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Experience description 3290:

This happened on numerous occasions over a period of more than 2 years. As a child of around 7 years old I would have been put to bed at night and be unable to go straight to sleep so I would amuse myself by watching the glowing white sparks that filled the air around me in the semi dearness. There were hundreds of thousands of them spinning and flickering about 12 inches away from my body. They would be moving either from my feet up towards my head (then over my head and down my back - I could not see them doing that but knew they were behind and underneath me). I could easily make them change direction just by thinking and send them the other way. I didn't feel frightened or excited just happily amused. I didn't question what they were, I think I thought everyone could do it. At this point if I wanted to I could leave my body and float to the far right hand corner ceiling of my bedroom. This was a decision I would make depending on how I felt that evening as I found this a bit frightening. If I wanted to do it I would look at the corner until it 'gave way'. It would suddenly go from looking normal to looking like it was many miles away then I 'knew' I could go there. I would next just find myself floating up in that corner of the room and from there it was very dark but I could 'look out' across a view into somewhere else. What I would see was a kind of 'sea' ahead and below me that filled the whole horizon. It was a dark sepia coloured world. The 'sea' was not water. It was made of something very thick and barely moving. But it had swells in it like waves, up and down but not breaking waves. I knew I wanted it to be 'smooth' and that is why I was looking, I was checking it. If it was smooth I was happy. But sometimes it was 'choppy' with peaks and troughs like proper waves. If I saw it like this all 'rough' I was unhappy and would be agitated all the next day. I think it was more often smooth. I did not tell anyone about all of this other than my mother who told me I was not to be so silly. I eventually stopped doing it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      Before sleep at night.

            Was the experience dream like in any way? No I felt awake.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes    I had no form.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Curiosity, slight apprehension.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No sound.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    My vision would change just before the experience so that the real world did not look 'right' any more.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes    Very much so. It felt different, freer and I knew it was not the real world. But I knew I could not go into it only view it from where I was. I did not want to go into it.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes    I think I was seeing it from a boundary, almost like looking through a window, but there were no structures. I thought the sea would swallow me up if I went any closer.

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    When I had seen enough I would just suddenly find myself back in bed and either be feeling happy and soothed or unhappy and agitated.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes    I think looking back I was a highly sensitive child who easily sensed a lot of other people's emotions during this period. I knew what people were thinking and would be reacting to that so sometimes I did not like people for no apparent reason. I would get into trouble for that from my mum.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I buried the experience as I grew up realising others did not share it. I was rather scared by it. I wanted to fit in with others so did not talk about it. I was a friendly but slightly introverted child with 3 siblings, happy with my own company. My mother was very discouraging of my experiences to the point of telling me I had to be more like everyone else otherwise I would end up in an asylum. I spent the next 30 years fitting in, trying to please others in the service industry. I was happy enough.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    Only in my later adult life. My close relationships, boyfriends, husband. Some were more receptive than others. I was seeking acceptance and approval and I have it. I do not think I influence others though and have not sought to do so.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Happiness, relief, unhappiness, uneasiness.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best was playing with the sparks. Worst was seeing a choppy sea.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I have begun to be able to see the sparks again. I haven't been to see the sepia sea again, but I can remember it so well and I have read extensively in more recent years about quantum physics and vibration, unified field theory, the void etc and I wonder now if that is what I saw in some way.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes    Very thorough questions that addressed everything I wanted to say and made me think about my emotions. I felt quite tearful writing this.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       None thanks.

Experience description 3291:

I had a joint experience outside of my body with my partner at the climax of a long slow intense bout of lovemaking. This was not an orgasm. This was something else outside of my experience and understanding before or since. It has never happened to me again with that partner or any other. There was a flash of light and I was suddenly aware of spinning quite slowly but rising up very fast into a sky of dazzling colors. My partner was with me and we were holding on to each other though I don't remember seeing our bodies as such, we were misty, but I knew it was him. The whirling/spinning was not unpleasant it was the upward rising that was almost unbearable. I briefly got used to it enough to look down and was frightened at how high we were. There was a landscape below us glimpsed through veils of clouds that looked like deep green hills. I tried to speak to say 'don't let go' but felt drowned out by sound. It was a beautiful constant roar. The colors around us were changing to soft blues and whites and merging not dazzling any more. I felt safe and held literally as one with him and everything around us and understood it was love holding us there. Then everything stopped moving. Suddenly we were plummeting back down, a brief constricted darkness and we were back on the bed on our knees facing each other. There followed exclamations from us both, he said 'what was that, where did we go?' and I immediately knew it was a shared experience. He burst into tears, I was shell-shocked. We both began talking at once finishing each others sentences about what had happened. Then an emotional outpouring followed on love and death and dreams and fears from him (we had not long met) with me offering comfort. He had never experienced anything like this before either. We fell in love that morning and made each other promises which I feel are relevant (we continued to have a relationship that spanned the next 10 years, but sadly we could not be permanently together and eventually lost touch) to another experience that happened to me at the time of his death 4 years ago. I have come to believe that the experiences are linked by something greater than our earthly selves and have submitted a separate account for that.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    Completely outside the realm of my experience before or since. Uncertain what it was, only recently come across what constitutes a potential OBE

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      Completely conscious.

            Was the experience dream like in any way? No I was fully aware.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes    I had no visible form except for a mistiness that I knew was me.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Overwhelming love, wonder, exhilaration, some fear immediately wiped out, awe.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         Yes a whooshing roaring that was all around and perhaps in me.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   No

Did you see a light?        Yes    Surrounded by light and colors of the rainbow too dazzling to watch.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I was with my partner. We were entwined like pieces of mist. I tried to speak but couldn't hear above the noise. I don't think we communicated with each other.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    Eyes all too dazzling to take in. Ears roaring sound. Touch no. Taste no. Smell no.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes    Yes this was not the real world, I/we were flying free. No sense of time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    That this was all that mattered. This was love. It felt very important to know that. It felt complete like something had been done right, as if the universe was pleased.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes    Stopped rising any higher. I didn't see a boundary above though. A sense of 'enough'.

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes    A special link between me and my partner that we both acknowledged. Although we did not understand what had happened we knew it was extraordinary. It was a secret between us. He began calling me his angel that morning and ever after that unbeknownst to me I seemed to often turn up/contact him in a crisis. It was almost a joke between us but he was adamant and was proved right in the end. That is another experience detailed separately but linked to this.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    Yes I believe there is magic in the world.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   All other relationships are measured against this one, but I have never found the same connection with anyone else. My next relationship was affected by this experience as I was completely emotionally open and trusting and allowed someone to access and drain me who did not truly love me. I was close to suicide after that for the only time ever in my life.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    Only in regards to the partner I shared it with. No one else knows about it as I'm conscious it would make them feel less loved by me. So it's a secret but it opened my eyes to seeing the magic around us.

Have you shared this experience with others?       No

What emotions did you experience following your experience?          Joy, tenderness, love.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The whirling together and realizing afterwards that it was shared. The worst part was briefly thinking I would fall.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I remember it vividly even though it was 29 years ago, it's like the whole memory is outlined in instagram chrome or something.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes    They allowed me to explore all aspects of it and relive the emotions.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       None thanks.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 3292:

My shock and grief exploded into incomprehension and awe and my mind slid away taking me with it. All the long buried memories came back like a cascade of sweetness in the air around me, I felt lifted up to a higher plane of existence, edified. I felt like I was receiving great love, tenderness on a massive scale and I instantly understood that this was all that matters. The feeling built until it burst out of me like an explosion or bolt of lightening or being electrified. I felt like I was rising up and spreading out across a vast distance. It left me feeling 'blessed' and this feeling of elevation lasted for about 2 months. It was beautiful.

There is a context to the experience described below.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      I was watching TV but I felt like I was being lifted out of myself.

            Was the experience dream like in any way? No it was a quick jolting experience then it was gone.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain     I was not aware of my body in any way, I did not notice a separation, did not see any other form of myself, but my mind felt lifted, elevated. Then it felt like it exploded, a big soft explosion. I liken it to a supernova, but of consciousness.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         An instant comprehension that filled me with joy.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No sound heard more felt.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Uncertain     He may have been there I sensed a sweetness swirling around me. Love and memories were communicated.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    I was scenting/tasting the sweetness with heightened perception. I didn't see, hear, touch anything.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes          Expanded space, like an explosion, no sense of time experienced.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I felt lit up, it was like a flash. Like something had gone through me. I knew everything was 'right' in the Universe and I accepted it. Afterwards I felt like I had been 'switched on' and that feeling has never gone away.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes    I now have a level of sensitivity/perception I did not have before. I notice synchronicities happening around me, beauty, in nature, in people, in animals, everything everywhere. I feel compassion for any of those things that are suffering in any way. I feel a massive need to help. I can't/don't watch the news any more as manmade suffering devastates me.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    I am not frightened of dying any more. I know for sure we continue on. I know we have existed forever and all life is connected. I know I am good enough, we all are. We are meant to be enjoying ourselves here, not suffering or struggling, those are manmade constructs that are unnecessary. Our existence here is all about love. As we learn about love we enrich ourselves and in so doing we enrich our greater selves and 'all that is' in a feedback loop that expands the universe into more complexity. It is evolving through us.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I let my life unfold each day making decisions from a place of love not fear. I feel liberated from cultural beliefs and patterns and do my own thing. I uncharacteristically challenge authority and the status quo and am outspoken. I've become very creative, surrounding myself with beauty, and even write poetry. I am strongly drawn to help to raise the collective consciousness of the physical world and have recently become a Sound/Vibrational Therapist.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    Yes It has revealed my life purpose; to encourage a change in our culture promoting discussion about death and dying and what it is to be human. To be fully open to receiving and giving love whilst breathing the magic into the everyday.

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    The way I behave seems to attract others to me and we often end up having deep discussions about much of the above. I think I'm now seen as a bit unworldly which is fair enough. I don't refer to my experience specifically as it's too complicated to explain the context etc but everything I do radiates from that. I am the happiest I have ever been but also live in the grief of knowing that we create so much unnecessary misery. I do come across like minded people regularly where its an easier thing to share but these tend to be new friends and acquaintances not old friends. I have deliberately lost touch with some old friends.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Some moments of sheer rapture, I felt loved by him again. I was also bewildered and overwhelmed.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     It all happened so fast difficult to separate out, the best part was the intensity of love coming at me and the knowing it hadn't ever stopped, there was no worst part.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? The context of the loss that led up to the experience is relevant. The unlikeliest of this coincidence leads me to believe it was designed, however unknowingly, by ourselves. The love of my life had died unexpectedly. Our relationship had ended over 10 years previously and we were no longer in touch. I was now married and the memories of our old relationship were not something I dwelt on, they were buried deep in my heart but I had never stopped loving him. I was devastated at the news of his sudden death. This was at his home hundreds of miles away from where I now lived, and hundreds of miles away from where we had known each other. At this time I was in the final week of my training as Funeral Celebrant. I had embarked on this training after a personal catastrophe had caused my husband and I to lose our business. I had been forced to re evaluate my life path. We were living near Glastonbury, a place of ancient spiritual pilgrimage and it was here that I was nurtured and discovered a deep spiritual awakening which opened up the opportunity to become a Funeral Celebrant. I stress this was not a plan it was an unfolding of my life with few expectations. My training was conducted by forward thinking funeral directors at their premises some 60 miles away from my home. I was in exactly the final week, completing my last module when he died. I was trying to hide the extent of my grief from people who knew me as they did not know I knew him or what we had been to eachother. Our relationship had spanned several years but had been an affair though we had never been found out, no one had been hurt, except us. We had always known we shared a special bond even what might have been a joint OBE (described separately) where we had made promises to never let each other go, be there for each other forever, his angel he called me after that experience. I know I felt him the day he died too. He had died at home in London and I knew I would not be welcome at his funeral so sadly resigned myself to grieving from afar. During the next 10 days I finished my last module and took it to my trainers thinking it would be a comfort for me to be around people who were used to death. His funeral was held 3 days later. That night there was footage of his funeral on the news (he was fairly well known) and there leading the coffin was the funeral director, my trainer, it was them who were burying him. His was the body that had been lying in the cold room at the training centre when I was there earlier in the week. What's more I found out from them later that no one had come to see him, none of his family, he was left all alone. Except for me, I was there, but tragically I didn't know he was. We were both there as we had promised all those years ago. So trust love, it is never wasted, it is relentlessly patterning the arc of our lives.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes    I think so. I have not tried to explain what happened before, never thought I could get it across, the vast emotional content and sense of purpose behind it.