Jo M's Experience
My father died some 3 months before this experience. At the time of his death, I felt very guilty because my overwhelming emotion was one of relief. At 91 he had decided to go through a difficult bout of chemotherapy as he wanted to remain alive to care for my mother who was 92 and in a nursing home. He had cared for her and looked after her for years and he felt it his duty to keep doing that. My relief when he died was an odd response to his death and it took me by surprise. I felt very bad about feeling this and I wasn't able to cry at his funeral or feel sadness at his parting.
So, at about 3 months after his death I started to feel grief at his loss and I prayed one afternoon that I might see what my father was seeing. I missed him. My father was a Christian and had been faithful to his beliefs throughout his life. My faith led me to believe that he was with our Lord but I had this strong desire to 'know'. So I prayed that I might 'see what my Dad was seeing'. The next day, I woke up and realized that my request to God was inappropriate and that no-one has the right to ask for such a revelation; it is part of our faith in God that we don't 'know' but 'believe'. So I offered my apologies to God and talked to Him about my feelings.
Later that day I was vacuuming in our family room when I suddenly heard a sound that can only be described as 'whooshing' - a little like changing a slide in those old slide viewers. And then, in front of me, was a scene. It was a field of long, pale yellowish grass that reached up to my knees. In front of me was a winding road that led over to the corner of the field. Surrounding the area was a line of very dark, green trees with the glossiest leaves I have ever seen. In the corner of the field, where the road ended, stood a very high, dominant tree. It too had the darkest green, glossiest, healthy foliage. But the odd thing about it was, as I looked at this beautiful tree, I felt slightly afraid. I looked back at the field and felt no fear but on looking back and up at the tree I felt the fear return. This puzzled me.
Suddenly, the scene vanished and the whooshing sound came again, like a change in a slide. I'm not sure how long the vision lasted but it was probably only about a minute.
To this day, I can see that scene very clearly. I am convinced that it was God's way of acknowledging my request and apology and His way of showing me that there is indeed life after death, but that the barrier of trees represents the barrier to our 'knowing' rather than 'believing'.
I am still amazed by the vision, and in awe of our God who can hear what we ask
and reply with such wisdom and compassion.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I looked at the tree at the end of the road.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness n/a
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No sound in the experience itself only at the beginning and end of the 'slide show.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Initially, curious, then slightly fearful when I looked at the tree.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
It was familiar because I live on a farm, but it was nothing like our normal paddocks and the tree line was totally different. It was definitely not gum trees!
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
The field was surrounded or lined by trees which were not familiar to me.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes I believe that I was shown that the after-life exists, is as real as our present life, but that what my father sees now is not my privilege to know ... yet.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes I believe it was God's way of showing me 'something' but not 'everything' about eternity. It was also a reassurance that my own father still lives.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Yes, see question 33.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
My experience directly resulted in: Unknown
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They were slightly interested but didn't question me further.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes