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Julie-Ann BL NDE-Like

Experience description:   

I was sat in bed with my husband and was generally talking about life. I said to him 'I wonder why I'm here'

(Meaning I wonder what is my mission being aware that I must have a soul purpose) I changed perception instantly and wasn't even aware I was sat in my bed..But had a feeling of turning my awareness to the left, I knew it was the void..It was totally black, I wasn't frightened..In this I felt I was everything and because I was everything I didn't need to be anything, and I knew everything and because I knew everything I didn't need to know anything, so was in a state of being. No desire

to do or be anything, it was bliss or fear it was just beingness and I didn't have the desire to do or be anything other than exist. Then I knew there was a energy in the void that came to me from the right (in front) I felt my spiritual eyes open and even though I could only see darkness I knew there was a presence there. Telepathically I was told 'I have a job for you' I knew instantly what it was for and it was for the children and was here on earth instantly, just as quick as going into this experience. I think I went into a past time thing experiencing what I was doing before coming here. I sometimes want to go back to just being when I feel depressed about life as it was a natural state of being. I wasn't at all in need or desire, which as puzzled me to think back, then why did another energy come and ask me to come here? If I knew everything, why did I only know just before the other energy came to ask me? The fear based side of me has thought, what if some higher more knowing entity knows how to keep me in a state of feeling knowing and being everything so I don't have the desire to move? Maybe this is a human thought.

I have had a few other experiences seeing past lives etc. I've also seen beehive shaped grids and in between each grid is a different time, I didn't go into them when I saw them as I was concerned I'd not be able to come back to this time frame.

Maybe this experience may not be exactly what your looking for, but wanted to share it can happen without dying. I cannot do it at will, I do feel the experience was allowed by my soul to help me in this life.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No Response          

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?        No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?       No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    totally alert

Was the experience dream like in any way? no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         Uncertain     It was as if I had no human body. I'd left the perception of having a human body

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           It was beingness, maybe the closest is relief but there wasn't even any feelings..think it was a relief from being human

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         no it was silent and the voice was silent (telepathic)

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?           No     

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I couldn't see the being, I would say it was energy within the void and it felt male but not in the sense of sexual parts, maybe force seemed male.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?    No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        Yes    That I came here for the children..I didn't question what I was asked to do, instantly came to earth.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?  Yes    I wasn't aware of a human body, I was everything and knew everything but because of this I didn't need to do or ask or think, just was.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Yes    There was no time, there was more void that I knew around me but was everything even though I could sense and see the void

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           Yes    In a state of all knowing you don't enquire, why would you, you know everything and in a state of all being, you don't want to be anything. Which is an odd dilemma for me to think about this in a human life. So why all this? This is the baffling thing for me looking back at the experience.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?              Uncertain     I'm unsure from human mind I feel that the state of being everything and knowing everything made me not enquire while in the experience.

Did you become aware of future events?           Uncertain     Not exact events, just know reason for being here and its for the children, other than this I don't know.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     Uncertain     I didn't not agree, just instantly went when asked, my going was the yes, there was no need for a yes in words.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?        Uncertain           I've had several experiences, this is the only one in the void. Had visions of other lives during childhood (one with St Francis and I knew I loved him but couldn't tell him) and another seeing me a girl with two boys sat next to me and being taught by an old man with what I thought was a long piece of paper) later through help of a psychic found I was being taught how to paint and name Artemisia Gentileschi was found by this psychic and the odd thing is, my birth name is the same as Artemisia's two surviving brothers, Julio and Francesco and my birth name Julie-Ann Frances. I think they could be suitcase lives as in Michael Newton shares but don't know. I've had a lion being attach to my belly button about 5 years old. I know you might think I'm some kind of quack, there's so many experiences that don't all come together..I'm hoping my soul will show me one day, or that my full memory will happen. Working on meditation.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?         Uncertain           Although the experience was eye opening it as brought me both awe and confusion

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?    I don't like mixing with the rat race as it can be described. I'm sometimes considered weird and sometime people think I'm making these events up, but I'm not. I do share them in the hope it will help others and also trying to find answers also and maybe others who've had similar experiences. TBH I think I've become addicted to NDE stories afterwards as they help me feel like home.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes   

Have you shared this experience with others?           Yes    Some think I'm making it up, one has remarked your strange but a safe strange. Some have said they have seen ghosts so can be open minded.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? I go through depression sometimes feeling I've had little bits of knowings, like a jigsaw but many pieces missing. other times I'm really happy. it's hard to live life knowing there's more, it's not very often I turn off and not stop searching and just be human.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? beingness and happy having the experience but its hard knowing not being able to go back at will myself.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?      Overall it was a good thing but I the state of beingness made me not do anything other than accept.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?           Uncertain     I've never gone back to the void but had other experiences