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Lori E's Experience

Experience description (on 12/21/2012):
 

I was falling asleep, it was dark and everyone else in my house was asleep. I heard a familiar buzzing sound I often hear between being awake and asleep. It used to scare the hell out of me as a child and even young adult, however I now associate this noise with that of a off channel radio station. A buzzing, humming noise that has it's own frequency and vibration. This sounds "flips on" when I am often in that in between state of consciousness, my body not yet asleep and my mind still semi awake. I actually look forward to hearing it, as I know I have a very small window of opportunity to try and "leave my body" and be consciously aware of my experience. Which is for me, difficult to do. However, when it happens it is ALWAYS spectacular and wanted. I can't tell you how many times I try to do this, and fail. Then there is the 1 out of 100th try where I feel myself almost peel away from my physical self and pop, I am out of my actual body floating, sometimes rather clumsily around the room. I am always able to see myself in my original position in bed. Sometimes, I have more control of where I am going or what I am doing then other times and I am unsure what determines this. It is always an amazing experience, whether it lasts mere seconds or much longer.  Back to the humming and buzzing sound... I heard it and was trying to force my self to sit up in bed. I was talking to myself, telling myself to slow down and just go easy. Suddenly though I was no longer in my room. I didn't have the usual opportunity to see myself lying in bed, I was out in the street staring at the moon. The moon was ginormous.  It was most spectacular.

I was in the street and suddenly aware that so was everyone else. Everyone in the neighborhood was standing outside also. Everyone remarking at the beautiful moon and why was it so big? I felt like I was standing in front of a house I would consider mine, I knew that my family lived in the house and yet, I have never seen the house in my "real" life. The moon suddenly morphed into a giant billboard, however it still remained round. Soft music began to play, seemingly coming from the moon itself, yet it all around us.  I wasn't frightened at all, nor was anyone else. I just stood there, almost frozen in some kind of daze. The moon now being a huge round billboard like sign, instantly lit up like a TV with a snowy black and white off channel station showing. Everyone was now silent, and everyone was just looking up in complete awe. Words began appearing on the moon, saying to stay calm and everything was alright.

To the left of the moon started a procession of alien beings, seemingly coming from the moon. They were dancing. Literally dancing as they floated down to earth. Instantly I began to get information down loaded into my brain to remain calm, we were not under attack that we were all friends and NOT to run or cause harm or mayhem. I was told that everyone else in the world was receiving the exact same information at the exact same time. I didn't feel panicked, I didn't feel scared, I was completely immersed in what was going on. Thousands and Thousands of these beings were floating down to the ground around me. They looked like human beings, although they all had dark hair and they were quite slender and taller then humans. Each being had a aura of white around them. It was sparkling and almost made them look a bit translucent. The beings kept coming, gliding down to earth. The music which had been entering my ears was layered with sounds. It was encoded with additional information to assist all of us in knowing this was part of a divine plan.

The moon still flashing its words of peace and to stay calm, I suddenly felt a connection with everyone around me. A connection I did not feel even a few minutes before. It was weird and wonderful all at the same time. Each household were assigned two beings. I knew that everyone on the planet had two beings speaking to them, as now did I. They were to sit and talk with us, answer questions and talk us through what was going on. I wanted to call my sister though, and I tried to as I suddenly found myself in the house I was originally standing in front of. It felt like mine and it felt familiar to me. The call did not go through and I knew it didn't matter. I already knew that she too was sitting talking with aliens in her house and it would all be ok. My fiancé (now husband) was sitting in the living room talking to one of the beings. I noticed how this man's eyes were so blue. Like blue I hadn't seen before in someone's eyes. There was a young neighbor girl over. I don't know why she was hanging around at my house, and I don't know her in this actual life time. She evidently had cut her finger.

The second being whom was female said out loud "Oh, let me see, I can take care of that for you. She took her own finger over her wound, the aliens finger lit up an amber color, and I joked to myself "How ironic, it's like frickin E.T. Could this be anymore cliché?" Although she didn't heal the wound, like I was expecting. she actually then brought her finger to her mouth and tasted her blood! I was a bit freaked out about that. I actually remember feeling myself swallow hard almost involuntarily.  She said " O.K. I can fix your wound, however you will have cancer at an early age and I would like to fix that too, although I can not do that alone."  The other alien walked in  as the female being put her hand out and from her palm came a chemistry like set with a beaker and she swirled some fluid around, following a few steps from the male alien and gave it to the girl to drink. "That should do it" she said and smiled as the girl drank the liquid.  As she drank it, her cut healed instantly and she smiled saying thank you and walked from the room.  The female being said to me "If she were to stay on earth, her cancer would not occur."  I didn't understand exactly what she meant by "if she were to stay on earth." 

