Kristen C's Experience


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Experience description:   

I was sick with a fever and had been trying to catch up on my sleep. I went to bed around 12am and woke up around 11am. I was still extremely tired and was not completely aware of things around me. I went downstairs to sleep and started having slight delusions of paranoia. I was almost to the point of calling the police. This is so blurry to me now that some of it way have been dreamed. What happened next was the part concerning OBE.

I went back upstairs into my bed and when I laid down. I could almost feel myself fall rapidly into a sleeplike state. I couldn't have been completely asleep because my mind was still running wild. All of the sudden I wasn't able to move.  It was more of a mental paralysis that a physical one. 

I felt like I was being either possessed or detached from something. I have never been able to comprehend what it must feel like to be paralyzed. But at this moment I couldn't move. I was panicking. I tried to move my tongue and scream with all my might but I couldn't move. I got a feeling in the pit of my heart like the ones you get when you are watching a good movie and all at once you know doom is eminent for everyone. I felt that I was not breathing. Like my body no longer functioned, but it did not have to because I was still conscious with out it.

I want to say I "rose" above my body, but I feel that it was more of a struggle. Like my body didn't want to let go and it was holding onto my "soul" as it was trying to leave. I felt that i was about two inches higher than the rest of my body but it wouldn't go any further. During this entire time I remember thinking that this could be it, am I dying, but my thoughts were so clouded and there were so many of them rushing through my head that I can't hardly say exactly what was thinking. I do remember thinking about a poem I once read where a young boy dies. he is unable to move but he is still conscious after his death. he struggles but to no avail. that's how I felt. 

I think I must have dozed off because I woke up hours later dazed and confused.  I'm not sure if it has any relevance but about 2 nights later, I dreamt that I was diagnosed with a fatal illness that only 2 other people had ever had. I almost never dream.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, It was like something I have never experienced before.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain

I thought I had stopped breathing, but I couldn't feel my body so I didn't know for sure.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was barely conscious.

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?   Absolutely. It felt almost like an out-of-control lucid dream.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I think it was like a blur of myself.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I was frightened but a little detached by my skepticism. I was at least at some point, trying to get myself to believe this was all in my imagination, or some kind of dream. But I just couldn't believe it. Something in me took this very seriously and was adamant on me believing it.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           None I can recall

Did you see a light?           Uncertain, I was very focused "inward" so I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings. I do know that I didn't go anywhere. I barely "left" my body.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain

I doubt it. As I said, I was very focused inward, so if there was anyone there I didn't notice them.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain

I want to say I felt numb, but it is hard to explain. I couldn't "feel" my body, but it was like it wasn't even an issue.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, My perception of reality was bent.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

Other than the feeling that I had proved to myself there IS definitely consciousness after death, no.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Uncertain

As I said earlier, I felt like my body didn't want to let me go. Almost like I was bound to it.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain

I am regarding it as something I cannot explain, but not necessarily something real.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       It hasn't.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, A friend of mine who is very interested in ghosts and the paranormal.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part was the fear.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        When I wasn't unable to move and struggling, I was scared but calm at the same time, like I knew something unconsciously.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, They covered everything I had to say.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    None. Good job!