was sat in bed with my husband and was generally talking about life. I said to
him 'I wonder why I'm here'
(Meaning I wonder what is my mission being aware that I must have a soul
purpose) I changed perception instantly and wasn't even aware I was sat in my
bed..But had a feeling of turning my awareness to the left, I knew it was the
void..It was totally black, I wasn't frightened..In this I felt I was everything
and because I was everything I didn't need to be anything, and I knew everything
and because I knew everything I didn't need to know anything, so was in a state
of being. No desire
do or be anything, it was bliss or fear it was just beingness and I didn't have
the desire to do or be anything other than exist. Then I knew there was a energy
in the void that came to me from the right (in front) I felt my spiritual eyes
open and even though I could only see darkness I knew there was a presence
there. Telepathically I was told 'I have a job for you' I knew instantly what it
was for and it was for the children and was here on earth instantly, just as
quick as going into this experience. I think I went into a past time thing
experiencing what I was doing before coming here. I sometimes want to go back to
just being when I feel depressed about life as it was a natural state of being.
I wasn't at all in need or desire, which as puzzled me to think back, then why
did another energy come and ask me to come here? If I knew everything, why did I
only know just before the other energy came to ask me? The fear based side of me
has thought, what if some higher more knowing entity knows how to keep me in a
state of feeling knowing and being everything so I don't have the desire to
move? Maybe this is a human thought.
have had a few other experiences seeing past lives etc. I've also seen beehive
shaped grids and in between each grid is a different time, I didn't go into them
when I saw them as I was concerned I'd not be able to come back to this time
this experience may not be exactly what your looking for, but wanted to share it
can happen without dying. I cannot do it at will, I do feel the experience was
allowed by my soul to help me in this life.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain It was as if I had no human body.
I'd left the perception of having a human body
What emotions did you feel during
beingness, maybe the closest is relief but there wasn't even any feelings..think
it was a relief from being human
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
no it was
silent and the voice was silent (telepathic)
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Did you see a light?
Did you meet or see any other
I couldn't see the being, I would say it was
energy within the void and it felt male but not in the sense of sexual parts,
maybe force seemed male.
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes That I came here for the
children..I didn't question what I was asked to do, instantly came to earth.
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
I wasn't aware of a human body, I was
everything and knew everything but because of this I didn't need to do or ask or
think, just was.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes There was no time, there was more
void that I knew around me but was everything even though I could sense and see
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
In a state of all knowing you don't
enquire, why would you, you know everything and in a state of all being, you
don't want to be anything. Which is an odd dilemma for me to think about this in
a human life. So why all this? This is the baffling thing for me looking back at
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I'm unsure from human mind I feel
that the state of being everything and knowing everything made me not enquire
while in the experience.
Did you become aware of future
Uncertain Not exact events, just know reason
for being here and its for the children, other than this I don't know.
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Uncertain I didn't not agree, just instantly
went when asked, my going was the yes, there was no need for a yes in words.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
I've had several experiences, this is the only one in the void. Had visions
of other lives during childhood (one with St Francis and I knew I loved him but
couldn't tell him) and another seeing me a girl with
two boys sat next to me and being taught by an old man with what I thought was a
long piece of paper) later through help of a psychic found I was being taught
how to paint and name Artemisia Gentileschi was found by this psychic and the
odd thing is, my birth name is the same as Artemisia's two surviving brothers,
Julio and Francesco and my birth name Julie-Ann Frances. I think they could be
suitcase lives as in Michael Newton shares but don't know. I've had a lion being
attach to my belly button about 5 years old. I know you might think I'm some
kind of quack, there's so many experiences that don't all come together..I'm
hoping my soul will show me one day, or that my full memory will happen. Working
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain Although the experience was
eye opening it as brought me both awe and confusion
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I don't like mixing with the rat
race as it can be described. I'm sometimes considered weird and sometime people
think I'm making these events up, but I'm not. I do share them in the hope it
will help others and also trying to find answers also and maybe others who've
had similar experiences. TBH I think I've become addicted to NDE stories
afterwards as they help me feel like home.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Have you shared this experience
Yes Some think I'm making it up, one
has remarked your strange but a safe strange. Some have said they have seen
ghosts so can be open minded.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
I go through
depression sometimes feeling I've had little bits of knowings, like a jigsaw but
many pieces missing. other times I'm really happy. it's hard to live life
knowing there's more, it's not very often I turn off and not stop searching and
just be human.
What was the best and worst part of
happy having the experience but its hard knowing not being able to go back at
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
Overall it was
a good thing but I the state of beingness made me not
do anything other than accept.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Uncertain I've never gone back to the void
but had other experiences