I felt for the first time a bit uneasy, not scared at all, just uneasy. I followed the female into the living room where the male being and the girl were recounting how her cut was healed, just like that! My fiancé stated he was having trouble breathing at night and snoring. Before he could finish the sentence the female being interrupted and stated "I can heal you." she suddenly stuck something up his nose.  I now speaking from the bedroom said out loud "He also has eye problems, can you fix that?! He can't see with out contacts or glasses and his eyes are always red!" Her response was she was already healing that. I could hear him talking " OMG, this is amazing, Lori, LORI, I can see perfectly with out my contacts!!!" I desperately wanted to say "please heal me, I am so tired all the time, and I am caring around this internal emotional baggage and garbage, can you get rid of it for me?" However, it was just an internal conversation, I didn't have the guts to ask it out loud.  In fact I wasn't sure I even deserved to have it lifted from me. That is such an odd feeling. To contemplate internally if one is worthy of being healthy, happy and whole. 

I felt my own sadness, profound sadness in a way I don't recall ever feeling it before. I knew the aliens were just showing what was possible. They were there to gain our trust and leave any doubt behind. I knew these healings were happening everywhere as people looked on in amazement.  I also suddenly knew it didn't matter. These healings didn't matter, that at the end of the equation, we would indeed be healed and whole anyways. So, it was propaganda, to gain trust. Which was as it needed to be.  I walked into my bathroom, with the female being. The bathroom was huge. I accidentally spilled a large glass of water over which was sitting on the counter. It splashed everywhere. I just stood there, almost frozen. Why, I don't know, but I wasn't moving. She asked me if I intended to clean it up. I said yes, of course. I grabbed a white towel from the rack and began soaking up the water and yet the water would not soak up. The spill kept getting larger and larger. "I can't get it cleaned up! There is more water then there should be" I remember being confused and angry at the same time. The alien turned around and turned her head to the side and lifted her chin as if looking towards the sky, yet we were in the bathroom and she couldn't see out. She stated matter of factually "It's happening."  I was like what do you mean it is happening?! What is happening?! I loudly yelled out "what do you mean!!!" 

She took me to my back yard, where there was a swimming pool. It was winter out side and the pool was empty and did not have a cover. It was being filled with beautiful clear clean water that seamed to be coming from the earth it's self. Not a hose, not rain. From the bottom up. I was no longer panicked. The moon was still bright in the sky, although it was now day time. I didn't know exactly what was going on, but I felt ok with it. We went back into the house and the water was now everywhere,  ankle deep. The water was not at all muddy and was not full of debris. It was clear and it was not cold. As we stood there in the water, I was being told, not by voice but almost by packets of information that the earth was dying. We as a human race had to ascend into another realm. Another reality. If we didn't choose to go into the new realm, that was our choice, however our physical body would indeed die. We would be swallowed up by the water. The aliens had wanted to and planned to come back a long time ago. They had been here before and for some reason the "lost" the technology to come back. In fact, it was shown to me that we were a civilization on earth and they were from a civilization from another realm, however they were not the creators of either. They too were created from something much bigger and greater then themselves.

They were disappointed in humanity, however knew with a lack of direction from them, this would ultimately be what would happen, so they had been trying to reach us and could not, until this moment. The earth was in fact dying and we were the at the very least, part of, if not all of the cause.  We were to ascend full body as well as consciousness into a new life. If we chose not to go, the water would indeed take our bodies. We were however not allowed to simply get out of the life time we were in. So, if we chose to stay and accept our fate we had the knowledge that our loved ones would be living in this new realm, waiting for us to reincarnate into our family circle once again. We couldn't leave what we had originally chosen as we still had things to "work out" One of the beings stated that this had happened before in our history and yet it was distorted. That in the time of Christ, Mary had indeed ascended into what we called "heaven" It was actually another dimension. I also understood that we were all living simultaneous lifetimes. Different bodies, yet personalities of the same soul. That when we got to the other realm, all of our loved ones would be there, from this and other life times, even those whom had already passed. They would most likely choose a "personality" they identified with most and incarnate into a body and we would recognize their soul and essence. That this was a time of healing mind body and spirit and as crazy as it all was, this would be in a flesh and blood, spirit experience, much like we were having now, yet different. This was all part of the journey, the process.

