Lonny F's Experience
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Experience description:

When I was about 20 years old I decided that it was time to do a trip back to Coronado, California and visit a couple of very good friends I had left behind. These two friends were both identical twins who I grew up with since we were all about 5 years old. I left California with my family at age 16 and hadn't seen them since.  

When I arrived in Coronado it was already late in the afternoon. Both my friends knew I was tired so they thought it would be pretty cool to just rent a movie and chill at one of their friends house for the night. This friend of theirs was house sitting for someone he knew so we would have the place to ourselves for a few nights.   

The house was an older two story building. We hung out downstairs and watched our movie and reminisced about childhood memories. Everyone had worked that day so I wasn't the only one getting tired. We made plans on what to do the following day then got ready to go to bed. We all talked about sleeping arrangements. The twins each took a room upstairs and their friend took the master room. I was quite content with making a bed downstairs and told them that I actually preferred the floor.  

This is where things get weird. After making my bed on the floor I lay down and began to adjust my pillow. I stared off at a wall and then began to hear what I thought was a conversation possibly coming from a different room. I focused on where the sound was coming from and I realized that it was actually closer then I had thought. Just then the voice said, "You can hear me can't you". I was starting to freak out at this point. I instinctively started to use a technique that we all used as a child when we thought that a monster was under our beds. We pretended that it wasn't there in hope that it would just go away. 

Well the voice didn't go away instead it became more persistent. I decided that I was probably dreaming with my eyes open so I decided to play along. I engaged the voice in mental conversation. I never spoke out loud. Thus began one of the most controversial conversations of my life. I asked the being who he was. He was hesitant, than he answered that he couldn't remember his name . I asked him if he knew where he was or where he came from. He said that he had been here for a very long time but didn't know where he came from. He knew that he had lived once before. I told him that I believed that I was dreaming and that none of this was real. He decided to try and convince me. He said ask me any question you want and I'll give you my best answer. 

To this day I can't recall the full conversation but I do remember some highlights: 

ME: why don't you go into the light? 

SPIRIT: (very confused and impossible for him to understand what I was talking about) 

ME: are there others with you? 

SPIRIT: there are others yes, but they tend to do their own thing, we don't interact much. Most spend the majority of their existence trying to get the attention of the living 

ME: why do you want so much to talk to me? 

SPIRIT: I've been here a long time. Every now and then I think that someone has seen or heard me but you are the first. You must be very careful of other spirits. If they believe that you have seen or heard them then they will never stop trying. They will attach themselves to you. That is all they want, they only want to be noticed and seen.

 ME: why is it that I can hear you know? 

SPIRIT: I saw that you were about to go to sleep. There is a point between being awake and being asleep that allows some people to see or hear us.  

ME: ok, I always hear how children are more likely to see you guys, why is that? 

SPIRIT: some people are more open to picking us up. You for example are more sensitive than others. Children are the most sensitive and open to us. Try to remember back to when you were a child yourself. Remember how onions were hot and everything tasted so much more intense. Well you lose this as you grow older. The onion isn't hot anymore.  

ME: ok, so why can people see you more so in certain areas then in others? 

SPIRIT: I've been around a very long time so I can roam very far. New spirits tend to stay very close to where they died. Usually as they become stronger they can roam further.  

ME: what do you mean stronger? 

SPIRIT: when we first die we are weak, after a while we learn to use the energy around us. This energy can help us do things. I have been around a pretty long time this helps me to allow you to hear me.  

ME: I still don't understand.  

SPIRIT: all humans give off a certain amount of energy. A powerful spirit can absorb this energy and use it at a later time. The stronger the spirit the more energy they can store and the longer they can store it. A new weak spirit must use it right away, if they can use it at all. When you open a door energy is released, an experienced spirit can place his hand on the door knob with you and absorb this residual energy. Later he can use this energy to open the door back up.  

ME: so if I carry a candlestick across a room you could walk with me, absorb the energy, than later move the candlestick on your own? 

SPIRIT: yes, even weeks later. But only the most powerful of us can do this. The human needs to also be receptive. It's hard to explain but it's an important element.  

ME: but why are all those ghost sightings almost always at graveyards, during lightning, and at night. 

SPIRIT: there are other forms of energy that we can use to make ourselves visibly. This energy is always around us in small amounts. During electrical storms it is stronger. Spirits often times stay around the televisions in your home in an attempt to use the small amount of this energy coming from the screen. The example you used is perfect for this. You have the energy from the weather, a spirit that stays close to where they know people will visit (graveyard), and a tired driver in that middle state just before sleep. But remember not all humans will see this and a lot of times it's in vain.  

My conversation continued for many minutes. I started to ask questions about God and heaven. For some reason he had no idea what I was talking about. It was as if he had never heard of such a thing. He had no idea of how to leave where he was or why he would want to.  

I started to get a mental image of the spirit but I couldn't yet see him with my eyes. He wore a lot of brown and had a beard. The mental image I was picking up showed him smoking what looked like a pipe. For some reason I started to get a very uneasy feeling at this point so I decide to pretend that once again I was only dreaming and that none of this was real.  

Up till now my eyes where open this whole time. I closed my eyes and tried to continue on to full sleep. The spirit started getting very annoyed. His anger kept building. He tried everything. He asked questions, made accusations, begged and begged for my attention. Finally there was silence. I thought that he had finally left. Relieved I rolled over and started trying to get comfortable for sleep. Down by my feet was a canister vacuum. The hose was rubbing up against my feet so I kicked it away with my foot...with incredibly strength the spirit kicked back with such force that I spun around 180 degrees and stood straight up. I was wide awake now and in complete shock. The spirit must have done just as he said they could do. He absorbed enough energy to hit me so hard that my leg ached for days after. 

I never spoke with him again after that kick. Looking back I was very thankful that I didn't allow myself to get to far involved. Was I dreaming with my eyes open or was there something more. I never really knew anything about spirits or ghosts but after that day I read and tried to learn enough to understand. I don't think I'll ever understand.   

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It's been a long time. I should have wrote everything done after it happened.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           maybe a little more heightened they normally.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   hard to say. I thought initially that I was dreaming with my eyes open.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            first fear, then curiosity, then again fear.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           only the voice

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     just the spirit speaking to  me

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes            again hard to explain. I was relaxed but completely aware. Some senses were heightened such as hearing maybe vision.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I had no sense of time. The conversation could have been for 5 minutes or 40. Maybe this is because I really wasn't worried about time, I don't know.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes     I don't know if this counts but I started to notice that I have a keen knack for seeing very subtle changes in things. Maybe I've always had it.  

I always had to sleep with the door closed after this for some reason. A few times after the event my bedroom door has either blown open or opened by some other means. I remember these few times because they caused what's known as sleep paralysis. I can't move at all but I feel like someone is in the room just out of view. I went hunting once years later and had another sleep paralysis episode. Driving on a dirt road at night, looking for a good spot to hunt, I finally pulled over. Just as I pulled of the dirt road I felt a great weight press me against the drivers door. With eyes open and completely unable to move I just knew that someone or something was staring at me only inches from my face. Again I couldn't see the presence.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I've had a NDE experience when younger that showed me that God is real and love is all important. I'm confused with this spirit. I feel that some will never except God or are blind to his love.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       It has left me very open minded.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     more open minded

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     some close friends and relatives

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  fear, wonder

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      knowledge...knowledge

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes