Lonny F's Experience |
Experience description:
When I was about 20 years old I decided that it was time to do a trip back to Coronado, California and visit a couple of very good friends I had left behind. These two friends were both identical twins who I grew up with since we were all about 5 years old. I left California with my family at age 16 and hadn't seen them since.
When I arrived in Coronado it was already late in the afternoon. Both my friends knew I was tired so they thought it would be pretty cool to just rent a movie and chill at one of their friends house for the night. This friend of theirs was house sitting for someone he knew so we would have the place to ourselves for a few nights.
The house was an older two story building. We hung out downstairs and watched our movie and reminisced about childhood memories. Everyone had worked that day so I wasn't the only one getting tired. We made plans on what to do the following day then got ready to go to bed. We all talked about sleeping arrangements. The twins each took a room upstairs and their friend took the master room. I was quite content with making a bed downstairs and told them that I actually preferred the floor.
This is where things get weird. After making my bed on the floor I lay down and began to adjust my pillow. I stared off at a wall and then began to hear what I thought was a conversation possibly coming from a different room. I focused on where the sound was coming from and I realized that it was actually closer then I had thought. Just then the voice said, "You can hear me can't you". I was starting to freak out at this point. I instinctively started to use a technique that we all used as a child when we thought that a monster was under our beds. We pretended that it wasn't there in hope that it would just go away.
Well the voice didn't go away instead it became more persistent. I decided that I was probably dreaming with my eyes open so I decided to play along. I engaged the voice in mental conversation. I never spoke out loud. Thus began one of the most controversial conversations of my life. I asked the being who he was. He was hesitant, than he answered that he couldn't remember his name . I asked him if he knew where he was or where he came from. He said that he had been here for a very long time but didn't know where he came from. He knew that he had lived once before. I told him that I believed that I was dreaming and that none of this was real. He decided to try and convince me. He said ask me any question you want and I'll give you my best answer.
To this day I can't recall the full conversation but I do remember some highlights:
ME: why don't you go into the light?
SPIRIT: (very confused and impossible for him to understand what I was talking about)
ME: are there others with you?
SPIRIT: there are others yes, but they tend to do their own thing, we don't interact much. Most spend the majority of their existence trying to get the attention of the living
ME: why do you want so much to talk to me?
SPIRIT: I've been here a long time. Every now and then I think that someone has seen or heard me but you are the first. You must be very careful of other spirits. If they believe that you have seen or heard them then they will never stop trying. They will attach themselves to you. That is all they want, they only want to be noticed and seen.
ME: why is it that I can hear you know?
SPIRIT: I saw that you were about to go to sleep. There is a point between being awake and being asleep that allows some people to see or hear us.
ME: ok, I always hear how children are more likely to see you guys, why is that?
SPIRIT: some people are more open to picking us up. You for example are more sensitive than others. Children are the most sensitive and open to us. Try to remember back to when you were a child yourself. Remember how onions were hot and everything tasted so much more intense. Well you lose this as you grow older. The onion isn't hot anymore.
ME: ok, so why can people see you more so in certain areas then in others?
SPIRIT: I've been around a very long time so I can roam very far. New spirits tend to stay very close to where they died. Usually as they become stronger they can roam further.
ME: what do you mean stronger?
SPIRIT: when we first die we are weak, after a while we learn to use the energy around us. This energy can help us do things. I have been around a pretty long time this helps me to allow you to hear me.
ME: I still don't understand.
SPIRIT: all humans give off a certain amount of energy. A powerful spirit can absorb this energy and use it at a later time. The stronger the spirit the more energy they can store and the longer they can store it. A new weak spirit must use it right away, if they can use it at all. When you open a door energy is released, an experienced spirit can place his hand on the door knob with you and absorb this residual energy. Later he can use this energy to open the door back up.
ME: so if I carry a candlestick across a room you could walk with me, absorb the energy, than later move the candlestick on your own?
SPIRIT: yes, even weeks later. But only the most powerful of us can do this. The human needs to also be receptive. It's hard to explain but it's an important element.
ME: but why are all those ghost sightings almost always at graveyards, during lightning, and at night.
SPIRIT: there are other forms of energy that we can use to make ourselves visibly. This energy is always around us in small amounts. During electrical storms it is stronger. Spirits often times stay around the televisions in your home in an attempt to use the small amount of this energy coming from the screen. The example you used is perfect for this. You have the energy from the weather, a spirit that stays close to where they know people will visit (graveyard), and a tired driver in that middle state just before sleep. But remember not all humans will see this and a lot of times it's in vain.
My conversation continued for many minutes. I started to ask questions about God and heaven. For some reason he had no idea what I was talking about. It was as if he had never heard of such a thing. He had no idea of how to leave where he was or why he would want to.
I started to get a mental image of the spirit but I couldn't yet see him with my eyes. He wore a lot of brown and had a beard. The mental image I was picking up showed him smoking what looked like a pipe. For some reason I started to get a very uneasy feeling at this point so I decide to pretend that once again I was only dreaming and that none of this was real.
Up till now my eyes where open this whole time. I closed my eyes and tried to continue on to full sleep. The spirit started getting very annoyed. His anger kept building. He tried everything. He asked questions, made accusations, begged and begged for my attention. Finally there was silence. I thought that he had finally left. Relieved I rolled over and started trying to get comfortable for sleep. Down by my feet was a canister vacuum. The hose was rubbing up against my feet so I kicked it away with my foot...with incredibly strength the spirit kicked back with such force that I spun around 180 degrees and stood straight up. I was wide awake now and in complete shock. The spirit must have done just as he said they could do. He absorbed enough energy to hit me so hard that my leg ached for days after.
I never spoke with him
again after that kick. Looking back I was very thankful that I didn't allow
myself to get to far involved. Was I dreaming with my eyes open or was there
something more. I never really knew anything about spirits or ghosts but after
that day I read and tried to learn enough to understand. I don't think I'll ever
understand.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes It's been a
long time. I should have wrote everything done after it happened.
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
maybe a little more
heightened they normally.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
hard to say. I thought
initially that I was dreaming with my eyes open.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
first fear, then
curiosity, then again fear.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
only the voice
LOCATION
DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a
light?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
Yes just the spirit
speaking to me
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes again
hard to explain. I was relaxed but completely aware. Some senses were heightened
such as hearing maybe vision.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes I had no sense
of time. The conversation could have been for 5 minutes or 40. Maybe this is
because I really wasn't worried about time, I don't know.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Were you involved
in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes I don't know if
this counts but I started to notice that I have a keen knack for seeing very
subtle changes in things. Maybe I've always had it.