I was pretty sure that I was dying [IV methamphetamine overdose], but I felt so calm. I was in my bedroom. there was no-one with me, but suddenly someone [not visible] came & silently guided me through what I should do to increase my chances of living through it. it was the most calming voice... no sound, at all. out of nowhere, I knew things that I had never known before, so I calmly did these things right away. afterwards, I continued to stay lying in the exact way I'd been advised to for several hours. it felt so safe. [I would later read in a medical book that this position was the one that took the most pressure off of the heart as possible; a life-saver for a dying junkie whose heart was about to pop...]. I knew that I was okay again, & the only reason was due to the presence who had come & seen to it, personally. . someone, or something, had cared, & this was at a time in my life that no other living person seemed to...
like the term 'angel,' but I do know that there is a 'someone' who has kept an
eye on me, ever since... & who probably always had, my whole life before, I
guess. I don't claim to understand how these types of things work. more
importantly, I feel like I don't need to pick them apart, anymore. all I know is
that the same soothing, silent voice, who saved me as a reckless teenager over 8
years ago, has saved me again & again since. there is something in this world
that cares about us. it's this 'something' that gives it its real meaning &
weight... I'm glad that I came to know of it, even it almost killed me :)
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? while I was listening
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: how could it not be? every day life is easy to snooze through... impending death & guardian spirit-types are not.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes everything material became wavy, unstable, indistinct. this was in sound, touch, sight---everything except the inner sense. that took over.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? afraid at first, but then just protected... & so much less alone
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I already told you...
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No I already listed it above.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I already said
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I don't think I can explain.
Have you shared this experience with others? Uncertain
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I'd heard of it. seen it on TV. etc.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real same.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? to have been saved by one of the beings that I imagine are... the ones who truly rule this life [the real gods & angels, I guess] made me feel loved, again. it was like my life actually mattered enough to receive this intervention. it makes me feel like I must have some kind of purpose, or else I would not have my silent advisor, keeping me going. I didn't used to feel that way at all, & I used to want to die...
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real just because it defies modern day science does not make in untrue. I felt it. it was real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I have kinder attitudes & feelings toward religion now. I used to much more jaded about it.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes it was an overdose! I was an addict. I did later quit, but not until much later...
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? no. that's enough. [I don't talk about this, usually]