Experience description 3558:

Experience 1/3 - my first ever memory

I have 3 experiences and this is the first one

My first ever childhood memory is hovering near the ceiling in my bedroom and looking down at my baby body in the cot. I do not feel any relation to this body and there's a certain feeling of indecisiveness on my part as I'm considering if I should descend into the cot and merge with the body. In the end I 'take a deep breath', pep talk myself 'ok then ... let's do this thing again!' and descend down into the cot, merging into my physical body and that's where the memory ends.

It completely feels like a pre birth and the word 'again' is crucial here. I clearly remember telling these words to myself and clearly remember the feeling of having done this countless times before and this is just another Tuesday doing this. Also I feel like there was no external pressure involved and everything was my free will. No one pushed me and there was no entity around me.

What's confusing me is my body has  already been born, can't tell if a few days or months. It feels late for a pre birth but that's just how the experience felt. It 100% felt like I'm incarnating into a new body yet again and a certain feeling of responsibility and mission. Was I replacing a soul that was there at the time of birth?? Was this a potential NDE where I survived a sudden cot death? It didn't feel like an NDE at all though, it didn't feel like 'it's not your time yet, go back.' It felt like a first time incarnation into this body. Was it an OBE? But my intense feeling was that I've never been in this body before, plus I'm completely missing the ascending part, getting out of my body. So it's all quite confusing and I've been trying to make sense of it. Overall it's a positive experience but the most fitting word I'd use is intriguing.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    The feeling in words

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain     Potentially a near cot death??

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Very high, the same as an adult brain which is weird because I was a newborn

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, I remember my childhood dreams, some are very vivid and recurring and intriguing in their own way but this definitely wasn't a dream

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes    I was near the ceiling and looking down at my baby body, but don't remember a particular body form like a light body or anything, just remember having the same adult brain I have now and a sense of sarcasm

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Weight of responsibility, indecisiveness, focus, seriousness of the task, sarcasm

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         Yes    My bedroom only

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain     I felt very alert and my vision was definitely working but don't have a particular memory of the other senses

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          There was no time

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I knew I have done this (incarnating into a new body) many times before, and it's something normal

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Uncertain     Was just underneath the ceiling and it felt like I could either go down and incarnate or go up and give up on this incarnation, and there wouldn't be any punishment, I just felt like I'd be mad at myself for abandoning the mission

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    I had a free will to either descend and incarnate or ascend beyond the ceiling and not incarnate but wasn't afraid of any punishment, just felt that I'd be disappointed in myself if I gave up the incarnation at this late stage

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Uncertain     Hard to say as this is my first memory

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Uncertain     Hard to say as this is my first memory

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   You grow up feeling not quite part of the normal reality, like one foot in and one foot out

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain     Nothing very specific but you can't feel normal or like everyone else if your first memory is like this

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes          Some people went a bit quiet, probably not sure if I'm crazy and some said, 'wow', maybe they were touched it somehow, I'm not sure

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Afterwards I remember being a little baby and having my first normal earthly experiences and the general confusion that comes with that

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best: hovering above the ceiling, defying gravity

Worst: the weight of responsibility

Experience description 3559:

Experience 2/3 - I have met the Jinn

This is my second supernatural experience

Between the ages of 13 and approximately 15 I have been extremely versed in Christianity and considered becoming a nun. I have prayed all the time to the point where my brain didn't feel fully present in reality. I believe my brain reached a stage similar to that of levitating etc Buddhist monks due to the intensity of my daily prayers and Bible study. I believe this is what caused my spontaneous OBE which was completely unintentional.

At Christmas 1993 I was in my room praying, on my knees on the floor with the Bible open. Suddenly 'a curtain opened' (there was no physical curtain in that part of the room) and I found myself in a darkened room with 8-10 beings in dark robes and obscured faces looking at me. Despite me not being able to see their faces I felt them smiling and they said, telepathically, 'welcome, congratulations, you found us'. There was a beautiful warmth and wisdom emanating from them and I instantly felt safe and at ease. While trying to work out who they were and gathering my telepathic skills to ask them questions I could sense them winking at each other and 'whispering' telepathically to each other 'should we do it? Should we? Should we?? Yeah?? Yeahhh let's do it!' It was all from a place of love.

