Judy E's Experience
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Experience description:

Taken to hospital with acute asthmatic attack, put into ICU and attached to many monitoring devices which showed very high heart rate and very shallow breathing.  I could not lay down so the nurse (at my request) brought tray to my bedside and with a pillow on top of tray I leaned forward onto tray and closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on staying alive. I was past the wheezing stage and into breathing so shallow there was no sound.  I realized that fear of death could be just the thought that would send me over the edge so I had to distract myself.  Having dated a hypnotherapist once, I tried using hypnotherapy by starting with my toes and working my way up my body. A friend arrived at the hospital and, of course, could not be allowed into ICU so he sent a note. 

When the nurse brought the note, I couldn't open my eyes and that was when I realized I had achieved some level of hypnotherapy so, somehow I asked her to read it (I couldn't talk very well).  He was very Christian and it said something about "there is no condemnation for those who believe in the Lord, Jesus Christ".  At that point, I was no longer aware of the room, the nurse or anything related to the hospital...my awareness shifted. I was seeing pictures of Jesus that I loved as a child, such as Jesus knocking at the door and children gathered around Jesus. I immediately questioned why I was seeing this since I no longer considered myself a Christian. As fast as I had the thought, the answer was in my head..."this was to comfort me". The pictures of Jesus disappeared and a voice started talking to me....a voice as physical and real as any.  The odd thing was that the voice was my own and I was being told that I would be okay and that it was the journey or process that was important. The next moment I was inside of a light and felt the most tremendous love. I felt as if there was nothing I could ever do to have that love taken from me. One way I have described it is, I crawled inside of God and could now feel how God felt about me.  I do not know how long this all took, but suddenly I was aware of my surroundings once again, but could now breath. 

I remember laying down and hugging my pillow and feeling so appreciative of the fact I could lay down and rest and breath. The experience was so exciting to me that I wanted to tell everyone who came near. When I told my doctor (first person near my bed), he said his mother had a similar experience. Another friend who visited soon after told me for the first time that she had had a similar experience many years before but had not mentioned to many people.  Another young girl who was living with me temporarily (after hearing my story) told me her own near death experience which she had never told a soul because she was afraid they would think she was crazy.  All of these accounts lead me to believe my experience wasn't as unusual as one might think. It is there for all of us...the comfort and love.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Serious asthmatic situation that had been coming on for a while.  Previous to event, I had not been able to lie down for about a week. I don't remember how I got to the hospital.

 Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes     The feeling of love was unlike anything in this dimension or anything I had known before, therefore words to express felt like not enough.

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    In the light experiencing the love.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?     More consciousness and alertness than normal            I would not have described it as more conscious and alert. The feeling was greater than any experienced in this 3-D, duality awareness.

 Did your vision during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any way, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?            Yes     Even though there was a light, it was more feeling than visual.

 Did you have any visual impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?            No      

Did your hearing during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any way, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you have any hearing impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?            No      

Did you experience consciousness / awareness apart from your physical / earthly body?            Yes     I was not aware of my physical body during the experience.

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring at a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified really happened or was real?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified did not really happen or was not real?            No      

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical body that were located far beyond any possible physical sensory awareness of your physical / earthly body?            No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            LOVE and comfort

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel?            No      

Did you see an unearthly light?            Yes    

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?            Yes     Just pictures of Jesus. Not him walking and talking to me.

 Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth, but whose earthly lives had ended prior to the time of your experience (they were deceased)?            No      

Did you encounter or become aware of any earthly beings who were alive at the time of your experience (they were not deceased)?            No      

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence?           my voice talked to me in the beginning of the experience.

 Did you become aware of past events in your life?            No      

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?          Didn't feel like "a place" existed.

Did time seem to speed up?       Hard to tell.  There was a sequence to the experience.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?            During the experience, I was not aware of "a universe" or "others".

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?            Yes     I just knew it.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is no continued existence after earthly life (�no life after death�)?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does exist?            Yes     The light and love felt like God or supreme being.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does not exist?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?
            Yes     That is hard to answer since you may be referring to past lives.  It felt like it just was and could never be anything else.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did not have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there exists a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?            Uncertain      The light was so "all encompassing", but the love felt directed to me.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there does not exist a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?            Yes    

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?            No      

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?            Yes     Love like nothing I have ever experienced. Loving my children is the closest, but still isn't quite there.

 During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?            Yes     I am no more special than anyone else...the "love just is". Your belief doesn't matter, the love won't change.

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?            No      

What occurred during your experience included:            Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience               I had come to believe in a supreme being, but what that was and how it looked, I wasn't sure. I also believed incarnation could be true.

 How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?            I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience                  I have shared the story enough where that could be an influence on the remembrance.

 Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   More tolerant of the journey of others. Feel more oneness. Long for another level of awareness.

 Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?            Yes     More tolerant of the journey of others.

 Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?            No      

Are there one or several parts of the experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?  The experience of unconditional LOVE

 Have you ever shared this experience with others?            Yes     The minute someone came near my bed.  I was so elated, I just wanted to talk about it.  I don't know if others have been influenced.  I guess the young girl who lived with me and finally told her own story for the first time and cried with a sense of relief.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?            Yes     I was in a stage of my life (actually had been for many years) where I read many accounts of anything related to spiritual experiences. My experience was different than many I had read or heard about.  I never heard about anyone hearing their voice and I would have expected a tunnel going toward the light and I also thought seeing the pictures of Jesus was unexpected.

 What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It felt very real, couldn't have been more real.  Looking back, it feels almost more real than some of my memories of this awareness.

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:            Experience was definitely real    There is a "knowing" that comes with life and ones experiences that can't be explained or given to another. This "knowing" increases continually.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I am less of a victim in relationships and try to see my part in all that "I create".

 Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No      

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?            Uncertain      It's hard to know if my subsequent experiences are related to "the experience" or just living and learning.

 Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?        Can't think of anything.  This was very thorough.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?            Yes     As much as words can...which is very limited.

 What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?        Just help others to know there is nothing to be afraid of.  You are your own worst enemy and even that won't stop the love that is there for you. I also think some of the varying details related in all our experiences are influenced by our beliefs to start with, but the love that is real just is and always will be. Everyone will experience the love eventually.

 Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    That's a BIG question and would take more thought than I have time for now. You've done a good job.