Jessica P's Experiences
will have moments, where I start to feel like I'm watching a movie. Though, what
I am doing is the movie. Almost an out of body experience. I am fully aware of
what I am doing, however, I feel that I am watching myself do it. I feel like I
can't remember what I was doing, who is around, or what I am supposed to do.
Almost like my brain/memory is completely paralyzed. Even if I am doing things,
such as cooking supper or driving a car. It's hard for me to recall what I was
doing after the time of an 'occurrence', but I feel I was in a dream when I try
and remember what I was doing. But when I am having an occurrence, I am fully
aware that I am having one, but I feel like I'm in a movie. Some times I get
scared during an occurrence. And after one, I almost feel depressed because I
have had one. Like I missed some part of my life.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Uncertain I have had occurrences after I was put on a heart medication (age11), before ever smoking marijuana, during the time that I smoked marijuana, and after I discontinued smoking marijuana (age 23-31). At 26, I was put on 2 additional water medications and 1 additional heart medication. At age 27 I was put on 2 asthmas inhalers. At age 30 I was put on a pain medication, and at age 32 I was put on an anxiety medication and a sleeping medication. Age 33 I was put on a nerve/seizure medication. I have had 'occurrences' for over the past 16+ years.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes People that have not experienced it, tend not to believe what I'm saying, or how to understand it.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? fully awake and aware.
Was the experience dream like in any way? After the experience when I try and think about it, it is like a dream.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No response
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Mostly complete blankness, but sometimes anxiety, because I know what is happening.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? no. no sounds of any kind.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes It was like a dream. I had no distinct smell, taste, or feeling. Only sight and emptiness.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? No significant changes. I just don't like them.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes My mom and my fiancÚ
What emotions did you experience following your experience? saddened, for having them.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? That I feel so separated from real life.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes