Where do I start now? Phew!

Ok. I have read the postings and I believe I'm special. I have been having OBE's (as well as night terrors) since I was a baby. (Ask me more about the night-terrors some time and I'll tell you some really weird stuff!) There are no catastrophic events that trigger them. They are as regular and common as going to the market.

On any given night, I will be fast asleep dreaming or not dreaming, and then be aware, and "look" around the room through (?) my eyelids. rather than try to stop it or get up and look at my body (as, evidently everyone and their mother does!) I will scan. I scan the room I am sleeping in. What I see there upsets me in the moment.

The room has all of its trimmings. the curtains are hung (only from some rod I've never seen), the bed is comfy and nice (and slightly askew if its normal location), etc. etc... It is right and wrong. I don't like IT so I try to look harder at IT. IT is not the real room and I have to see IT. I have no choice in the matter! My eyes are OPEN, yet shut tight... I can feel them closed but I can see through them. I can feel my sleeping body numb and unmovable the way you can feel a stubbed toe.

(...and there is random TV noise... like a lot of people talking at once only it's on the lowest volume setting... just enough to distract, but not enough to interrupt.)

I think to myself, "Ok... I am looking through my eyelids. fine... but what the hell happened here? Do I live here? Can I look around without waking up?" and I try. I lay still and I look around.

It stays the way it is. Nothing "morphs" into a dream about a haunted house with helpful (or malevolent) spirits who cajole me into some pseudo-religious  storyline about right versus wrong... my dead mother never gives me any tips for raising my son or using liquid eyeliner... and I most certainly never get to make out with Cary Grant or acquire winning lotto numbers! Damn! right?)

NOTHING happens!

Then I wake up with the "jerk".... either from the falling-into-the-bed-from-the-ceiling or from the "spins" feeling.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain

Yes and no. Sinse this is a lifelong, recurring event, it happens when I am drunk, sober, tired, rested, sick, healthy, happy, depressed, and "Just fine! Thank you very much!"...

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

Nothing is hard for me to express in words! Got an hour?

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain

Yes. BUT! Let me qualify this by saying that this experience was the one and only ginormous, huge-big, weirdo OBE of my life. All of the others are a very normal, quiet and natural happenings.

One time I was really sick with the flu and I was FORCED out of my body, through the wall of the apartment and into the hallway. I heard "the" noise (thudding, pulsing, buzzing, traffic, heart-beat, phone-wire, TV noise) while I was going through the wall and while i waited. I remember asking non-verbally to someone unseen how long to wait and what to do. I spontaneously "knew" the answer was : as long as it takes to do nothing.

I sort of lost track and stopped paying attention...

When I came to, my family was there. They told me that, while I slept my fever suddenly spiked to 107 and they were just about to call 911 when the thermometer turned itself off and came back on. The new reading was 98.6. They said they watched the sweat evaporate off my forehead into mist right as my eyes fluttered open...

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Read the above post and tell me.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Same!

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Is curiosity an emotion? No? Ok then, how about frustrated?

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Background grzzrg sound! (No English for this noise... it's like really loud quiet.)

Did you see a light?           Yes, The lights in the room... normal as can be.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No, I communicate questions and know answers.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No, I never even sit up.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

No. they're all the same as ever... and just as underdeveloped and flawed!

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

Still can't sleep. Still tired... nothing different here.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  See above...

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I'll sum them both up at once for you: I got the stripes, but not the tie!

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No