At that moment the scenery changed and I was sitting on a cliff next to a sea, with an immense starry night sky above me. The beings were gone. There were only three things, the cliff, the sea and the starry sky. Then IT HAPPENED. I received THE KNOWLEDGE. Instantly I knew everything about everything. Everything that ever has been and ever will be, who we are, why are we here and where are we going. It was a feeling I can't put in words. It was peaceful and intense, beautiful and humbling. There was everything, literally all the maths and science and astrophysics of everything. My brain was able to understand it all despite me not having any training in these subjects beyond secondary school. (My masters is in music.) But it was also all very spiritual and emotional, and SIMPLE. The simplicity of it was what moved me. I thought to myself 'so this is what it is? It's so beautiful and simple'.

For a while I was taking this all in and then realised that at one point I'll have to go back to my earthly existence and will lose all this knowledge. I decided to make a mental bullet point list of the 'main takeaways' I could fit into my physical brain as I felt the need to let everyone know about this. Which was a big mistake because the moment I started to concentrate on my physical brain the whole thing suddenly vanished and I was back in my room next to my Bible. The whole thing was gone, just like that.

I had two overwhelming feelings, intense awe of what just happened and intense frustration with myself that I ruined it by reverting my focus on my physical brain. I also had feelings of physical discomfort where I felt my body 'cranking up' like an old car, it felt like my blood had stopped flowing for a while and it had to restart flowing again once I was back in my body. It was actually borderline painful. Also my eyesight was very weak for a minute or so and I had to adjust my vision. My immediate vision after I came back was very hollow and almost black and white, like an old TV. My physical reality didn't feel like the real reality, it felt like a hologram. I heard my parents in the other room and they didn't feel like my parents. None of this earthly existence felt real whatsoever.

Since then I've been trying to find out who these beings were. After some research I have concluded they were the Arabic Jinn / ancient Greek Daemons. I believe these two entities are the same type of entity. I believe they potentially could have also been aliens. I have seen YouTube channels finding similarities between Jinn and aliens. They felt very real but not entirely as physical as we are. But they weren't light beings either. They were too physical to be angels or light beings. So kind of in-between beings. This experience completely changed how I view reality. I am now convinced these beings watch us. The common theme I find with both Daemons and Jinn is that they can be either good or evil. The good ones do not let themselves be seen but can guide you through your subconscious. The evil ones are more likely to 'invade your space'. My ones were definitely the good ones.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    To convey the scope of knowledge I have experienced

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Much higher than in my normal earthly life

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes    I just knew I wasn't in my body but don't recall a particular form of this other body

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Awe, beauty, wisdom, peace, humility, feeling protected and appreciated, being one with everything, feeling of ultimate knowing, mutual respect and sort of friendship with the beings

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         Yes    Location 1: a darkened room with nothing much inside, just the beings

Location 2: a vast sea, a cliff and a beautiful starry night sky

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    They greeted me in the darkened room. Dark robes, obscured faces but could feel their facial expressions. Telepathic communication. Haven't met them before but instantly felt good in their presence. They sent me to the higher dimension to receive wisdom. They also had a sense of humor

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    Vision was broader than normal and I had telepathic skills

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          There wasn't really any passing of time as such

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I received ultimate knowledge of everything that has ever been and ever will be, and it was very simple despite it being full of scientific details. It was very humbling and profound and simple

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes    I wasn't able to bring the knowledge back though, I just knew everything that will happen while I was there

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    I ruined it for myself by starting to focus on my physical brain as I tried to fit some of the knowledge into the brain. I could have stayed much longer if I didn't do that

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Yes    I saw that the Truth isn't of any particular religion but it wasn't at odds with the fundamentals of Christianity either. Started to see a broader picture. There's a lot of mathematics in the Truth but that mathematics is full of love.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   It made me want to find out who these beings were. It made me realize this dimension is just a hologram. Organized religion isn't really important. It made me want to seek purpose in things even more

