Kaye J's Experience

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Experience description:   

I was born and raised in a Railroad town.  Most fathers' in the community were employed by the Railroad, as was my father.    Naturally the continual passage of trains through town were a point of interest to children, though we were continually admonished to stay off the tracks.  The viaduct in particular, as its' height afforded no escape.

   One day, I found myself in the company of a girl I felt competitive toward.  I did not like her, and set about rashly bragging about my great achievements since last I'd seen her.  She was doing the same sort of childish bragging.       We found ourselves approaching the viaduct.  I recklessly claimed I walked on it everyday.  Of course, she knew I was lying, but to save face I plunged into the ditch ... up on the tracks...and onto the viaduct.

    She called to me to come back, as the train was whistling at the bridge about two miles away.  I heard it too, and figured there was ample time to cross the trestle. It was much higher then I thought, and the locomotive was now turning the bend into sight.    I wasn't about to run back to safety, and tried to outrun the train to the opposite side.   Suddenly a black monster was bearing down at me. The din was hideous as the engineer tried to stop.

    I turned from the awful spectacle, and in terror ran back on the trestle.  I fell between the tracks.  I heard a calm voice say distinctly...."You die."  "No! No!" I wailed.      The voice asked. "What then?"  I thought immediately of my friend "God" (who was not a part of traditional teaching)  and felt great relief.     I sat up and said with perfect confidence "You will have to get me out of here God."  Then I watched the black mountain fall.  I was lifted about a foot off the ground, and held in a palpable circle of bright light.  It was unlike any thing I had ever felt, but at that time, it felt very natural. 

     I had asked God for help, with no doubt whatsoever, so it did not seem "impossible" to me.

     I was propelled backward..noticing the tracks, pebbles, cinders, flashing by.  A euphoric contentment washed over me. 

     I then observed the bars of the "cowcatcher" looming a few inches from my face.  Mild curiosity caused me to reach out to touch it..but the force resisted my effort.      I felt myself pulled to an upright position, and my feet then lightly touched the earth. 

    I was standing beside my astonished companion, who asked' "How did you do that?  How did you fly through the air?  I thought you were under the train!"   I felt warm and kindly toward her..but before I could answer, a man came rushing toward us from the now halted train.  He screamed in anguish...."Who was that kid?  Oh God, who was that kid?"

     We  did not wait to be interrogated and fled in opposite directions toward our homes.    At a safe distance, I looked back and saw the train swarming with figures as they tried to find a mangled body underneath.  I was still wrapped in a mantle of love as i walked  on home.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
            all the way through

Was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience different from normal every day consciousness and alertness?
            I was not old enough to be objective about my feelings.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?              Uncertain
            I did not think of the entire event as being impossible.

But there were other experiences when I was older that I gradually realized were unusual. A mystical experience when I was older that was far more profound.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?            No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?
            a sense of euphoria...but also that I was being held by someone that was invisible, but loving'

Did you see a light?            Yes
            I was held in a "bubble" of intense white light.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?            No
            I had a relationship with a being I called "God" that was very constant ...but not shaped for me by any adult.

After that event, the voice I heard often spoke to me, but I didn't know that it wasn't so for everyone....how could I?

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?            No
            Not during this experience.  The girl that witnessed what happened avoided me...as she didn't want to be party to such a calamity.  I wasn't allowed to tell what happened.  Was ordered not to speak about it again, though, I tried to tell my Dad at the time.

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            No
            Not during this experience.  But I did on another occasion.  Many times.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?            Yes
            Everything seemed to stand still for several weeks. Though I was very young, I felt an unfamiliar longing or homesickness for the bright light that had held me.  But I got into great trouble for nearly causing a train wreck, and my Father became aloof for a long, long time.

   I couldn't understand why my friend "God" got me in so much trouble...I became somewhat angry with God for doing that.  Consequently my faith was somewhat weakened.

Did you become aware of future events?            Uncertain
            In retrospect, I knew a falsehood or truth when I heard them. I had insights into adult motives...I sometimes was provided information by "the voice" that wasn't very useful.  But sometimes I was told a person would die soon, and they did. 

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?            Yes
            Some.  But I didn't know or think they were at the time.

Have you shared this experience with others?            Yes
            My Father was so angry when I was trying to tell him what happened, he accused me of lying and forbade me to speak of it again.  I tried again when I was a young adult, with friends..but they totally disbelieved me (though they were nice about it)  Later, I told my children...and a few others.  Some were accepting.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
            Experience was definitely real
            I knew it had happened.  I had faith in a friend called "God"  I knew nothing about the supernatural then, or until i was older. It seemed a natural response to a natural plea for help. I KNEW God could save me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real
            I believe it was the beginning of a deep interest in the nature of Spirit.  A quest that has been a major part of my life.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes
I believe I would have lived my life on a different level of consciousness if I had not had that experience.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
See #42

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?            Yes
            Yes.. As I said earlier, I have had many

 events in my life that were related to the spiritual, but it is late tonight, and I am too tired to continue now.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
no.  Not at this time.  But I have had amazing experiences which I had hoped to record.  But the circumstances of my life always  interfere.  I hope some day to devote time to such a project.  I have gained much knowledge.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?            Uncertain
            Probably not.