Everyone around me seemed to get the concept, I wasn't entirely sure, but I didn't question any of it out loud.  The water was high and there was a teenage boy next to me. I seemed to know him, yet I actually do not know him in this lifetime as Lori. He seemed to be a culmination of many people, including my son and my dad. He said he didn't want to go into the realm and chose to go to the bottom instead of moving forward and on ward. No one tried to change his mind, we all knew instinctively it was a very personal decision and we were not to judge anyone. One of the aliens escorted him down through the clear water. I wanted to check it out, as soon as I thought about it, I was right next to them under the water, being pulled down. There was not gasping for breath, no confusion, no panic, no struggle at all. At the bottom of the water was a white light, I could see more dancing figures in the water and they were all holding hands. The familiar music started to play from earlier in my experience. The boy at the very last second changed his mind and shot back towards the top of the water, I inexplicably traveled with him.

What happened next is one of the most amazing things I have ever been a part of!! I was suddenly being pushed against an almost rubber crust. It was all around me. I could stop it, I couldn't slow it down, I couldn't make it go any faster. I was being physically pushed against and through layer after layer of crust! I absolutely knew I was being "re-born". Like a baby who's experiencing birth, I felt squeezed and propelled forward. My head pushed through the last layer and next my left arm and hand. I could see my hand! I was married! I had a beautiful  diamond ring on, my hand looked much younger, my arm looked fantastic and even a bit slimmer. I was pulling and scratching to get the rest of my body out of what now looked like solid ground. I was screaming out loud, I was so joyful, happy, amazed and content. I can't even tell you in words how I felt! I looked like I wanted to look! I felt, oh my God, I felt like I wanted to feel. FREE! FREE of all this internal baggage. It was gone. I felt so whole! So complete! I reached my other arm through and I looked around me. Still partially in the ground. I needed a moment to breathe. It was dimly lit, small candles were hanging from all directions. It was so absolutely beautiful. I could see thousands of tables set up with white lines. Flowers were everywhere! I could see rolling green hills in the distance. The sun was setting and casting shadows . I heard thousands of voices talking, laughing. I could see silhouettes of people, I could smell delicious food and heard faint music playing. The most grand party I have ever seen!!

I suddenly saw my fiancé/husband and he had his hands extended out to me. Helping me get up and standing, I felt the love he has for me. It poured into me from every direction. He said everyone was waiting for me. I couldn't of been more excited to hear that!  I suddenly could feel and hear my children there, my parents, my sister and her family, even my grandparents whom have been gone for quite some time. The peace and love, simply joy I felt was all encompassing. I felt our connectiveness to one another. We were all the same energy and from the same source. We were all healed of our internal and external wounds.  In that moment, I knew I had the life I wanted, looked and felt like I had always wanted and so did everyone else. We all took the journey to ascend into a new reality, to start a new chapter in our lives. It was beautiful and absolutely wonderful.  As I made my way towards the crowds of people and into the merriment, I suddenly felt a yank in the middle of my being. I saw myself still moving forward, and yet a part of me was going backwards. Like a layer of myself was being called away or reclaimed at another location. That is the only way I can describe it. I  found myself in my bed, now awake in the darkness. I was still so exuberantly happy though!  I got up out of bed and went right to my notebook and hand wrote the entire thing out. I didn't want to miss any details and I couldn't wait to share this with my fiancé and my parents!!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No   

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?   Yes    The feelings of the experience are hard to put into words. The feeling of rebirth and what I could only call physical ascension are most difficult to convey.       

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   I was completely alert.

Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes and No. Normally in dreams I don't have internal conversations like I had.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes   In this instance I did see entire physical body as it really was at the time of this exp. Most out of body experiences I am aware of myself, however i don't usually see myself, unless it is to look at the physical self I just left. If that makes sense.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    Every kind of emotion. Especially at the end. I felt AMAZING!!! Absolutely AMAZING!

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?    Yes, lots.

Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    Yes    The incredible beings came to us on earth. I don't have an opinion on the religious teachings about Mother Mary in regard to ascension in the flesh. That is kind of a new one on me. I never really thought about it prior to this.

Did you see a light?    Yes    The Moon was a huge light, bigger and brighter then normal. I saw a light in the water as well.

Did you meet or see any other beings?    Yes    As previously written.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?   Uncertain    I don't think I did.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   Yes    Only that since this experience, I have continued to heal my emotional baggage and I when I think about all of this, it makes me very emotional.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?    Yes    They were all on over drive!!

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?    Yes   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes    As described

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?    Yes    Crossed through the boundary and was literally birthed into another realm. Crazy, yes, it sounds like it!

Did you become aware of future events?    Yes    The ring I saw on my hand as I popped out of the ground, is exactly the wedding ring I have today! We were unofficially engaged at the time of this expedience. I did not yet have an engagement ring.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?    No    It just happened.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?    Yes    I have had many out of body experiences. Each and every one brings me a better understanding of the universe, in one way or another.  Some have been spiritually transformative events in my life. I count this as one of those!

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes    I am emotionally lighter.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?    Love, more love for myself and that translates into more love for others.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes    I love that I am lighter emotionally. As if some of my past emotional wounds, were indeed healed :)

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    Shock and Awe.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   Best was being re-birthed, worst is I really wanted to stay there. Completely, stay there.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?    This wasn't a dream. I don't argue with self and joke to myself in dreams. This was much bigger then that. Much bigger.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    Yes         

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes   

   

 

Experience description (on 11/2000):   

I was laying in my bed, it was dark in my room, however not very late. I could hear my family watching TV in the living room outside my bedroom door. I was not asleep, yet not completely awake either. I was actually taking to myself internally. I was thinking about what actually happens when we die, if what I believed to be true, was really indeed true? I have always been one to question everything in life. I have always been one to have to experience something to actually believe it. Faith, I was never good at. I always was in my head thinking. Even though my entire life I had always been intuitive and had seen things most people hadn't, from a very young age, I still questioned it. I've always sought validation in my feelings and emotions even when those feelings seemed to be greater then the sum of my self, I was always searching. 

I suddenly saw a pin point of light in the left hand corner of my room. I was immediately thrown off so to speak. It wasn't there a second ago! I remember I said to myself "what is that?!"  I felt a pull upwards, a release and I knew my physical body was left on the bed below me. As soon as I acknowledged the light, I was in it. I can't even tell you in language the colors that I saw. Reds, greens, purples and blues that I have never seen before. The colors themselves were alive. They were all around me, like a worm hole of sorts. I felt a tunnel like presence around me, the swirling of colors and lights were amazing. Amazing, doesn't even cut it, but there are no other words I can use to describe them. Life alerting, yes that probably works here. It was just that. I was being pulled upwards and outwards all at the same time. I could think and I was actually still talking to myself. I didn't see my hands of feet, I just felt like I was a pulsing energy sliding around. The feeling would be similar to being on a water slide, yet not going down, going up.

Being pushed out of the end of this tunnel I found myself in a belt of what looked like to be stars above me and below me. I didn't find myself immersed within the stars, because they weren't in close proximity where I could touch them, yet there they were everywhere above and below me. I had to take a second. I tried not to think of anything. Just then I was aware of a space in front of me. It was like a corridor or sorts.  Before I finished my thought about what that might be, I was in it! Boom, I was just there. I saw a sparkling light at the end of the corridor. I deliberately didn't initiate the feeling of wanting to be there, because honestly I wanted to be right where I was. I knew if I thought it, I would be there at the end of this hallway immediately. To call it a hallway doesn't really fit either. It was luminous all by itself. I was definitely within something, but it was see-through as well. I guess the best way to describe it would be like a hologram.

There to my left on a screen was my life. I could see it! Me! I saw and felt all of my choices in this lifetime. There was absolutely NO judgment attached to it. None. I wasn't judging my life, simply seeing it. To my right was dim. I "felt" like the right side was reserved for when I actually did physically die. I would be privy to it then. It was all my possibilities all my angels of all decisions that were played out in a different realm. As if lets say, I decided not to get married when I did. What my life would of been, and yet it actually was played out, just not in the psychical body type of way. It was still acted out. It was all the "probables" in life. I asked in feeling not in voice, why I was here. I was told, it was because I had asked to be there. I knew this voice, as it was comforting and familiar and yet I knew it was God. How is that possible? 

