Leesa M's Experience
As a child I would often "dream" I was dressed in a white robe and I was standing at a podium reading a huge book. I was learning new facts at a very rapid pace and I could remember them in the morning when I woke up. But...when I was in the experience, as soon as I realized what was happening and that I was not "where I should be" the words would become blurred and I would re-enter ME.
Second Experience: When I was around 27 I lived in a mobile home. One night I heard this LOUD roaring sound and it wouldn't stop. I was paralyzed and couldn't get the attention of the person sleeping next to me. I looked down to the foot of the bed and there was a black outline/shadow of a tall man standing there. He didn't move. I was terrified, but it seemed like I just went back to sleep. Even though we had tiny windows and the door was dead bolted shut, when I woke up the next day ALL the drawers in all the tables, shelves, the refrigerator, the oven, the coffee tables were wide open. I would assume that the shadow man was trying to communicate something, but I don't know what.
Third Experience: When
I was 42 I came home from work one day and was parked in my driveway. All of
the sudden I was in a different place. I had on the white robe again, but I was
an adult. The huge book was there on the podium, just like it had been when I
was a child. I had a list of questions and I started asking them. My first
question was, "who will I be with when I'm dead?" The answer was shocking to
me. The answer was that "we" are one and that all the people I am thinking
about are really projections of me and that I will miss no one because I am
all. Also, it showed me that when I "die" the grieving period for my family
will be very, very short because time is not what it seems. To them it will
last a long time, but in the grand scheme of things it's no time at all. I went
to ask my next question, when all of the sudden I was FLOODED with knowledge. I
knew EVERYTHING. Then my vision became 360 degrees and I was glowing w/light.
I was in the middle of a swirling vortex that had colors that I have never seen
before. I felt myself fading into that vortex and there are NO words to
describe the feeling. It was like bliss x 100,000,000. It was amazing. Then I
was back in my car. I was so happy and I had absolutely NO fear of death.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes My childhood experiences are easy to describe. My one "negative" experience is easy to describe. My third and "best" experience cannot be described adequately by our language.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I seemed very conscious during all my experiences.
Was the experience dream like in any way? I would say they all were.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes First experiences, child in white robe. Third experience, made of light.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? First experiences, happy. Second experience, scared. Third experience, BLISS!!!!
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Second experience I heard a loud roaring sound like a train bearing down on me.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes During third experience I saw light and color and I WAS light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Not in first experiences...just me. In second experience I saw the "shadow" man. In third experience there was a teacher/spiritual guide, but I did not see them, only felt them.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes In my experiences as a child I learned new things that I had no prior exposure to.
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I learned lots of information during childhood experiences. In third experience, at age 42, I knew EVERYTHING...temporarily.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes After the third
experience I started seeing 11:11s EVERYWHERE and I still do.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Lots. No fear of death. Certainty of continued existence. Less interest in anything material. Interest in all things spiritual. Increased awareness.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Yes. I feel I've evolved. I'm more forgiving, understanding, tolerant, and giving.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No response
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes A selected few. Unless you share with people on the internet who have had the same experience and know you are telling the truth, it can be very frustrating.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Childhood experiences: I felt like I had a great secret.
Shadow Man experience: I was scared.Third experience: I felt BEYOND BLISS