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Leturmi's Experience

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This happened in 1990, I had lost three members of my family in 5 months (my father, my brother - suicide - and my aunt). Naturally I was in an extremely weakened and depressive state, hardly able to get up in the morning, as a result of the emotional pain following these events. I knew that no doctor would be able to cure my soul. At this time, I came across a woman in Paris who practised the balancing of auras, and according to a friend’s advice she would be able to do something to help my soul. Of course I went to see this woman: when I got there, she did a paper drawing of my aura, and explained the different spheres and the condition of the aura as she found it. We exchanged only a few words, and she asked me to lie on a completely white bed, in the room we were in, which was also white. 

Naturally  I did not know what this woman would do. I lay down and looked at her. She seemed to be gazing at forms in space, with concentrated force. She looked as if she were pushing against invisible shapes. She was standing up, about 3 or 4 yards away from me. 

While she was pushing these currents of energy, which I was unable to see, my body was feeling a continuously growing sense of wellbeing. I closed my eyes and let myself go with it, allowing myself to be carried off by this new condition, which acted only upon my soul, but whose side-effects reached into my physical body. 

Little by little, all pain disappeared, and I found myself in a state of blessedness which I had never previously known. She left the room, and I was left alone with some music which only amplified my state of bliss. I was in full consciousness, I did not leave my body, nor did I see a tunnel as some people say they do, but after some ten minutes or so I could no longer feel my body, and an unimaginable wave of love swept through me completely. This wave of love seemed to be of a dimension whose power and extent I could not describe. I was so immersed in love that I felt incapable of withstanding it, it was overwhelming. At that moment, I could see a mighty white light, brilliant and dense, a light of love which engulfed me in every part. I was in the light and also part of the light. If you want a more exact image, I was doubly light, due to the weightlessness which filled my being at that moment. I could see through 360 degrees. I was like a fragment of love in a completely white universe, feeling all the density of this universe, a universe where only love was present. While being conscious of my situation ( I knew that I was lying on a bed in the house of this lady) , I no longer had any doubts about the destiny of mankind, the “why” or the “how” of all the existential questions which all humans being can ask themselves. Everything seemed obvious to me, my soul having been to the place marked out for it, and not finding any more questions  left to ask. My body had become a light of love which kept on increasing, all the while receiving more and more love, beyond my capacity to receive it all.  And I said to myself: “But what can I do with all this love, except pass it on, but to whom?”  I was alone, and I felt that I could not absorb all this love.  All sense of time and space had disappeared, they no longer had any importance and no boundaries existed any more. The feeling lasted until the woman came to “awaken” me with a Tibetan gong. I resented her bringing me out of this state, back into a body which was heavy. 

Nevertheless my body had changed , and was filled with love. I no longer suffered for my loved ones, since from then on I knew where they were. I spoke to the woman about my feelings, and her only reaction was a huge smile. I did not yet know what it was I had experienced.  When I left her house, I wanted to hold all the Parisians in my arms, and I realised I was radiant, as people around me reacted, staring at me as if in expectation of something.  I lowered my head as I thought I was not in a normal state and felt myself both happy and ill-at-ease, giving off such radiance. 

I went home, and those around me noticed a radical transformation. At the time, I was studying for my master’s degree in law, it was May, and the examinations were to start in June. I had not been able to work all that year, but in a month-and-a-half I managed to cram in a year’s study programme and passed all my exams.  

The effects lasted several months, I went back to the woman once, as she wanted to finish off some work which might remain undone, but I did not again feel what I had experienced the first time. 

After going through this, I began to read books on the aura (Jeannine Fontaine), Life after Life by Dr Moody… and every time someone describes a state similar to mine, I have to stop reading and relive these sensations.

I have never really been able to communicate this experience, its authenticity, to those around me. I was the most powerful experience of my life, particularly as it cured my soul of the unspeakable pain which one can have after so many bereavements and other things lived through… Naturally I continued to suffer from the disappearance of family members in the following years, but not in the same way: a healing had taken place on this level, and I no longer desired their return to earth. It was as though in the space of 30 or 40 minutes I had completed the mourning process. A process which requires years, sometime an entire lifetime, for some people who find acceptance impossible.

Cela s'est passé en 1990, j'ai perdu trois membres de ma famille en 5 mois ( mon père, mon frère ( suicide) et ma tante). J'étais naturellement dans un état extrêmement faible et depressif, ne pouvant pratiquement pas me lever le matin à cause de la douleur morale qui a suivi ces évènements. Je savais qu'aucun docteur ne pouvait guerir mon âme . J'ai rencontré à l'époque une femme ã Paris qui remettait l'aura en place et qui selon les conseils d'un ami, pouvait faire quelquechose pour aider mon ame.

