rumori riconducibili a
cose o azioni terrene. e l'essere di luce mi ha "parlato" tramite il
pensiero, ma forse dire che mi ha parlato non � corretto, perch� mi ha
trasmesso le informazioni direttamente nel mio pensiero, quindi senza voci e
rumori vari
There were no sounds having reference to earthly things or actions. The
being of light talked to me by way of thoughts, but maybe to say that it
"spoke" to me is not correct because it transmitted the information directly
in my thoughts, therefore without voices and various sounds.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
pace, clma, gioia infinita, armonia con tutto,
felicit�, piacere e benessere assoluto e totale interiore, contentezza,
sensazione di tepore e calore, spensieratezza, menefreghismo (in senso buono)
del mondo e dei miei e dei suoi problemi
Peace, calm, infinite joy, harmony with everything, peace and absolute inner
well-being, contentedness, the feeling of warmth and heat, the feeling of
being carefree and uncaring (in a good sense) about the world and I and its
problems.
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you see a
light?
Yes c'era il sole, e c'era una luce che era lontana e seminascosta dal
promontorio che stava alla mia destra (e probabilmente dietro di me dato che
dietro la mia skiena non riuscivo o forse non mi era concesso di vedere), e
per raggiungerla dovevo rposeguire per un sentierino bianchissimo sulla
scogliera, ricca di erba verde e lucente
Yes, there was the sun and there was light that was far away and semi-hidden
from the headland that was at my right (and probably behind me given that
behind my back I couldn't or maybe I wasn't permitted to see), and to reach
it I would have had to take the white path on the cliff, rich with green,
shiny grass.
Did you meet
or see any other beings?
Yes l'unico essere che mi ha trasmesso informazioni era la colonna di
luce brillante pura e bianca che mi stava a fianco alla mia destra, non la
conoscevo personalmente e non mi � stata rvelata una sua precisa identit�
anche se supponevo potesse essere Ges� o qualche spirito importante e sacro.
Comunicavamo esclusivamente tramite il pensiero, senza gesti e senza suoni o
voci. Solo col pensiero diretto e fulmineo. Ci� che io pensavo l'essere lo
poteva sentire e viceversa.
The only being that transmitted thoughts to me was the column of pure and
brilliant white light that was at my right side. I didn't know it personally
and it didn't reveal itself as a precise identity although I supposed it was
Jesus or some important and sacred spirit. We communicated exclusively
through thoughts without gestures and without sounds or voices - only with
thoughts and flashes of light. That which I thought to be could be heard and
vice-versa.
Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did you see or
visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes era un bellissimo posto di mare, ero sopra una scogliera con un
oceano immenso e azzurro che si estendeva davanti a me, stupendo, vivido,
luminoso, la scogliera era alta e c'era erba verde, prati stupendi, l'erba
era luminosa, cos� come tutto lo era, pi� vivido, brillante, intenso, alla
mia destra si estendeva soprala scogliera, un poco pi� dietro di me, un
promontorio,alla mia sinistra invece un poco pi� in la c'era un bosco, meno
vivido e brillante, e supponevo che da li arrivassero le persone morte..
Yes. It was a beautiful place at the sea. I was on a cliff above a blue and
immense ocean that extended itself in front of me - stupendous, vivid,
luminous. The cliff was high and there was green grass and stupendous
meadows. It was all most vivid, shiny and intense, extending itself above
the cliff. A little more behind me there was a headland and rather at my
left there was there was a forest, less vivid and shiny, and I supposed that
from there arrived people who had died.
Did you have
any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain non saprei, mia mamma ha detto che quel sonno mio strano e
profondo non � durato molto, per� io avevo una sensazione dilatata o
comunque alterata del tempo che scorreva li in quel luogo, ma comunque non
mi preoccupavo del tempo che passava, non ci pensavo, solo quando mi son "svegliata"
pensavo di aver dormito di pi� di quanto avessi fatto in realt�.
