Karma's Experience
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Experience description:
It was the end of January 1991, I can�t recall the exact date, I don�t think it matters. It was the beginnings of my second pregnancy � I had had no idea about it. I went to bed around 11 pm � just as usual. Nothing out of the ordinary seemed to be happening neither the day before nor on that day. Although the night was cold, it was warm and cozy in my room. I went to bed alone, my husband worked shifts and came back after 1 am when he was on a night shift. I fell asleep immediately. I never had problems with insomnia (unless I had some serious problems). Also, I used to remember my dreams � this time I also had a dream but I can remember it was interrupted by
something. I felt the air as I was swooshing past. I had no body but I felt MYSELF. My mind worked normally and my body became something like a "long white dress" � I could use this name now, but then it seemed familiar to me. I was wondering where I was flying and who�d find me dead in my bed. Why had my life ended so unexpectedly? Again I felt fear and started panicking �Please...don�t let me die...I need to go back to my husband and my baby� That space seemed endless. All of a sudden, I stopped and found myself lying flat. Someone appeared � I couldn�t see the person�s face but I saw his chest was in sort of an armor. I felt safer and then two other people appeared. I couldn�t see them but knew they were close. They spoke a language I couldn�t recognize, yet I understood it. One of them looked at me and then at some notes he held. Again, I had no idea what those notes were but somehow I understood all that. I had never experienced it before so I didn�t know how to describe it. I understood :�IT WAS A MISTAKE, SHE MUST GO BACK, IT IS TOO EARLY...� Then I felt I was sucked back with a high speed. It was shorter than before, I saw my body on the bed and my husband coming back from work. Our bedroom was somewhere else in the house and I still could see these two events simultaneously {an amazing experience!}. I saw my husband at the door, then I saw him coming upstairs (where the bedrooms were � ours and our child�s). I saw walking down the hall, passing our bedroom and entering our child�s room. He leaned over the child. At that moment I entered my body, I felt squeezed into it. The pain was terrible but it lasted a fraction of a second. I felt another jerk and then I felt I was breathing again. Back in my body, I felt a terrible pain, as if my limbs went numb. But I felt numb all over my body!! Even nails and eyelashes! I felt yet another jerk...after a while I opened my eyes. The pain was horrible. I couldn�t move. I was cold! As I made a first try to move, everything went back to normal. I got up, fully conscious, not numb anymore! My husband was taking a shower. I went into the bathroom and automatically, as every woman, looked in the mirror. My body was blue. Frighteningly blue. But after a minute, as my husband went out of the shower and I was about to retell my story and show my blue body, I realized I looked healthy again. I retold my experience, but my husband didn�t seem interested. But I am sure of what I experienced. A simple dream never has a clear-cut beginning and ending. I knew it was not a dream. I was fully conscious when I was experiencing it. I had never expected that there existed other levels, more real than this one, and more intelligent that what we have here on earth. Later, I had other out of body experiences but none of them had so much impact on me as this one. Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: No Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate? It is difficult to describe not having experienced anything similar before At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I had never been more aware of myself than during this experience. Was the experience dream like in any way? I know it was not a dream. It was not like a dream! Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: described above What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, loneliness, feeling lost, feeling not prepared for such a situation, I had never heard of such experiences Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No, I heard no sounds. But I understood the thoughts by means of which those �BEINGS� communicated. I couldn�t see those beings, but I knew they were there. Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Uncertain Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Describe: I have dreams in which I can predict what will happen in my life (only my life) Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Describe: I started to read a lot about religions Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? I don�t feel envy/jealousy anymore Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Describe: I get the impression people don�t believe in such experiences What emotions did you experience following your experience? Fear What was the best and worst part of your experience? I understood that dying is very individual. I had never reflected on dying. It is funny but you have to do it on your own. Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? If it happened again, I�d react differently. Maybe I�d be able to find out something. Back then I was unprepared and paralysed by fear. Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I can ignore �problems� Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain Explain: I can�t describe things that are unimaginable. Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire? You�re ok. An experience like this is very individual and it is hard to think of all questions that could be asked.
I realized I could see my body from above, lying in the position I had fallen asleep. My �self� was hovering near the ceiling. I saw the whole room, as if I were 2 meters above. When this fact hit home, I started reflecting how this could be happening. At that time I started to move higher. Faster and faster until I saw the roof of my house, treetops, our empty street. I started panicking. �What is going on�, I thought. "I died! How can this be possible?� I lost control over the situation and started flying even faster. The speed was unimaginably high. I found myself in vacuum, surrounded by
darkness. I could feel I was out of my body which did not belong to me any more. I was extremely frightened and painfully aware it was not a dream.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes