My feeling in that moment: neither my daughter nor my husband could make me go back down. I feel my essence since it's no longer about the body. I keep going higher and as I ascertained the dimensions of the room change. The magnificent light is irresistible. I am totally at peace, there is no longer good or bad, just a total fullness. I see shadows or rather various luminous densities that begin their approach. At this moment I have the impression that I have a choice which is made very quickly: that of not returning - staying with the others. But this desire for the other world is brutally stopped and they throw me back as they make me understand clearly that the hour has not yet arrived. I am propelled at a crazy speed back into my body. This speed means to me that I must have gotten quite far from my physical being. 

I woke up instantly. I will never forget what I saw that night. Nobody believed me even though my life changed after the event. I started my studies again which had been abandoned in 9th grade, I went on to graduate, got my DEUG and my degree in History. I am a member of several aid organizations. The problems in life are laughable, money no longer means anything, material good signify nothing. Only life counts, love supports life and the help we give others, humility has become very important to me. 

But life hasn't spared me since 1992: spinal fracture where I am on the verge of paralysis, DLMA in 2005 and dismissal from my work because I can't see well now. But nothing could alter my morale because I know where I'm going, my future is not unknown, here it is 16 years that I am living with premonitions of the future which always come true. I often know what's coming and can prepare for it. But I can't avoid the experiences I can only distance them from me and not even a lot! I disturb those close to me with my premonitions and intuitions. Now I'm used to it, I live with it and it no longer bothers me but I'm beginning to keep this knowledge secret because more and more the news is negative like the knowledge of times of death. I feel a lot of things I know the thoughts of others which is not fun but does allow me to avoid the friendship of doubtful people so I end up with few friends I can select them by knowing what is within them I can see through them. Before this experience my abilities were certainly not as refined. I sincerely believe that each human being has a destiny given to him at the moment of conception and that nothing can change it, my personal view proves to me every day that my fate is sealed I know my future I've tried to deviate from it but can't. The hardest part has been to integrate this new dimension into my current life. The hours, the weeks, the years no longer have the same meaning, time has become elastic, whoever lives will see, one cannot escape from one's destiny, my life proves it every day. I am usually trying to help those weaker than I! And I can't! I don't fear death and I try to reassure those who do. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes unknowable peace here on earth, indescribable light, unbelief feeling of well-being

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No  

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? at every moment 

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?

More consciousness and alertness than normal  

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please

explain: at every moment 

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes perfect vision from a great distance and over a great distance, very luminous, very real 

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Uncertain

they didn't speak but it was clear, it was more like telepathy 

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes  

What emotions did you feel during the experience? marvelous, no desire to return 

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No  

Did you see a light? Yes

a very beautiful radiant white light there are no words to describe it: hot and cold wild and mild doesn't hurt your eyes you could say haloes were detaching themselves from the light and when they are reunited there is an immense space of fullness. 

Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes luminous beings were at a distance from me except for the one who forced me back. My life on earth is not finished, each one of us has his own time there is no need to precipitate it entit�s lumineuses  

Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No I already lived this experience when I narrowly escaped an accident which would have been fatal. It happened in the fraction of a second. Since then I know exactly what my own future holds for me, there are no more secrets, I know what awaits.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No  

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No  

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes space and time are both elastic 

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes fullness in everything and over everything

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes for me the boundary was the breaking of the thread that held me to my body and I knew very well that if this thread were to break I would not return 

Did you become aware of future events? Yes I know where I'm going I have the liberty in appearance only to change things because the knowledge of future events can only attempt to delay them but not to stop them. 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I know my future and the future of those close to me. I know the tragedies that await but must keep this knowledge to myself. 

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Some months afterwards and only a little. They don't believe me. My best friend is only now beginning to believe me because I disclose to him certain things and they happen. 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No  

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real even years after I know that I really lived it, nothing to do with a dream or nightmare or a daydream. I really lived it. 

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   no the whole thing was meaningful  

How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real

It was very real my priorities changed they are more fundamental. I don't have much left in common with my husband he is still materialistic and has not understood my behavior since 1997 and especially since 2000. This experience changed my life deeply and will no doubt continue to change it. 

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes

The priority of priorities has become human feeling, the need to help those around me whether they be rich or poor. Help comes in many guises and I often say I am the defender of widows and orphans! 

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I don't know, this afternoon I went to a burial, things rang in my ears. I know where we go when we die. There's no reason to be afraid. 

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No  

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?   magnificent, marvelous peace and beatitude, feeling of immense well-being, of lightness, no more problems, a place of happiness without name: you feel happiness without end along with all the others. 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain This experience is very difficult to put into words, it's a state of spirit because the body is immaterial but visible we are like a cloud of beneficial thought dressed in light like a transparent veil floating in a luminous immensity with all the others.