Je suis naturellement allée voir cette femme: quand je suis arrivée , elle a déssiné mon aura sur un papier en m'expliquant les differentes sphères et l'état dans lequel se trouvait cet aura. Nous avons echangé peu de mots et elle m'a demandé de m'allonger sur un lit tout blanc, dans la pièce blanche

où nous étions. Je ne savais naturellement pas ce que cette femme allait faire: je me suis allongée et l'ai regardée. Elle avait l'air de se concentrer sur des formes dans l'espace et avec force , elle semblait pousser des formes invisibles. Elle était debout à 3 ou 4 metres de moi.

Au fur et à mesure qu'elle poussait ces courants d'energie que je ne pouvais pas voir, mon corps a ressenti un bien être énorme qui ne cessait de grandir. J'ai fermé mes yeux et j'ai laissé faire, me laissant emporter par cette état nouveau qui semblait ne toucher que mon âme mais qui réagissait sur mon corps physique.

Petit à petit, toute douleur a disparu et je me suis retrouvée dans un état de béatitude que je n'avais jamais connu auparavant. Elle a quitté la pièce, me laissant seule avec une musique qui n'a fait qu'amplifier cet état.

J'étais complètement consciente, je ne suis pas sortie de mon corps, je n'ai pas vu de tunnel comme certains le disent mais après quelques 10 minutes, je ne sentais plus mon corps, et une vague d'amour inimaginable m'a complètement remplie. Cette vague d'amour était comme d'une dimension dont je ne pourrai pas décrire la force , ni la portée: j'etais tellement submergée d'amour que je je me sentais pas capable d'en recevoir autant, d'y faire face. Au même moment, j'ai vu une immense lumière blanche, brillante, dense, une lumière d'amour qui m'enveloppait de toutes parts. J'étais dans cette lumière et une part de cette lumière. J'étais double lumière ( double light)si vous voulez une image plus précise, due à la légereté qui emplissait mon être à ce moment. Je pouvais voir à 360 degrés. J'étais comme une parcelle d'amour dans un univers tout blanc, ressentant toute la densité de cet univers. Un univers où seule l'amour était présente. Consciente de mon état ( je savais que je reposais sur ce lit chez cette dame), je n'avais plus du tout aucune question concernant la destinée de l'homme, le pourquoi du comment de toutes les questions existentielles que tout être humain peut se poser. Tout me paraissait évident, mon âme étant allée là ou elle devait aller et elle n'avait plus de questions à se poser. Mon corps était devenu une lumière d'amour qui ne cessait de grandir , de recevoir toujours et encore plus d'amour et je ne pouvais tout recevoir. Et je me suis dit mais que puis- je faire de tout cet amour sinon le donner, mais à qui? j'etais seule et je sentais que je ne pouvais absorber tout cet amour. Toute sensation d'espace et de temps avait disparu: ils n'avaient plus aucune importance et plus aucune limite n'existait La sensation a duré jusqu'à ce que cette femme vienne me "reveiller "avec un gong tibétain. Je lui en voulais de m'avoir fait sortir de cet état, pour retrouver un corps lourd.

Mon corps avait néanmoins chagé et il était rempli d'amour. Je ne souffrais plus des miens sachant désormais où ils étaient. J'ai parlé de mon état à cette femme et sa seule réaction a été un immense sourire.

Je ne savais pas encore ce que j'avais vécu. Quand je suis sortie de chez elle, je voulais prendre tous les parisiens dans mes bras et je me suis aperçue que je rayonnais car les gens réagissaient autour de moi, me fixant semblant attendre quelquechose. J'ai baissé la tête car je me suis dit que je n'etais pas dans un état normal et je me sentais à la fois heureuse mais mal à l'aise de rayonner autant.

Je suis rentrée chez moi, mon entourage a constaté une transformation radicale. J'étais en maitrise de droit à cette époque, nous étions en mai et les examens commencaient en juin. Je n'avais pas pu travailler de toute l'année, mais en un mois et demi j'ai emmagasiné un programme d'une année de maitrise et ai eu tous mes examens.

L'effet a duré plusieurs mois, je suis retourné voir cette femme une fois , elle voulait finir un travail qui aurait pu être inachevé, mais je n'ai pas ressenti ce que j'avais vécu la première fois.

