I don't like the term 'angel,' but I do know that there is a 'someone' who has kept an eye on me, ever since... & who probably always had, my whole life before, I guess. I don't claim to understand how these types of things work. more importantly, I feel like I don't need to pick them apart, anymore. all I know is that the same soothing, silent voice, who saved me as a reckless teenager over 8 years ago, has saved me again & again since. there is something in this world that cares about us. it's this 'something' that gives it its real meaning & weight... I'm glad that I came to know of it, even it almost killed me :)

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes    

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain     

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    while I was listening

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            how could it not be? every day life is easy to snooze through... impending death & guardian spirit-types are not.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     everything material became wavy, unstable, indistinct. this was in sound, touch, sight---everything except the inner sense. that took over.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     muffled

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            afraid at first, but then just protected... & so much less alone

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I already told you...

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       I already listed it above.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain     

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I already said

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      I don't think I can explain.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Uncertain     

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I'd heard of it. seen it on TV. etc.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    same.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    to have been saved by one of the beings that I imagine are... the ones who truly rule this life [the real gods & angels, I guess] made me feel loved, again. it was like my life actually mattered enough to receive this intervention. it makes me feel like I must have some kind of purpose, or else I would not have my silent advisor, keeping me going. I didn't used to feel that way at all, & I used to want to die...

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    just because it defies modern day science does not make in untrue. I felt it. it was real.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes            I have kinder attitudes & feelings toward religion now. I used to much more jaded about it.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     it was an overdose! I was an addict. I did later quit, but not until much later...

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          no. that's enough. [I don't talk about this, usually]