Lori R's Experience
Since the death of my 12 year old daughter, Jessica on May 15, 2003. I have been waiting to hear from her, some sort of message or anything just to help me find comfort. I have been searching my spirituality since her death and have just completed Sylvia Browne's book, "God, Creation and Tools for Life. I have also read some of her other books in the past.
Last night while home alone I was lying in total darkness talking to God and my spirit guide. I was asking them to help me to see Jessica in hopes that I may find some comfort in that. My eyes were closed, but I was not asleep and suddenly I began to feel a vibration through out my whole body, it was very intense and seemed to start at my head and moved through my body down to my feet. The vibration seemed to consume me.
Slowly I felt my self moving from my bed, I was not being pulled, I was just drifting, as I reached the foot of my bed, I felt a bit of fear but was able to calm my fears by telling myself, "Lori, this is what you asked for, you are going to see your baby girl." and I seemed to calm right down. Directly across from the foot of my bed are French doors, I seemed to drift towards them. It was so real. I thought that I was going to crash right through the doors, so I put my hands forward and noticed that I could not see my hands, suddenly I was through the doors and flying through the sky. The sky was totally black but there were stars every where.
I saw things that I assumed were spirits, I saw many some I flew up to and could see a face but I didn't recognize any of them. I was calling for my daughter, I just kept flying around calling her name. I felt no fear I just felt that I was trying to find her so that I could see her and tell her once more that I Love Her.
my dog (Large Dog) barked, and I was back in my bed, I could still fell the
vibrations through out my body for a few minutes, but there was also a sense of
some kind of loving comfort that enveloped my whole body. I just laid there
until all the vibrations were gone, I looked around my room hoping maybe that
my daughter was there with me be I was all alone. All I felt was anger at
the stupid dog for barking and bringing me back. I will be trying again soon.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was Awake when it started and Awake when it ended.
Was the experience dream like in any way? I suppose you could say if felt somewhat dreamlike, but I know that I was awake.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A great desire to find my daughter. Afterwards, almost euphoric.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Yes, It was like I was flying through the universe.
Did you see a light? Yes, The entities, or whatever they were seemed to glow.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain
I didn't really meet them, but I say them.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Uncertain
I think what brought the whole thing on was me wanting to visit my daughter.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes
I hear the wind as I flew and I could hear my voice calling my daughter, but I did not hear anyone else's voice.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes
My dog barking.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I really believe that I can visit my daughter, before I was unsure.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Made me more hopeful of finding peace and comfort.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
I'm not sure that I will be able to do it again.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
They believe what I told them and told me that maybe I found a channel of some kind.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Sadness, because I didn't see my daughter. Hope that I will be able to see her in the future. A stronger spiritual belief in the afterlife.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The sense that I was going to see my daughter was the best. The worst was I did not make it.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I would really like to understand the experience.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I fell all the right questions were asked of me. I would not have been able to explain so elaborately had I not had the questions asked of me.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. None