Après avoir vécu cela, je me suis mise à lire des livres sur l'aura ( Jeanine Fontaine), la vie après la vie du Dr Moody ... et à chaque fois que queqlu'un décrit un état semblable au mien, je ne peux qu'arrêter ma lecture et vivre un souvenir de ces sensations. Je n'ai jamais vraiment pu communiquer cette expérience, son authenticité aux personnes qui m'entouraient. Elle a été l'expérience la plus forte de ma vie et surtout elle a guéri mon âme des douleurs inimaginables qu'on peut avoir après autant de déces et d'autres choses vécues.... J'ai naturellement continué à souffrir de la disparition de membres de ma famille les années après, mais pas de la même façon: une guérison s'etait opérée sur ce plan et je ne souhaitais plus qu'ils reviennent sur terre, en ce sens qu'en l'espace de 30 à 40 minutes j'avais fait le deuil. Un processus qui demande des années, quelquefois une vie entière pour certains qui ne peuvent accepter.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes L'intensité et ce que j'ai pu voir ( ressentir)

Yes, the intensity, and what I was able to see (feel)

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? ça a été progressif et jusqu'a ce que la femme me "reveille' avec un gong

It was progressive, right to the time the woman “woke” me with a gong.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Je pouvais voir à 360 degres, je n'avais plus de questions conecrnant la vie, la mort...tout me semblait evident

Vision was through 360 degrees, I had no more questions about life or death, everything seemed obvious to me.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Non. Une lumiere d'amour brillante m'envahissait, j'etais aussi à la fois cette lumiere. C'etait comme si je voyais l'univers tout blanc, j'etais en face d'' un univers blanc , rayonnant d'amour.

No, a brilliant light of love invaded me, and I was also that light, at the same time. It is as if I saw the universe completely white. I was facing a universe which was white, radiating love.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? un bonheur immense, la sensation que tout etait possible, une guerison de mon ame, une solution à tout, l'idée que j'avais un but dans la vie, et avoir enfin compris quoi etait Dieu.

Enormous happiness, the sensation that anything was possible, a healing of my soul, the solution to everything, the idea that I had a goal in life, and finally understood the nature of God.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No

Did you see a light? Yes brillante, non eblouissante, une lumière d'amour. Que de l'amour. 

Yes, brilliant but not dazzling, a light of love. Nothing but love.

Did you meet or see any other beings? No

Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain L'etat dans lequel j'eatis etait en lui meme particulier et il me semblait que je pouvais me nourrir de toujours plus d'amour. 

Unsure. The state I was in was special in itself, and it seemed I could partake of ever more love

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes L'espace et le temps n'existaient plus

Yes, space and time ceased to exist.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Le sens de la vie, Dieu...

Yes , the sens of life, God

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Que mon ame allait etre guerie

Yes, that my soul would be healed.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Une confiance superieure dans l'avenir, dans la vie et des images peu frequentes mais qui m'avertissent de quelquechose. 

Yes , a greater faith in the future, in life, and images which occasionally warn me of something which will happen.

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes j'ai raconté a tres peu, les gens ne peuvent comprendre.

Ils ont vu une énergie surprenante en moi, ils ne pouvaient que constater sans vraiment comprendre.

Yes, I have told very few people, as people cannot understand. They have seen a surprising energy in me, they had to notice, without really understanding.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real L'intensite de cette experience ne peut me faire douter de sa réalite.

The intensity of the experience leaves me no room to doubt its reality.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? C'est l'intensite de l'amour qui est exceptionnelle et surtout de comprendre que Dieu existe. comprendre aussi qu'on nous a donné un corps pour accomplir quelquechose sur terre.

It is the intensity of love which is exceptional, and especially to understand that God exists. To understand also that we have been given a body in order to accomplish something on earth.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real Je poste sur ce site aujourd'hui alors que l'experience a eu lieu en 1990, et j'en parle toujours avec intensité et une envie de la partager.

I am posting on this site today, whereas the experience was in 1990, and I speak of it still with intensity and a wish to share.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Je suis quelquepart plus selective car je vois maintenant mieux a travers les gens

Yes , I am in some ways more selective, as I now see through people more easily.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No De plus en plus convaincue que les religions se trompent à propos de Dieu et qu'elles detournent les individus de leur propre spiritualité

No, I am more and more convinced that religions are mistaken about God, and that they distract people from their own spirituality.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Je suis convaincue que chaque organe de notre corps a une correspondance dans le psychisme et que ce psychisme est lui meme une correspondance d'un univers spirituel qui nous est propre mais que nous partagons tous, par consequent, je pense profondement que nous ne pourrons jamais reellement comprendre l etre humain sans comprendre l'esprit et surtout sans connaissance spirituelle.

I am convinced that every organ in our body has a correspondence in the soul, and that the soul itself corresponds to a spiritual universe which is our own, yet shared with everyone. Consequently, I believe profoundly that we will never really understand the human being without understanding the spirit, and especially without spiritual knowledge.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ce site est extraordinaire

This site is extraordinary