Judy E's Experience

Experience description:   

Taken to hospital with acute asthmatic attack, put into ICU and attached to many monitoring devices which showed very high heart rate and very shallow breathing.  I could not lay down so the nurse (at my request) brought tray to my bedside and with a pillow on top of tray I leaned forward onto tray and closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on staying alive. I was past the wheezing stage and into breathing so shallow there was no sound.  I realized that fear of death could be just the thought that would send me over the edge so I had to distract myself.  Having dated a hypnotherapist once, I tried using hypnotherapy by starting with my toes and working my way up my body. A friend arrived at the hospital and, of course, could not be allowed into ICU so he sent a note. 

When the nurse brought the note, I couldn't open my eyes and that was when I realized I had achieved some level of hypnotherapy so, somehow I asked her to read it (I couldn't talk very well).  He was very Christian and it said something about "there is no condemnation for those who believe in the Lord, Jesus Christ".  At that point, I was no longer aware of the room, the nurse or anything related to the hospital...my awareness shifted. I was seeing pictures of Jesus that I loved as a child, such as Jesus knocking at the door and children gathered around Jesus. I immediately questioned why I was seeing this since I no longer considered myself a Christian. As fast as I had the thought, the answer was in my head..."this was to comfort me". The pictures of Jesus disappeared and a voice started talking to me....a voice as physical and real as any.  The odd thing was that the voice was my own and I was being told that I would be okay and that it was the journey or process that was important. The next moment I was inside of a light and felt the most tremendous love. I felt as if there was nothing I could ever do to have that love taken from me. One way I have described it is, I crawled inside of God and could now feel how God felt about me.  I do not know how long this all took, but suddenly I was aware of my surroundings once again, but could now breath. 

I remember laying down and hugging my pillow and feeling so appreciative of the fact I could lay down and rest and breath. The experience was so exciting to me that I wanted to tell everyone who came near. When I told my doctor (first person near my bed), he said his mother had a similar experience. Another friend who visited soon after told me for the first time that she had had a similar experience many years before but had not mentioned to many people.  Another young girl who was living with me temporarily (after hearing my story) told me her own near death experience which she had never told a soul because she was afraid they would think she was crazy.  All of these accounts lead me to believe my experience wasn't as unusual as one might think. It is there for all of us...the comfort and love.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Serious asthmatic situation that had been coming on for a while.  Previous to event, I had not been able to lie down for about a week. I don't remember how I got to the hospital.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes     The feeling of love was unlike anything in this dimension or anything I had known before, therefore words to express felt like not enough.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    In the light experiencing the love.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?     More consciousness and alertness than normal            I would not have described it as more conscious and alert. The feeling was greater than any experienced in this 3-D, duality awareness.

Did your vision during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any way, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?            Yes     Even though there was a light, it was more feeling than visual.

Did you have any visual impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?            No      

Did your hearing during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any way, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you have any hearing impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?            No      

Did you experience consciousness / awareness apart from your physical / earthly body?            Yes     I was not aware of my physical body during the experience.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring at a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified really happened or was real?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified did not really happen or was not real?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical body that were located far beyond any possible physical sensory awareness of your physical / earthly body?            No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            LOVE and comfort

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?            No      

Did you see an unearthly light?            Yes    

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?            Yes     Just pictures of Jesus. Not him walking and talking to me.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth, but whose earthly lives had ended prior to the time of your experience (they were deceased)?            No      

Did you encounter or become aware of any earthly beings who were alive at the time of your experience (they were not deceased)?            No      

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence?           my voice talked to me in the beginning of the experience.

Did you become aware of past events in your life?            No      

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?          Didn't feel like "a place" existed.

Did time seem to speed up?       Hard to tell.  There was a sequence to the experience.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?            During the experience, I was not aware of "a universe" or "others".

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?            Yes     I just knew it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is no continued existence after earthly life (“no life after death”)?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does exist?            Yes     The light and love felt like God or supreme being.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does not exist?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?
            Yes     That is hard to answer since you may be referring to past lives.  It felt like it just was and could never be anything else.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did not have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there exists a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?            Uncertain      The light was so "all encompassing", but the love felt directed to me.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there does not exist a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?            Yes