Lara S's Experience
I was severely depressed at the time before my NDE. I had gotten into a car accident a year ago and suffered short term memory loss. My neck and back was also under a lot of pain and my left eye would twitch at times.
Family life was unbearable, dealing with school, mom's chronic illness, dad's neglect and gambling addiction, and brother's focus on himself. My sanity and patience started to dwindle.
Weeks before my NDE, I wasn't able to study for a college exam and was under extreme stress. My moods were up and down. The only way I knew how to cope with all the stresses in my life was through an eating disorder. I began to eat less and less and lost a lot of weight. My stomach was always in pain and I had no energy to do anything. I was very fatigued and hanging on by a thread.
I began to see many doctors: a cardiologist that diagnosed me with heart arrhythmia, a gastroenterologist that only diagnosed me with IBS, a psychologist that diagnosed me with depression but all the medicines they gave seem to make me feel worse.
As the days go by, my will to live began to fade. What's the point of living if I were to continue to suffer like this, haven't I been through enough?
The night of my NDE, my heart palpitations were getting worse but I just brushed it off as another symptom. I had no appetite and my vision became blurry. I cried for a few hours and collapsed on my bed.
Laying on my bed, I asked in my head 'Why am I suffering so much, how is there a creator, a benign God that would allow all this to happen to me?' I closed my eyes with tears on my face, but when I started to fell asleep, I felt like my breathing was slowing down and I began to gasp for air after asking that question.
What happened next was the strangest feeling. I saw myself, my soul, lift out of my navel/belly button. I was looking down at my own body and I was perplexed. I went what the heck, I can still exist out of my body? My essence traveled through an umbilical cord/tunnel that was white and grayish with wave like patterns. I was so distraught, I didn't know what to do.
Was I dying? My spirit was traveling super fast like the speed of light. On my way to this never-ending tunnel, I yelled at God to save me. I was so scared that I yelled out to Jesus/Buddha to help me. I was desperate because I didn't know where I was heading. I said I would miss my family and my two cats.
The tunnel then reached to this luminous white dome-shaped room that didn't blind my eyes. But before I could go further, my spirit quickly traveled back down the tunnel and fell back into my body. When I woke up I felt instantly refreshed. It almost felt like Earth is not really real and that this world is more like a dream than reality. I had a sense of peace and happiness than I ever felt in my life.
I also had healing from my anorexia. I had a lot more appetite and gained weight. I had more energy and was genuinely grateful and happy. Things that used to bother me did not bother me anymore. I also sense energy and can see auras of people. Sometimes I can feel people suffering or know the thoughts in their head, their anguish, regret, pain and guilt.
I also sense how animals suffer and have been vegetarian ever since. It didn't feel right to eat animal products knowing how much they suffer in the hands of humans just for the sake of satisfying our taste buds.
I have more compassion and tolerance to everyone. I used to be judgmental and materialistic. Now I don't buy as much and like to help others more. I felt as if we are all ONE.
If I'm in pain the other person absorbs my pain, If I'm love, the other person receives my love..I began to be more spiritual, more praying and meditation. I feel more connected to NDErs when they tell their stories because its like they have transformed like me and had an evolution of spirit in mortal body. I felt connected with source energy and felt God's protection and love for me.
Lately these renewed senses have gone back down to before I experienced my NDE. I wish to go back to that place. This world is full of suffering and I don't understand why we can't have this spiritual peace and happiness in this physical world all the time.
What I do know is that we should love each other and everyone's flaws, we are all here to learn, to make mistakes, to grow. We should serve humanity, be less selfish and self absorbed, and do more acts of kindness without asking anything in return.
"We are not these bodies, we are not our accomplishments nor our possessions, we are all one with the Source of all being which is God".
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Words cant explain
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the tunnel
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Yes more feelings of compassion and empathy
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was scared
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No time, it felt limitless
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Love and compassion
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: More spiritual
My experience directly resulted in: Moderate changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes More spiritual understanding more prayers
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain More knowing or feeling a persons intentions
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The tunnel experience
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They didn't know how to respond thought it was my imagination
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real This world is an illusion
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes More compassion
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No