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    Can't really describe it but it made me a different person than I would have been

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes          They seemed a bit baffled by it, I'm not sure what they really thought

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Humility, peace, reassurance, resolution, frustration because I ruined it for myself, confusion about the beings, sense of endless space, detachment from reality

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best: the wisdom and sense of protection from the beings and the received knowledge

Worst: that I couldn't bring the knowledge back

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? The second location felt in a higher dimension than the first location

Experience description 3560:

Experience 3/3 - I witnessed the ascension of my Grandma

On that day I was busy at work in London and was very irritable and agitated all day for no particular reason. A bit like time of the month but way worse. I have even triple checked the dates of the experience against my usual states of mind at particular times of the month and it's inconsistent with the dates. It wasn't hormones.

This mental gloom was made worse by the fact it was a January afternoon 4.30pm and everyone hates January afternoons. I was working in a fancy retail store in central London at the time and the showroom was getting dark. I hated everyone, the customers, my colleagues, the whole world. Suddenly the room lit up and my first thought was 'FINALLY someone thought of switching on the lights!' But this light was different. It was golden, shimmery and it surrounded me completely. I was immersed in it like in some magic golden liquid. And then it hit me. A feeling of absolute love. Love towards everything and everyone everywhere. I can't describe it. It didn't come from my brain. Absolute pure unconditional love. I looked at all the customers and colleagues I hated just moments before and I thought 'I love you. And I love you. And you. And you. I love you all'. I felt one with all of them. I couldn't understand what was happening but I was suddenly just able to feel this love for everyone.

The next thought I had was the Raymond Moody book. I read it when I was maybe 11-12 and a lot of it stayed with me. It suddenly hit me - this is exactly the light and the love they talked about in the book. It's the same thing! This feeling lasted for maybe a minute or two, I can't really say. Everything kinda stood still when I was inside that light. Eventually it disappeared, bit by bit; as if it evaporated. I was just standing there unable to move, trying to understand what just happened. And then I realized no one had turned on any lights in the showroom yet. The room was as gloomy as it was before this golden light appeared.

At 6pm work was finished and I went upstairs to get my things. There were 27 missed calls from my father letting me know that my grandma had died at 5.30pm European time which is 4.30pm UK time.

I am absolutely convinced I have witnessed the ascension to heaven of my grandma and she specifically made the effort to come to me and let me know she was ok because she knew I would be in a very bad shape if she didn't. She raised me as a baby while my mum was at work and we were extremely close. I am convinced if she didn't come to me I probably would have been so traumatized by her death I would very likely need medication. I am also convinced the feeling of absolute love and light I witnessed was the same as people who experience NDE often describe.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    It's hard to express the feeling of Love

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Very high

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Absolute love, oneness and acceptance

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         Yes    Not sure it's a location but I was surrounded by this golden light they often describe in NDEs. It was like being inside a light column

Did you see a light?        Yes    Golden shimmery light in the shape of a column that surrounded me. It was like being in a liquid

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain     The senses weren't much different, just the feeling of love was not from my brain and I saw the light that was obviously only visible to me

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          Time stood still inside that column of light

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    It was clear to me that this feeling of love is what we're all supposed to aspire to and the ultimate purpose of life

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No     

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Yes    It was actually in the same vein as my experience #2 with the beings / jinn / daemons and receiving ultimate knowledge, but made even more intense and purposeful

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I keep thinking about it pretty much every day and it's been vital in making decisions about my life and relationships with others. It's made me more mindful of others. I'm actively trying to recreate the same capacity to love others as that time I was in the Light. Although with varying success because it's hard to do it at the same level as the Light does it

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I keep thinking of that love everyday and it influences my everyday decisions

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes          Their reactions were varied

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Amazement, shock from my grandma's death, a feeling of profound 'something' I can't really describe, partial dissolution of ego, sense of purpose, love as an aspiration, teachings of Jesus coming to life, hope, confirmation of the Divine

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best: the love, the feeling that my grandma came to make sure I was ok and say goodbye