Justin E's Experience
It was Tuesday October 13th, 1998. I woke up at 5 a.m. with a sore throat and decided that I would not be going to school that day. I fell back asleep and began dreaming. I was conscious during my dream and watched it as it unfolded before me. Lucid dreaming is something that I have experienced on several occasions. After the dream passed, I was still conscious. I had never watched an entire dream unfold while remaining conscious but I attributed this to the meditation that I had been practicing for the last three months. After the dream passed, there was darkness but I was still completely conscious. Suddenly, I heard a noise like a low hum and I saw what appeared to be a TV screen. I looked at the screen and saw two people walking on the beach. I felt as if what I was seeing on the screen was actually happening somewhere. It was just this internal knowing that this event was real and it was taking place somewhere.
The image cut off and the TV became staticy and disappeared. The low humming noise that I had heard remained in the background but at this point it became much louder. The humming moved into my head and moved down my body in a rhythm. Over and over this vibration moved through me and it felt similar to being electrocuted but without the pain. Each time it moved through my body, I could feel my body violently shaking (it was not my physical body). The rhythm became faster and faster and my heart started beating wildly. I felt like a massive amount of energy was moving through me and I was afraid of what was happening. I had been meditating for 3 months, attempting to achieve an out-of-body experience but I was not ready for these events that happened; it was very frightening. The rhythm became so fast until it clicked or synchronized with something. At this point, I began floating out of my body and I felt free.
I was an individual point of consciousness without a body, just a speck of consciousness. I saw colored lights flashing all around me. I could see everything in my room around me but my eyes were closed. I could see my clock and my bed and I could even see through the walls of my house. I saw my mom sitting in the living room watching TV and I could see the stars in the sky above me. I was able to see in several directions at once. As I began floating above my body, I started thinking that maybe I was being abducted by aliens because of the flashing lights, the floating, and, the humming noise. I kept trying to tell myself that I was just having an out-body-experience but it was very difficult to quell my fears. I thought about myself being back in my bed and immediately I could feel myself on my bed again.
Next, something very strange happened. My consciousness flickered between two points of consciousness, between lying on my bed and floating above my body toward the ceiling. I actually experienced being conscious from to vantage points at once. This was a mind blowing experience. I could not shake the thought that maybe I was being abducted by aliens and that I needed to wake myself up. I thought about being back down on my bed and the I woke up. After I woke up and sat up in bed, I began crying. The experience was unlike anything that I have ever experienced before. It completely changed my perception of everything that I have ever believed.
Before the experience, I was a hardcore Christian but now, I knew that there was
so much more "out there" than what church had been teaching me. During my
experience, I was more conscious that I usually am during my waking life. This
was like a super consciousness as if I was waking up to the real life and when I
came back to my body, I was falling into the dream that I know as waking life.
Either way, the event changed me profoundly me. I cried for about 5 minutes
feeling both afraid but excited. After the experience, I felt very alienated
for several weeks. I felt that I had a piece of knowledge that maybe I was not
supposed to have. It was a lot to process. I did feel that I could relate with
many people in my daily life because they had not had this experience and they
didn't understand just how real the spiritual realm and the soul was. I
attempted to talk about my experience to others but kept getting unwanted
negative reactions. Some people said I was dreaming, others laughed at me, and
some genuinely listened but no one really understood, not even my youth-pastor.
After some time, I just quit telling people about my experience but change that
has resulted from it has impacted me greatly. I know that there is more that
the physical world. I know that I am not my body but that it is just a vessel
for consciousness and I have no fear of death.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes Specific sensations that were felt are difficult to describe.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? More conscious that ordinary, as if I had awoken from a dream.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, the physical life seemed more like a dream when I came back to my body.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I was an individual speck of consciousness, a point of light. There was light emanating from everywhere and I could see in the dark. I did not see my body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, Joy, Excitement.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I heard a humming noise. A loud vibration. I just remember being scared, not really knowing what was happening.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes I was an individual speck of light. I saw colored lights flashing all around me and everything seemed to be brighter than normal. It was nighttime but I could see.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes
I saw my mom watching TV in the living room (through the walls of my room.)
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No response
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes My vision was much different. I could see in several directions at once. I could see through walls.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I realized that there is more than just the physical world and it exists right here, much closer than we realize. We are an integral part of it. I realized that I am more than my body, I have a spirit and my body is a vessel for the spirit to utilize in the physical world. My original idea that when you die you go to either heaven or hell had to be reconstructed... even my faith in Jesus and the bible. I realize that there is much more "out there" than what they teach about in church. Everything is not so black and white.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes I have become aware of future events in other out-of-body experiences I have had since then.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I've had visions that have come true and felt a presence that has guided
me (avoided crashing in a car, etc.)
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I had to rethink my belief in Christianity and my belief about the afterlife.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I relate to people on the basis that they have a spiritual component within them that needs to be nurtured. I realize that they have a spiritual need to be loved and I feel that it is my mission/purpose to be loving in any way that I can. I am studying to be a counselor.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Mostly skeptical. Some believed me and attempted to bring on these experiences themselves. Some said that I was dabbling with the occult.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Joy, alienation, excitement, catharsis.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part of the experience was breaking free of my physical body and experience the truer or more refined part of myself. I realized that this other part of myself was "the real me", and that I wasn't my body. I felt very free and liberated and felt as if I was capable of anything.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Nothing with medication or substance but I have had several other out-of-body experiences and visions.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes