John B's Experience
I have had many inexplicable experiences over this lifetime so far and now seem to be opening again to some of these experiences.
To catalogue them all would take many hours of writing so I will keep it brief and describe a few selected experiences.
At a pre school age I awoke in my bedroom and looked up. In the corner of my room high up I could see what I can only try to describe. There was no animation to suit in the early fifties and no screens however in today's animations it may be described as an uneven ball of 'energy'. I know energy is not descriptive in itself so I will say, imagine a loosely wound ball of wool, not even but slightly elongated about a couple of feet in diameter. Now imagine that big ball of wool being made of semi transparent fibers and those fibers relative in size to the 2 ft ball as are the strands of a normal sized ball of thick wool. Now give gaps all through the ball as if there are lots of stands which are not actually connected but moving around at a relatively fast pace with gaps between them however all moving as if in a swarm, an unordered but non colliding swarm. It was not bright at all but I could see the top corner of the room behind it so it was semi transparent. I interpreted it as a 'presence' and felt fear so concentrated on pushing it away. I do not recall the time it took for 'it' to no longer be there as my fear and concentration was highly present and my memory was of that event and not how long after I went back to sleep. it was night and late but I do not know what the time was.
That is not my out of body experiences nor seeing some of the things in the future that I later saw in later life or the 'knowing' that came to me of certain events that later happened almost like clockwork.
I wish to make no claims as to any 'abilities'. What has happened to me felt like it was thrust upon me and I continually fought it off.
What follows are a couple of examples of what happened on a regular basis. These occurrences often occurred at night when I was ready to go to sleep however there was a period where I was always cautious of laying down for a rest as it would happen spontaneously.
I do not have chronological data so some of the following may be out of context. Age, about 16. Laying down. Woke to feel my body rigid (this has been verified and other physical phenomena observed by partners sleeping in the same bed) On the top of my head was a feeling like a slightly warm small sponge being squeezed gently on to the top of my head. My memory does not recall if that occurred on my perceived 'coming' or 'going'. (Everything is always questioned by me) I retained an awareness of my body but was floating at a reasonably high level along a corridor of a hospital. Presently I came to a side door opening into an open ward with I think about 4 beds in it. May have been six but they were peripheral only. I seemed to hover to the side of the first bed on the left where a friend was sitting up in bed and the details are not as clear now however he had a broken arm plastered to above the elbow in a sling and if I recall correctly a broken leg with his toes poking out the end. I do not recall the 'returning' to my body with that memory as the significant part was that. I just remembered three other friends (also motor bike riders) were around the bed. to continue, that the next weekend about 4 or 5 days after I actually did visit that scene again but this time in the flesh. Four or five days later the chap in question had a motor bike accident. I am aware of post construction of pre cognizance and studied psychology to try and figure out how these things could be explained. To try and describe my so called out of body experiences I would say what was typical was that I would lay on my back, close my eyes and then would feel that a sensation of energy perhaps like the warm feeling of a hot drink being taken except that the sensation was upwards out through the top of my head and I could not control it. While trying to describe this/these events please understand that it is only an interpretation as I do not have the scientific vernacular to describe events that may have no scientific explanation and yes I am aware of delusional visions etc. I would be somehow aware that I was elsewhere with visions travelling back to my conscious memory yet unable to move my body and it was all I could do to make a tiny sound. On a number of occasions I managed to make a sound (Think a sound that takes the least effort like a moan) to waken my partner on rare occasions and my partners were able to shake me enough to 'break the spell' so to speak. On writing this I now recall that feeling of the warm sponge (as if my spirit was re entering my body but was still connected while away) And again, these words are only one interpretation of what may be an explanation. For many years I fought against these occurrences (I have no idea how many times as I was dealing with a frequent occurrence, not cataloguing the events) I am not a 'psychic' nor have any wish to be classed in any way as a 'seer'. Apart from my ego perhaps enjoying being able to 'see' things and 'into' 'stuff'. Yes I know that stuff is rather nebulous. Examples may be that at school if a question was asked and I did not know the answer (Fear of going to sleep and only going to sleep when exhausted meant late mornings and tiredness and missed school) as I had missed the lesson, the answer would come 'into' my head. Of course I 'could have read it somewhere' etc is always an answer however could I have picked it up from another or others thinking the thoughts and picking it up telepathically? Another of many 'small experiences' was travelling down a road that I often travelled down. It was an open road speed and had only one cross road with stop signs so I had clear road for about three miles. Maybe a half mile from those stop signs I had an urgent desire to slow down from the open road speed to a lot lower speed. The moment I released the accelerator pedal my logic countermanded that and I continued at the regular speed. The feeling to slow down became more and more urgent until I followed it and took my foot off the 'gas' pedal. A few yards / meters in front of me a motor vehicle crossed through the stop signs at high speed. Maybe I heard it coming? But the road leading to the stop sign was not far from a turn off and the car would have been on another road when I first had the feeling to slow down.
The why can be debated so goes in to the memory bank as yet another rather 'odd' occurrence. There are more pre knowledge happenings, some quite precise and not gleaned in out of body experiences. Simply stated and sometimes I was surprised at what I had said as if it came straight from a place that my conscience had no awareness of. Coincidences? I had known my wife for two weeks and introduced her to my Mother and said, I would like you to meet Karen, we are going to marry and she is going to be the mother of our children. (Probably not verbatim) After we had been together for a short while I said to my wife that we were going to have three girls. My three girls are 17, 20 and 21.
I feel that is enough for now. In the present, I find answers come clearly to me if I find a quiet place and I suppose, mediate but not in any of the conventional ways, rather going into 'another space' and finding the answer.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I can not define that.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness All three depending on the situation.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not really applicable as my visions were the same as if I had seen the real event. Unfortunately, I need to be careful as I have had visions so clear in my memory that I can not tell if they are real or imagined. No, not hallucinations or delusions but stuff that I have actually 'seen' and experienced like equipment that I have used (like a blow dryer in toilets) that has not been installed until a week after I have (imagined) I have used it. The challenge is to separate 'fiction' or if you like 'visions of things to come' from reality. If I talked about these things to some people they would of course determine that I was hallucinating. No not using drugs to eliminate that. 'Things' do flow for me and I sometimes know what 'may' happen with such a strong conviction that it seems inevitable that it will happen and 'usually' does. I am also sure that I can fabricate imaginings to please myself in a sort of escape from sometimes mundane everyday life. Best to wear the dress of society and be as one with the crowd.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. That leads me in to a whole different aspect of my life not applicable to the above set of events.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Mixed and changing over the years
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Already described and yes and no questions too specific.
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Uncertain of many things. Definite in my path here and grounded in its observation which is sometimes an anomaly.
Yes, I have passed through a tunnel. One made of
stone and a flat 'floor' not to long and partitioned off. Very similar I suppose
to visiting some sort of crypt which I have never done. Nothing out of what I
would expect if being there 'in the flesh'
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future
Some already described.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Uncertain How would I know if my imagination was the instigator of at least some of my experiences. If it was not for the actual proof being presented to me and others who I had informed of events to come (not under my or their control) then I would not have my logic entertain 'alternative realities'
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes I have described enough already that I feel like sharing.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes Already described
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp Hence not knowing what was constructed and what was not.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events a My life has had many and varied experiences which as time passes, I feel have been to the benefit of my growth as a soul living in a human body and perhaps bonded with it and its functions. I neither believe nor disbelieve in reincarnation. Any absolute belief for me is closing the door of 'anything is possible'
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: 49b. Spiritual life yes. Religious life no.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes My (current?) life's journey has constantly changing beliefs and values. My experiences are no singular or absolute.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Gifts? I fought the happenings for many years. My life felt cursed with the experiences in the early years. I have had so many amazingly wonderful happen to me I feel more blessed now. And no not by and religious or super being but I am open to the idea of being part of a collective consciousness
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, I can move without trauma into a 'special place' that has no words to describe it. There is no definition and I don't know where it exists however if I was asked to try to define it would say that it lay in inner infinity and not outer infinity where I have the notion that many person made deities supposedly exist.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Off and on. Not much if at all lately until now.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes No, I did not and have not. yes, I was in a challenging ongoing situation and could feel my physical presence becoming less in place and would 'easily' slip into another place of peace which I choose to now describe as a place near 'god'. yes that is an anomaly and my 'god' has no face, no definition but for the purpose perhaps conveys a feeling that many will have some understanding of.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely not real Nothing is real...or as it seems. Everything is real if we perceive it that way. How would I know except by the definition of the conditioned response by the majority of society. Do I develop my left brain or my right brain or concentrate in another small area that some say transcends both? (Pineal Gland)
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real My subconscious does not know what is real or not real apart from the filter of my conditioned logic. Yes my experiences have been real. yes my experiences have not been real. I only know that I 'think' I have had those experiences and have not appeared either eccentric or abnormal enough in general society to have my sanity questioned.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I would like to qualify that by saying the above is quite broad as regards your specific OBE criterion. My relationships have changed because I have changed. My reactions have changed significantly. I have learnt or changed or re programmed and find that I no longer 'react' to other peoples range of emotions in a negative way or at least largely so.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No As mentioned your survey is for a specific occurrence which my experiences are not. I came across this site and for whatever reason started writing.