Laurence B's Experience
I must begin this account by thanking Jeff Long and all those associated for bringing us this amazing medium and setting it up way back in the day, I have been reading vigorously and citing the pages on this site for my own studies.
I always have it in my mind to try to have an OBE, its always there, even while I'm not actively trying, the desire is there, was there, I've had many experiences over the years during my close study of my dreams and lucid dreams where I briefly appears to be outside of my body, many feelings of floating , falling, etc during meditation and hypnagogic states, and I am grateful and interested for all those experiences, I feel I have gradually progressed with some kind of help form who knows where. I have 64 pages journal of astounding synchronicities that are my own personal proof of an interaction beyond time space of this reality with the others.
I feel obliged to also state that I am a very level headed individual who loves studying human anatomy and design in nature, it , along with the constant study of the afterlife , medium ship etc truly cements my world view that there is indeed an afterlife.
Anyway, to the experience, I had been up for around 13 hours or so, and like so often I overworked myself doing Japanese, guitar, study etc, and decided , I had that "feeling" that if I laid down something would happen, normally those feeling will lead to strange events, but particularly recently they have accelerated, like seeing through my closed eyelids easily, randomly seeing areas around me in detail in an almost remote viewing way and the classic screeching, buzzing, whooshing sounds sometimes accompanied by feelings of floating.
I normally come away form such experiences happy but still disappointed that I cant have that true OBE that I have read so many books about.
but I feel it has finally happened, Interestingly, the same things happened last night but tonight I decided to exit consciously, also I was wearing all my clothes, lying on my back and arms folded.
It began with small dreamlets , short hypnogogic episodes that were quite nonsensical, then all of a sudden, after a while of lying down, I become aware again and immediately realize in am in SP (sleep paralysis) I have experienced this many times over the years but its been hard to attain the state purposefully, this is the true jackpot for stepping into altered state, Lucid Dreams etc and ...as many claimed, OBEs.
So I am now lying straight, a huge wave of energy is filling my body, is hard to describe, as is so many of these experiences, I felt like I was plugged into an energy source and the classic vibrations were coursing through my body , I was startled, but I'm so used to such events that I quickly gathered myself, I could also feel a strange bubbly feeling on the outer edges of my body, as though another bubbly version of my self was trying to squeeze out, I distinctly recall also Feeling of immediately floating, not anywhere in terms of direction, just floating.
Because I have been so used to seeing through my closed eyes of late and actually experimenting with it, I was trying to do that, when suddenly it hit me, OPEN YOUR EYES, and I did, all the while reciting in my head calm and detached over and over to prolong this amazing experience.
Anyway, now I open my eyes but only a small bit and I see a black deep black void, with a single light , and it was all superimposed over my room which was lit with the classically described diffuse light (I believe that alone is proof of the phenomenon reality , its described far too often in too much the same manner, its amazing every time I read it!)
I then closed my eyes again and, aware of the feelings increasing and sounds of whooshing etc, (yesterday as I said, same experience, no exit, but yesterday I heard amazing sounds, radio channels changing, dissonant piano music etc mad!!)
I felt for a moment an instinctive fear as I reopened my eyes . as though someone would be there, but banished it as quick as it came, and decided to try to float out, its hard to describe how I did it, it was just desire, it was a thing I do during relaxation to make my body go kind of empty, and as I did this wow, it worked, I was very calm though as is often descried in such experiences, I literally floated up to the ceiling slowly like soap bubble, I notice I was floating horizontally as many have described, and that at first I was being taken to the left by an intelligence of some kind into the wall and I used all my will and said NO...I'M IN CONTROL and just like that I was in control.
I realized I was too concentrated on maintaining floating control that I didn't look at the environment and as soon as I reached the ceiling I began to descend and I new somehow it would soon be over, I cant describe the feeling of floating up and down to the ceiling and back , it was amazing, not dream like, very different to anything and the sense was it was truly happening, I was amazed at the "frame rate" of my vision, it seems I was perceiving the room moving super smooth past me as I floated down, that really stood out.
Then I simply was back in my body, I never looked around and check could I see it which I truly regret, I was just lying there with my her at pounding (again many describe this also) and very energetic tingles shooting up my spine, and I felt I could even go back in no problem but knew I had to write it down before I forgot, I was filled with happiness and positivity that I had finally experienced SP again and then even better and OBE type event, wow, amazing!
I feel it also necessary to say recently I have , during meditation literally seen white orbs floating around, only when I get SUPER deep and relaxed, I was so taken aback that I jumped out of the relaxation, it happened two night in a row and never before and never since, the feeling was, that I had been shown something or am progressing etc, well that's it, I shall be pursuing this further"
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No I had eaten very lightly when this occurred
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The overall feeling of experiencing something very different to a dream, I have been documenting my dreams since I was 17 including a constant effort of mastery of lucid dreaming, I dare say I'm somewhat of an expert of both subjects, I have over 1000 pages in my dream journal. The feelings were, wow, it was relief at finally feeling I had achieved an out of body experience, but also surprise because of the shock and realization
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was fully me, fully there, in fact, there was NO difference, it was more vivid in the sense of the movement, but I didn't pay attention enough to the environment what with my control struggle and the fact that all this probably lasted just 15 seconds, at least in earth time!!
Was the experience dream like in any way? hmm, hard to say, definitely NOT dream like in terms of my consciousness, or the feelings of simply not being asleep but being wide awake but floating !! The only thing dream like about it was that I suppose one could dream of such an event
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain I feel yes, I cant confirm as I didn't see my body below, but I did rise from the exact spot I was sleeping in and felt the distinct separation of one body form the other and the subsequent reentry,
What emotions did you feel during the experience? slight fear, relief at it finally happening, wonder as I floated up, determination to hold on and disappointment as it ended and finally thanks for the experience
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? strangely not much a slight whooshing, but noting like I would normally hear in the SP stage, thankfully !
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Uncertain I definitely briefly opened my eyes and before seeing my room I saw a void, a deep dark that was almost colorfully black and a white light in I, very bright but only all this was just very fleeting and I almost forgot about it till I meditated on the experience
Did you see a light? Yes white point, or circle in a black void, superimposed over room as viewed from floating just above the bed, I could see through the top bunk, seeing through walls etc is reported in many OBEs and NDEs!! amazing
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain I , #again, as is often described, felt a presence that was actually pulling my body in the opposite way, maybe a test? who knows I think of anatomy, to me it is they way things work and we have just to extend that out as the hermeticists thought, I.E. everything is regulation regulation regulation, atomic, cellular, macro etc, there are barriers in cells, barriers protecting macro structures like the hearts pericardium, and many on DMT trip and OBEs have broken through what they term membranes!! I feel that any movement into such realms will be as regulated as the universe of the human body is
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Uncertain My main experiment was to simply exit , I only wish I had taken it further
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No I was alone
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes the rule in such states is certainly a much higher set of sense, in my case it was about the same, but the general feeling of lucid awareness, of reality, or "is-ness" was tangible, as though something really big was happening just by looking at the world around me
actually at certain points I was aware of both my heartbeat and breathing for fleeting seconds
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain didn't give it much though, but the world itself had a quality , it was only my room but it had a mystical quality to it, enchanted almost
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes for a moment I feel I had finally confirmed everything I have been searching for
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I didn't touch the ceiling but felt it was the imputes for me to begin descending again!
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No , but I knew it was about to happen as I descended closer to my horizontal position on the bed
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes not with this one in particular, but I truly know from personally experience that , via lucid dreams, synchronicities, (I have a twin) telepathy events, things like that, they are so common that me and my brother just treat it as normal , I know for a fact that I have experienced such events and I feel it began a few years ago and progressed steadily along with my own self development, I trust totally my gut feeling, I trust totally in the river of reality, as Robert Waggoner pus it the sailor does not control the sea!
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No only that I can do this form now on much easier based on this lying on my back, after being up for 12 hours and covering myself half with the blanket with all clothes on, headphones over ears and actually I had a hat over my eyes!!
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? my brother is so use to it he didn't want to hear when I told him!!! he was playing a game! he is somewhat less persistent then me but holds all the same beliefs
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes stated above
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was the original amazing feeling of separating from where I was lying, of using my will to float upwards and out. wow, that was truly amazing.
The worst was the END!!
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I seemed to black out just before exit and just before entry, this is very often described in Crookall's books, which must be read!! too soon to tell only occurred yesterdayDid the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes because it was less mundane then most OBEs yes I feel it was perfectly adequate, the only indescribable thing was the personal feelings I experienced upon separation!!