Jessica E's Experience
I sat on the couch in the living room in my home, cradling my sleeping, infant son in my arms. It had been a long day because my son was not yet on a sleeping schedule so I was tired as well. The TV was on but I can't remember what was playing. Eventually I began to doze off. I wasn't sleeping exactly. It was more like when you start to doze off in church but then catch yourself before your fully asleep. That's about how long my eyes were closed but instead of snapping my eyes open I began to feel really strange and light and, my eyes were open but I didn't see what I expected. I was looking up and to the side because that's the way my head was resting on the back of the couch. What I was seeing took me a couple seconds to get a handle on. The ceiling was slowly getting closer to me, or I thought. I looked down to see my son but instead I was shocked to see that I was moving and not the ceiling.
instantly thought to myself, "Wow, I must be dreaming.", and expected to
instantly wake up but instead I continued to watch myself get further and
further away from myself. It was a creepy feeling. I seen myself holding my son
just like I was when he fell asleep and looking oblivious to anything. I, my
body self, didn't move at all. I saw myself from above and as I watched I felt
so strange. I felt like I was really floating and light as a feather. There was
no pain or anything just a lightness. Finally, knowing I was getting close to
the roof I got afraid and tried to float back to myself but couldn't. I was
worried about the baby because if he wake up and I wasn't present in my body he
might fall out of my arms or anything else. That's some of what I was thinking.
Then I was suddenly in the sky. I was in the clouds and there were some kind of
entities with me. They looked like angels because they had wings and were
beautiful. They were talking to me, telling me not to worry and that I was safe
and, without words I knew I was somewhere almost holy. There was a light above
but behind me that looked pure white. I knew I was not supposed to go to it. I
was only supposed to see it and stay where I was. I got to "fly" around for a
while then it was time to go back. I don't remember any of the trip there or
back except to my ceiling. Because of that I only remember looking down again
from there at my body and "merging" with it. Then I instantly sat up awake. I
still felt strange. My body was awkward but I still felt light and sort of numb.
Like coming out of anesthesia. That's everything I remember.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes I consciously knew I was steepening and watched myself sleep from above myself. Does that make any sense? Shouldn't I have woke up as soon as I knew I was "dreaming"? I also felt very light. It felt like I were being pulled away from my body but without much effort from whatever was doing it. Again, it was very strange.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I guess I was asleep.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, I hadn't ever had a dream in which I knew for certain I was asleep and then couldn't wake up until it was over.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I could see the top of my head, my shoulders, the baby sleeping in my arms. Everything was in clear detail.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear at first, like I would never come back. Then I felt like I was supposed to be where I was. Though I was still scared I had a new range kit emotions with it. Awe, exhilaration, fun, shock, you name it and I felt it at some point.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Only the sound of the other beings speaking to me. Although, I'm not really sure they spoke verbally. It was so strange I didn't look at their lips, if you can understand that.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Yes My living room in every detail then a "heavenly" place. It wasn't what my personal beliefs would have described so it was odd. I have a lot of re evaluating to do.
Did you see a light? Yes Like a bright white sun but still different. It was at a distance and I knew I was not supposed to go there.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes There were about 3 or 4 of them but I don't remember exact details about them. They were almost angelic but I feel like that was only because I would be more comfortable with that form. Something about this whole thing felt a little off, besides the obvious. They wore white robes, that I'm sure of. The faces are blocked from my memory which might be why I couldn't remember if their lips moved when they spoke. They also had some sort of wings.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain They, the beings, told me lots of things but the more I try to remember the harder it is. Maybe I'm not supposed to remember yet?
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes I could see and hear normally but couldn't smell or taste anything that I remember. My body felt fuzzy and float like "spirit", but I wouldn't be able to put such a word on it. I felt strange.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes When I "woke up" it had only been a matter of minutes. it felt like hours.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes As I stated previously, I don't remember the words much only the images and overall feeling. I asked them something but can't remember the question but it had to do with death. That seems to be important.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No response The ceiling. I crossed then was floating in a beautiful place. Not earth or the sky but there were clouds and a bright light and beings. The light was a boundary I knew inside that I could not cross. I didn't even want to.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain I vaguely remember being given information but its still out of my reach. It's like having a word on the tip of my tongue but not recalling it.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I am NOT crazy but I see things when I close my eyes and had a dream about a helicopter crashing into a suburb the night before it happened. I seen it on the news when I woke up. It was even black like my dream. I always had things like this happen. I told my husband I didn't want him 2 go to work because I had a feeling he would get hurt and never worried about this enough to mention before. It turns out that my sister totaled her car that evening. These weird things happen more now that I had the OBE.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes None of this fits in with my religious beliefs. This is NOT supposed to be real. OBEs psychic ability, none of it. I was told if stuff happened it was from demons but if you don't "call" them to you doing spiritualistic stuff they won't bother you. I'm a little bit frightened. That's why I'm posting this whole thing. I need answers.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Yes. I have re-evaluated a lot of things and feel like the world has gotten smaller, if that makes any sense.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I feel more impatient and like the world got smaller. I also feel like I'm neglecting a responsibility or something. Again, this is hard to explain.
Have you shared this experience with others? No That's why I haven't. They would think I'm either crazy, lying, or just have a vivid imagination.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Fear, I thought I was abducted or something for a while until I remembered aliens would probably take my whole body. Again, not crazy, just one of the many things I thought about to reconcile what happened. Next was shock and meaning. I was unsure what happened, if anything, and why.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was flying and seeing what the beings showed me. The worst part leaving my bad and baby behind and not being able to go back when I realized I was leaving. I Tried but it was inevitable. I had to go. It scared me!
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I have never had a dream and knew I was dreaming. I would have woke up, at least that's what I always thought. That was unsettling. Also the hair on the top of my head was laying the same way I saw it when I was floating, when I looked at my head in the mirror after I woke up. I don't usually see my head at that angle and had to use two mirrors to check.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I can't think of anything I didn't already add. If I remember more, I will try to add it later if I can.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. None... Good job!