I immediately questioned the voice, as it was female. I had always envisioned "God" to be male. I had expected to be greeted in a male voice. I was shocked to hear/feel that I had chosen this voice, because it was MINE! I suddenly knew, I was part of the universe. I was not separate. I was not some being cast into a world and separated from God, I was God, if you will. I was part of the universe, what ever you want to call it. I knew then and there, we were all apart of this life force. It was all encompassing, all around me. I could feel like I was a balloon, being given air, expanding and then contracting. I was free, and yet I was connected to this voice. This voice was a layer, a layer of a billion other souls speaking. I can't describe it. I knew I was not alone there. I actually felt and saw a billion souls of light behind a hazy almost curtain like substance in front of me. I was delirious with the feelings of love and hope. I could feel every other souls compassion and love for me. It was the most overwhelming, most extraordinary thing.

I heard the thoughts of everyone, and yet it wasn't craziness like voices in ones head, it was all thoughts and it all made sense. I knew the images that I wasn't able to see to my right were also all of the lives I was living all at the same time! This was completely foreign to me, as I had always believed in reincarnation and "past" lives, not simultaneous lives.  I didn't even know it was a possibility. I now knew it was. Why would we live lives all at once? Wasn't the purpose to evolve through each life and to live and learn and do better the next go around? Evidently not really. I got the distinct impression we were living lives to raise consciousness. By raising the vibration around us, we changed the earth, we changed the experience of life.

I felt so safe, so complete. It was apparent how fractured I felt before. How separated I had felt. Even though I knew we were connected as people, I didn't know we were all the SAME. We had all the same knowledge with in us. I went forward to the end of the corridor towards the haziness and beautiful lights. I noticed an old boyfriend of mine, he was holding flowers, pink and white. He was on the outside of the corridor and he moved through it towards me. I felt is love, and I was thrown off as to why he was even there. I didn't know he had passed away some years earlier. I had no idea. I had often thought about him, and missed him, a teenage love I hadn't seen in years. I thanked him for being there. I turned to the right and saw my then father-in-law's mother. She had her arms extended towards me. I didn't know her in "real" life that well before she passed away. She looked like she did when she passed. White hair, pretty smile. I asked her why did she still look so old? (there's me questioning again!) She then changed to a beautiful young girl. She told me her form was dependent on her own will. She could be anything and everything. I thanked her for being there also but asked why my own grandfather wasn't there? She stated he was very busy, but he was always there, always around me, as we are all part of the same energy source.

I was handed a orange crayon. Yes a crayon. I was told I needed to let go of all my fears. I was instructed to write them in the air. I did. I started writing the exact words "fear, lost loves, frustration, hate, unworthiness." All of my hurtful feelings towards myself and others. I was told to release them. As I wrote the top of the list dissipated. Like a scroll of some kind. I felt incredible. I felt like I was perfect, like everything was as it should be. Every piece of the puzzle was in place. I was aware of things on the outlying edges of my own consciousness. Like all I had to do was focus on them, as they were already there, just allow them into my sight. Everything I could ever want, was available. I just had to let it in. See it. Kind of like when you loose something. You go back and look and look in the same places. Suddenly, the 10th time you've opened the drawer, you see it there! It wasn't magically put there, it was there the entire time, you just didn't see it! Now, I saw it!! It was the law of manifestation right in front of me. How everything is there, I just have to let it come forward. If I got rid of all this fear, and all the feelings it created, I could effortlessly let it roll into my line of vision. It was already mine, I just needed to see it.

I wanted behind the veil. I thought of it, and half expected to be sucked into it, but I wasn't. I was told I couldn't enter that realm just yet, as I was needed back in my body. That behind the curtain was reserved for when my life expired on earth. I asked what it was like behind there. I was told more like felt, it was all peace, love and understanding. I understood that thoughts created form. So I pictured myself in a huge glorious house. It was strange because, I actually felt my ego. I had never felt my ego separate from myself.  My ego wanted some big elaborate house, but every other soul there, didn't need some big huge house. They all created something for themselves that was healing, and I knew behind that curtain, healing and love, understanding all with out the presence of ego or judgment awaited. I knew I was the only one judging my self. I was even judging my house! Ego was not part of the after life. I could feel a pull in the middle of my being, and I knew my time left there was very limited. I didn't want to leave. I felt to complete and whole. I felt loved, loved!! Real love, not the kind peppered with judgment and scrutiny. I was part of something, I wasn't different, I was the same. I asked with my feelings, if I could please just get a fleeting glimpse of what it will be like when it is my time to die.

I suddenly without warning, heard and felt the loudest party. I felt and saw my parents and friends and a million other beings clapping for me, welcoming me home. I saw the brightest light I have ever seen. It was like warm molasses and it filled every single speck of my being. The light was love, pure love. It was so spectacular, that I cry just writing this out. I was wanted. I was was loved. I was needed. I felt like a place had been waiting for me, and it would be waiting for me when it really was my time. That warm sunshine, thick molasses yellow light, was alive with feelings, abundance and self forgiveness. For a split second I knew what it felt like to be free of all worldly attachment and that will forever stay with me. To know, I am the creative force within  my own life. That what I think and feel about myself and others affects my surroundings. I didn't have to think a certain way to be accepted. I just was.  I stood in the magnificent light, and understood I carry that inside me every day of my life. It hasn't abandoned me. It is a part of me. As soon as I realized that, I felt a jerk backwards, boom no decent backwards of colors or beauty, I was again in my dark bedroom. I immediately began to cry.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It is only hard to communicate because I can't seam to find the words in the English language to adequately describe and convey the overwhelming feelings I felt, and the colors I saw were not anything I have ever seen with human eyes. I find it almost odd to try and speak about it, because nothing I have ever experienced in my physical body or with the use of language could possibly adequately describe what I felt and saw.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was completely alert, conscious to the point of asking questions. I was curious and felt like "this is my chance to know the truth". I have always had questions, like everyone else does. I have been able to get answers to those.

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, I was fully aware of everything that was happening. I could see in all directions and feel things I have never felt in this life time before.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I was just light, as in I couldn't see my features, but I was aware of myself.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Love, trust, compassion, exhilaration and excitement. I think I felt everything I could possibly feel that was so wonderful!!

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           I heard a humming noise also, the humming noise though when I focused on it, was a million different voices, yet I was not confused by them.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No response      Nothing negative. And it wasn't like I thought "heaven" should be or would be. It was more like a state of being, or a state of mind. Like we create our own "heaven" with our own thoughts.

Did you see a light?           Yes     A pin hole of white light on the the ceiling in the left of my bed room. At the end of my experience, I saw and felt a all encompassing yellow/gold light, that was warm and thick. I don't know how else to describe it. Not light and airy, but hearty and thick and it was LOVE.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     as previously described.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes    

I tried to cross into the hazy veil. It didn't work out. lol

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I was unaware my ex boyfriend had passed away. I was able to verify this after my experience. Sadly he had passed by suicide. I can tell you that people who pass from suicide are most certainly in that realm of the other side.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain            It was as if all senses were rolled up into one and on super sensitive. I don't remember tasting or smelling anything, but emotionally speaking it was on overdrive. Its still hard to formulate into words. I could see in a 360 degree angle. I was aware of everything in front of me, besides me, in back of me,  and above, below me and yet also with in myself.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     It felt as if there was no time. I sensed that I was alive in other places. As in alive in other bodies, all at the same time. No one said this, I felt it. The feelings had knowledge attached to them, or better yet embedded in them, so if I felt it, I also "knew it".

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I knew time was not A-Z. I felt a suspension in time. I knew life events were in "probables." That nothing was set in stone. I knew that rigid beliefs were what actually keeps us kept within our selves. I understood that we over identify with out outer selves and under identify with what's inside of ourselves. I knew the reason for life was to experience everything. That my soul wanted to be in the psychical. I had always thought it was life that was hard, and why the hell would we even want to be here? I had the understanding that life is what my soul clamors for. That to be in the psychical was something to be honored and thankful for. I felt myself releasing so many fears that were trapped inside myself. I was changed by what I saw and felt. I no longer was fearful to be me. The person who was always odd and different, because she had some weirdo gift that made her different. I sometimes still struggle with that, as I don't wear my ability on a sign around my neck. However, I am not ashamed of it, or me. Not anymore.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Uncertain      I wanted to go further forward, into the area before me that was hazy. I could feel a million souls communicating at once, communicating with me. I really wanted to be fully enveloped into the scene. I heard and felt the voice tell me gently it was not my actual time to leave my life. I wasn't given a choice to stay, or I am telling you, I would have. Even though I was not leaving a ailing body, I could of cared less about going back.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     Kind of yes and no. I knew I would be able to verify facts, or I wouldn't of been given them. I knew I would be helping people with their own understanding of life, even though I had actually fought that my entire life. I never wanted to be "weird" or "different" I just wanted to be like everyone else. The more I pushed back against my ability to just "know" certain things in life, about people, places, events, the future, the more it came alive with in me. This is another example of that. How can something so significant happen to me, and be just a self serving purpose, such as just to be for me. I don't believe that. So, with being intuitive, this isn't something I can just keep dormant inside. Bits and pieces of this knowledge flood in and out of myself, unspoken every day. I don't think I always have to talk to someone in need, just almost breath it out there. It's the weirdest thing, to let energy flow from yourself to someone else and exchange that is unseen. I know if I feel it, at some level everyone can it. That we are all indeed connected.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     I was aware I was being pulled back. I also had a sense that I was about to return.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes     My intuitive/psychic abilities have been heightened through my understanding of the both the after life and how life here on earth actually works.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I certainly now believe we live lives all at the same time. We are not punished or judged by anyone. Out judgment is here on earth, we are always judging ourselves and others, although I don't believe we should be.  I know now, that it is ok just to "be". That me being here, and living is enough. I try everyday to be kind to myself and to others. Some days are easier then others, but I am trying, especially with the judgment part. I have no room for judgment in my life.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       We are all made of the same light, the same energy Being so connected, and seeing the similarities in myself and others has made it extremely easy for me to communicate with people and to support their own journeys here on earth. I am able to say tell people with complete certainty that we are all connected, that we are all one. I know there is absolutely nothing to fear about death, I know it is just a transition from the physical.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I will elaborate in question 28. However, I have had experiences where the universe has connected me with people, in the most craziest of ways. One person in particular whom was contemplating suicide. I know that isn't part of this experience, but I KNOW it is because of this experience I was able to help him. The event of meeting him, and how we met and why, is still one of the most significant experiences of my life. My knowledge was able to stop him from committing suicide and rethinking his life and healing occurred. I can't even describe to you how that changed me as a human being. It all started though, from knowing my own "truth" through my OBE to the "other side".

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have on occasion shared my experience with people when asked what I believe happens when we die. I believe just talking about it with people, opens a new door for them. A way of thinking, new possibilities. I am an ordinary person, who happens to be intuitive. However, I am like everyone else and I think this helps lend to its authenticity. After my experience, I felt so much more connected to everyone and everything around me. From the dinning room table, to the neighbor next door. It was a very strange feeling. I accept it as normal now, and just accept it as such. We are all energy, connected at the source. Like a spider with ten million legs, I am one of those legs and so are you.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I started crying uncontrollably, when I suddenly jolted from my bed. It was my bodies response to something so overwhelmingly beautiful. The crying wasn't from fear, but more like sensory overload of some kind.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      That my physical mind started to immediately question what I had just encountered. I wanted to retain that feeling of overwhelming love and jubilation mixed with the "i just won the 100 million dollar lottery!!" excitement all rolled into one big feeling. I still feel it, but it is in the confines of my body and mind. It seams so much more diminished when I put it into words. Words seam more like boundaries, then all encompassing. If that make any sense.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I have had other amazing experiences in my lifetime, one actually dealing with the afterlife, where I was a bystander in another realm watching someone have their own near death experience after a car accident. I don't know why I was there, I just was. I observed it first hand and I am unsure if they knew I was there, but I was.  That experience has also altered the way I see life and people and the afterlife. Thinking about it, I still have trouble wrapping my head around it, so to speak, as I was so privileged to have been there.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     I often have synchronicity in meeting certain people. People whom are hurting greatly in their daily lives. It is beyond chance. There is NO WAY, these encounters "just happen". I don't necessarily speak about my experience per say, but my knowledge of what awaits us, how we are all connected and how the creative universe is actually a part of our inner selves; always lends its self to help facilitate some kind of deeper thought and personal understanding in other people about their own lives.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes    

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    I can't think of any. Thank you for allowing me to share mine.