Uncertain. I wouldn't know. My mom said that my strange and profound dream
didn't last long, although I had an enlarged sensation or anyway altered
from time that flowed in that place. Anyway, I didn't worry about the time
that passed. I didn't think about it, only when I woke up I thought to have
slept more than had in reality.
Did you have a
sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach
a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes quando ero li volevo continuare assolutamente il mio cammino verso
la luce brillante lontano alla mia destra. cos� presi il sentiero di destra
per proseguire, e mi pare ci fosse una sorta di steccato, di qualcosa, che
veniva poi superato dal sentiero...ma non appena mi diressi in quella
direzione l'essere di luce severamente mi trasmise "No! non � il momento!" e
mi ha "rispedita" nel mondo reale... non so cosa sarebbe successo se avessi
oltrepassato lo steccato, comunque secondo me non mi era possibile muovermi
in completa libert� in quel luogo, perch� io non ero morta, stavo solo
dormendo.
Yes. When I was there I absolutely wanted to continue my walk towards the
brilliant light far away at my right. So I took the path at the right in
order to follow it. It appeared that there was some palisade that was then
passed by the path. As soon as I put myself in that direction, the being of
light severely transmitted to me "no! It's not the right moment!" and sent
me back to the real world. I don't know what would have happened if I had
passed the fence. Anyway, it wasn't possible to move in complete freedom in
that place because I wasn't dead, I was only sleeping.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Did you have
any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain una settimana prima di questo sogno mistico avevo avuto un
sogno premonitore della mia bisnonna che moriva, realizzatosi appunto la
notte stessa in cui ho fatto poi l'esperienza mistica.
Successivamente ho
avuto altri sogni premonitori, su cose personali.
A week before this mystical dream, I had had a premonitory dream that my
great-grandmother died, which came into fruition exactly the same night that
I had the mystical experience. Successively, I've had other premonitory
dreams about personal things.
Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes ne ho parlato immediatamente con mia madre, la quale ovviamente mi
crede.
Poi i giorni
seguenti con la mia migliore amica.
E poi coi familiari
pi� stretti, molto credenti, che mi hanno creduta, ma non con tutta la
famiglia, perch� non me la sentivo e tutt'ora non me la sento.
Non ne
parlo mai con qualsiasi altra persona che conosco, nemmeno col mio ragazzo,
perch� non mi piacerebbe essere schernita, derisa o considerata pazza, e so che
non comprenderebbero l'importanza e la verit� di questa esperienza, per cui me
la tengo sempre per me, tranne se capitano occasioni come questa dove posso
essere creduta
Yes. I've talked about it with my mother who obviously believed me, and then in
the following days with my best friend, and then with people in my family who
are the most close to me, very believing, but not with the whole family because
I didn't feel to and I still don't. I don't talk about it with just anyone who I
know, not even my boyfriend, because I don't want to be taunted, scoffed at, or
considered crazy. I know they wouldn't understand the importance and the reality
of this experience that will always mean so much to me.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE)
prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real ero assolutamente "fresca" dell'esperienza a
quel tempo, e comunque ero sicura di averla realmente vissuta, la sua intensit�
non lasciava ombra di dubbio, e soprattutto il collegamento col mio sogno
premonitore di una settimana prima, e i successivi sogni premonitori
I was absolutely fresh from the the experience of that time and anyway I was
sure to have really lived it, its intensity not leaving a shade of doubt and
overall the connection with my premonitory dream from a week before and the
successive premonitory dreams.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
tutta
l'esperienza � stata molto importante
The entire experience was very important.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real io credo sia stata qualcosa di reale, anche se
pi� passa il tempo e pi� purtroppo non riesco a rivivere totalmente quelle
magnifiche sensazioni di pace felicit� gioia assoluta, armonia...
I believe it was something real even though more time passes and more
unfortunately I can't totally relive the magnificent feelings of peace,
happiness, absolute joy and harmony.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
la mia fede si � rafforzata
Yes, my faith has strengthened.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
niente
Nothing
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
credo siano esaustive
I believe they are complete.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
non penso
I don't think so.