Liza Y's Experience
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Experience description:

I was driving home. The sun was setting down in the horizon. While listening to Jon Kabbat Zinndescribing what mindfulness is, I suddenly was overwhelmed with a feeling of intense joy, I felt that I knew everything there is to know, that I knew the future awaiting me and everyone else, and that there is nothing to worry about. I also felt that I was one with everything and that I was bigger and beyond the horizon form all sides, that the content of this self holds all knowledge there is , that there is not time, and that I was essentially extremely joyful to be . This feeling and expansive joy lasted 4 hours and slowly receded. It is not linked to a near death experience, but when reading about near death experiences I see many similarities with my " peak experience".

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     My mind contained no thoughts with words just feelings and the knowing.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Yes.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   It felt like I was  much bigger than my body and at the same time being in it, my mind felt huge and encompassing all knowledge, I felt that I can call any knowledge into my consciousness , but at the same time this felt as not the most important thing. I knew that I was not the body, although in it, and that I am like everyone else immortal , there were no words just a realization without words, I just knew, and the knowing was constant , without any judgments attached. There was intense love and joy, I felt loved and I loved everyone and everything myself. I wanted to  tell everyone about the content of the experience.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   The colors looked very beautiful and transparent.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   Sound seemed softer and  yet very clear.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Extreme joy of a quality unknown to me, it is not like being happy, it is more like being joyful, calm and completely empty of judgments past and future.   

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   I felt being one with everything that ever existed.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   I felt I was already present in many forms but the content did not interest me .

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The perceptions in this  world felt like a curtain obscuring the real world beyond this one.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   I felt that I was beyond the body , always was, but currently in it, and can leave it if I want to. The realization was not that there is life after death , but more like real life is outside this body.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I felt God's presence and love for me and everyone else. It felt like a smiling presence, and still does to this day.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I knew that this form is not the first one, but that I took many other forms before, I was not interested in this aspect of the experience, I was more impressed by the feeling of joy and immortality.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I felt being one with everything that ever existed, and that everything that ever existed , exists as one beyond the perception brought about by the limits of my body.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Uncertain   They felt trivial and non existent. I felt that all my personal problems and those of the larger world, the biggest conflicts on the plant, have already been solved , the past , present and future felt as one and I knew that my worries are very trivial. As for important issues of the planet , they were either solved already or just as trivial as my problems.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   They felt trivial and non existent. I felt that all my personal problems and those of the larger world, the biggest conflicts on the plant, have already been solved , the past , present and future felt as one and I knew that my worries are very trivial. As for important issues of the planet , they were either solved already or just as trivial as my problems.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I felt I was an ocean , a huge ocean of love. I felt that G d loved me very very much and loved everyone else as well, I felt being like G d and loving everything and everyone .

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes   I felt it was important to forgive the people who hurt me , and just tell them that I love them immensely.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Unknown

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
Yes   I realized how important it is to love and forgive everyone.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   The all encompassing knowing; it did not feel like the regular "knowing" , it was absolute certainty, without words or reasons from the body's perspective.

The Joy and intense love

The sense of being ever present and indestructible.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   3 years later while listening to someone else's near death experience on YouTube, before she said what she was about to say , I knew she was going to say that time is actually one and not fragmented. Shortly after that I saw someone in my mind standing next to my bed and saying " I knew it was a question of time " and it felt like I was briefly in the future and back and having some kind of a d�j� vu.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
The all encompassing knowing; it did not feel like the regular "knowing" , it was absolute certainty, without words or reasons from the body's perspective.

The Joy and intense love

The sense of being ever present and indestructible.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Shared it with a colleague, a psychologist, I wanted to describe the sudden joy, she told me it was a derealization, which offended me, somehow.

Shared it with my best friend who practices meditation and had similar experiences. It was gratifying.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Uncertain   A vague knowledge no knowledge of the actual content . The vague notion , that it's about those who think they went to heaven and came back.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It was a conviction, a knowing. It seems to fade away when I get sucked into thoughts and perceptions of this world, but comes back quickly when I try to remember the feeling.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   See above.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I became less judgmental, and more forgiving, more aware of different states of my mind, and that none are the real state.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   I was once driving on the highway, reflecting about the first experience and thinking about it's meaning, when I started seeing vivid colors along the highway, I saw the colors of the tiniest flowers and the greens along the highway became more I tense as if glistening and somehow transparent.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes