Joey P's Experience

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    After deep depression of breaking up with an ex girlfriend I attempted suicide.  I used huffing air freshener as my method of death.  Using 6 or seven cans it worked.  I felt evilness and a presence in the room I was in.  I stood to run only to have the door slammed on me.  I was terrified.  I sat on the bed and stood back up in anger.  I ran to the living room and acknowledged the presence as the devil.

     Screaming to the ceiling, "Your the devil!  And your in here with me!  My soul belongs to God!  And I'm going to show you!  I then huffed air freshener again.  I felt a chill run from my feet to the top of my head.  At the moment the chill reached the top of my head I heard a voice from behind me.  It said, "No, your soul belongs to me.  Right to the tippy top of your head".

      As the chill reached the top of my head I felt a flick with a "ping" sound.  I looked to my right and saw a figure.  It was dark.  I focused in and saw the face of a terrifying demon.  It had horns twisting out from its forehead.  It had green/black, beat up skin, was hunched over, a human, evil face and snarling scary teeth.  It was strong to the bone.  You would not think of touching it.

     I thought for a moment that it was someone in costume and tried to understand.  It stood and waited for my fear to set in.  I then knew exactly what it was and why it was there.  I turned to run screaming, "No! No! No!"  It was laughing and said, "Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!"  I ran maybe ten feet and didn't know if it grabbed me or if I turned around.  I think I turned around and it was in my face.  It yelled at me, "YOUR SOUL IS MINE"!  I balled on the floor in complete horror looking up in fear.  I couldn't ball up small enough to hide from this thing.  There was no hiding. 

     As it stood over me I remember having third person view.  As well as first person.  I saw it laughing as it shot fire and flame around my body.  I looked up and saw as this fire surrounded me slowly and yet the heat was unbearable.  I was not burned or set fire, only surrounded and tormented.  I had slight recollection of all I've done wrong throughout my life.  It was part of the reason for my punishment. 

     Looking though the fire, I saw the front door to our house.  I focused in as I screamed in complete horror.  The next thing I knew, I was on my feet pulling the door open.  This time, I didn't want to look back.  I ran across the street as fast as I possibly could.  Screaming at the top of my lungs.  I remember thinking, "Where am I running to?  I can't run from the devil".  I made it to a neighbors house and banged on their door.  I was screaming and begging for them to open the door.  They only looked out the window, in fear I assume.  As I came to or the chemicals in my head cleared away, I fell to my knees.  I fell and begged God to forgive me.  I was so thankful and ashamed and aware of what was happening.

     I went back to my house in complete fear and almost in unbelief of what happened.  Looking down at the floor, I saw the empty can of air freshener.  Standing over where I balled up, and for as long as I lived there, I could see the imprint of the demons feet.  I could make them out very well and would get chills or burst into tears when I stared too long.  A grim reminder in the physical sense that yes, this was all, very real.  Joey P.

  One night, as I lay in bed with my at the time girl friend, I received a phone call. I learned how my mother forged a credit card in my name and put me two thousand dollars in the hole. After learning this, I pretty much gave up on love. I soon found fault in my girl friend and broke up with her (Lord I miss her). I walked off a my job of three years in a "throw in the towel" frame of mind. I struggled from job to job for about three months. After talking it out with my former boss, I went back. Only to have him assault me when production wasn't perfect (sheet metal shop).

After these three devastating events, I fled north to Tampa FL. Living with a brother of mine, I was an emotional wreck. I still wanted to throw in my towel. I tried many attempts to commit suicide. Gun in my mouth, pills, then air freshener. I've gotten "high" from air freshener before, but any fool knows, enough of it would kill you. So night after night, can after can, maybe six at a time, I tried and tried. With my brother or land lord in the other rooms Till one day. I came home from work, thought in my head, "I'm alone. Now is the time. Time to do SOMETHING right."

As I started "huffing", my bedroom door swung open very fast. I didn't see it but I felt the air of it on my back. Investigating the door, I figured it was the wind and got back to my destruction. After about three cans, I started to have visuals. Like the knots in my wood dresser would resemble a "wooden person" singing the song on the radio to me. It was enough for me to think, "This is a cool way to go!" I lost track of how many I huffed, but things didn't seem so cool anymore.

I saw things like a miniature demonic arm appearing to come out of the drywall of my room. It crushed something in it's finger tips. I saw this and felt such terror. I tried to run out of my room but the door slammed in my face. I slowly sat back on my bed in fear. Realizing the evilness of the presence I felt, I got very angry. I stomped to my living room and SCREAMED to the ceiling, "You're the f*cking devil! You're the devil and your in here with me! My soul belongs to GOD! And I'll prove it to you!"

So I huffed it again and felt a chill from my feet, go slowly to the top of my head. I heard a voice behind me say, "No, your' soul belongs to me, right to the tippy top of your head." And when the chill reached my head, I felt a flick on my head. It made a "ping" sound. I smiled and looked up to se what flicked me, nothing there. I think the room went a little darker and I looked to my right. There before me, was the most terrifying thing that I could or ever will comprehend. I saw Satan. He was hunched, strong to the bone, very strong. Green, beat up lizard like skin. Horns like a ram coming from his forehead. I screamed, "NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!" I tried to run but he grabbed me from behind, turned me 180 degrees and screamed at me, "YOUR SOUL IS MINE!"

I balled up at his feet screaming in terror. As much as I screamed, his laughter was that much louder, like it was stifling my horror. I felt like a couldn't ball up enough. He, IT, stood over and began to shoot fire down on me. It engulfed me. It didn't burn me but it tormented me, I could smell my body hair burning but it wouldn't ignite me. Before I knew it, I had a third person view of the experience. Then I was balled up again, seeing my house door through the fire.

Next thing I know I'm running in fifth gear to the neighbors house. I remember thinking, "Where CAN you run from the devil?" It didn't stop me though. I went to a neighbors house and pounded on their door. Pounded with everything I had. They peeked out in fear but didn't open. As I caught my breath I kinda realized what happen. I almost sent my self straight to hell.

I then began to apologize to God. I PROMISED and PROMISE him, never again. I said "I'm aware now God. I'm so so sorry. Never again. Thank you thank you thank you!" Thank you lord Jesus, my ultimate savior! Thank you for showing me the door. Thank you for my strong soul, that had the courage to get up and book it. Thank you for people who love me enough to strengthened me to run for my life!    

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  Yes

      Explanation:  Huffing air freshener to commit suicide.; Air freshener solvents being inhaled.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Fear of disappointing God.  Or better yet, fear.; The horror and fear I had.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  No; Yes

      Describe:  Suicide.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Somewhat sedated.; Dazed yet well aware and able to comprehend emotions.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No.  Felt like the worst ending to anything that could ever end.  Face and body of the demonic figure was well descriptive.  Hate in flesh.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Uncertain; Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I recall a third person view of being burned.; Was not aware.  Only saw my self balled on floor with demon standing over me.  Laughing while burning me.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Fear, terror, remorse, confusion; Complete horror.  Fear in ever sense.  Shame.  Regret.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  A few "pings" but one was in fact, a physical flick against the, "Tippy top of my head" ; The demon's voice.  It's voice was human.  And it's laugh was twisted and very scary.  I could hear the fire around me.  As if it were a furnace or blow torch.  Having third person view, from what I recall, I heard nothing.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  I saw evil in the flesh. I thought for a split second he was someone in costume, but I quickly understood why he was there.  As I first screamed no over and over, he said yes over and over.  ; It was in the room with me and chased me less the ten feet.  I did not know it but I knew why I was seeing it.  I was about to die.  And God wasn't the one to collect me.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Uncertain

      Describe:  I'm not sure, but I think I was aware of every wrong doing I have ever done.  But my self infliction and self pity was his reason for coming for me.  ; Only the knowledge of life after death and consequences here in the flesh.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Uncertain

      Describe:  All I remember is seeing the front door of my house.  I'm certain, God showed me the door.; I saw the door to our house through the fire surrounding me.  After seeing the door, I was running.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  No; Uncertain

      Describe:  Loss of hate?  Self awareness?  Seeing a demon in flesh and knowledge of an existence of God.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Love must govern. ; Look for the better in things.  Reading more on others NDE's.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  My own conviction is what eats at me.  As new as my experience is, I know I need to learn that I am in fact, loved by God, and loved by my self.; Hasn't too much but am always always thinking of my purpose and what heaven would be like.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  I don't know,  but people must think I'm crazy.  How could people understand?  Why would they want to?  Lord, help me ride this like a horse right into heaven.; People believe.  I'm good with words and getting my point across.  I know though only to understand, is to see it.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Sorrow.  I feel sad and hopeless that people will see what I saw.  May the good Lord let them run, for in my case, they will change.; Depression.  Feeling lost.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Best=Awareness of my creator.   Worst=Knowing that Satan is very slick and is very good at his job.  I bind you Satan.  I bind you and your legion of demons.  May you not bring harm to any of us on this planet.  For God is love and love will govern.   ;
Best-Knowledge if life after death..  Worst-Seeing the worst.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  Please people, get to know God.  He is very real and is with us every second of our lives.  We have a purpose.  Don't cut it short and don't judge each other.  Love is all that matters.  I bare witness to you, life is precious and very important.  God bless you. ; Suicide is not an option.  I'm thankful I was given chance to run and pray that I reach someone.  I want to tell the world.  That it ALL, is so very real.  God bless.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I don't hate anything or anyone.  I have to learn about me so I can help others.; Trying to be good.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes; No response

      Describe:  Only marijuana makes me flash back to that day.  May I never forget my second chance.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes; No

      Explain:  SUICIDE IS DECEPTION.  Be sincere when you talk to God.  Have faith that he hears you.  Don't give up cause mortality is only a blink of an eye. ; For you must see for your self.

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the questionnaire?  Please don't judge me.  I'm not crazy.  I've been very ignorant.  I hope YOU can learn from me.  Cause whoever you are, I love you.  If I met you I would give my life for you.  Don't question your importance cause you are in fact, very important.  Thank you for helping me get my experience out there.  My I see you all as we fly through this tunnel I almost robbed my self of.  God loves you. ; After all these questions I'm pretty burned out hehe.  Nicely done though.  Good job.  This is my second attempt to reaching you all.  Hoping my story gets published, Joey