Jessica B's Experience

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Experience description:   

I was at a rock concert with friends.  I had been struggling with depression for  a while and i was not really enjoying myself at the show - not the way they seemed to be.  I was sort of pretending and forcing myself to smile, clap and 'enjoy' myself, and i gave myself to permission to not have to do that.  So i sat down and just listened.  And the music seemed to start speaking to me - the music would start doing one thing (sounding sad or dark or lively and upbeat) and my thoughts would flow the same way...

I was truly 'in tune' with the music and suddenly i felt a beam of light - it felt very bright in the dark concert hall - it shone down on me and seemed to enter the top of my head.  Information was  communicated to me - 'through' the music - that we are light and love and that love truly conquers all - that all of the 'good' and 'bad' things that happen on this earth are nothing compared to love.  And then i had a vision of how everything is related and truly 'one'.

That is the best i can describe it.  It lasted about 15 minutes and it took my breath away.  The state of mind i was in after was amazing - it was like i didn't get 'tangled' in the problems of everyday living - i had great clarity and insight - i was totally calm inside and full of joy. Eventually i got more back to normal, but i still have a very different view of life.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes

I was on a depression medication - Welbutrin

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

I was shown so much that any words i try to apply to it are completely inadequate

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           i was alert and seemed to be of elevated consciousness

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   it was very dreamlike but i was wide awake

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I am not sure that i was separated from my body or not? I seemed to have this vision - and it was as if everything that was really around me was distorted.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            joy. love

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           the music was especially intense and seemed to be speaking directly to me.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           Yes

white. bright. love. healing. embracing.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

yes. i knew where i was but it seemed different. 'magical' almost.  Also had no sense of how much time was passing.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

I feel like i was given a glimpse of our true state of being.  I was also taught about conquering fear and about the love that surrounds us and that we are full of.  I am also able to read spiritual and religious texts with a sense for what is really true and what is not - i feel like my experience elevated my point of view.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I find that my sense of intuition is clearer to me now.  I am also much more aware of the energy in my body (have taken up yoga and tai chi) .  I find that i am not always in the zone...but when i am, i feel energy prickling the top of my head.  Sometimes i also feel it racing in my legs.  Sometimes I see auras.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

i was able to forgive myself for something that had been eating me up on the inside.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       It has improved my relationship with my boyfriend, now husband.  I now meditate, and do yoga, tai chi

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

i don't know that i have influenced anybody by telling them about my experience.  I find though that because of my experience and my increased intuition, that i am able to help my friends more.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  joy

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was the elevated view point - even though i am not always able to see from that vantage point, having seen it and remembering it, is awesome.

The worst is wondering if i will ever experience anything like that again.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        You might be interested to know that for the last few years prior to this i have been experiencing occasional sleep paralysis along with minor hypnogogic hallucinations (usually people talking around me, foot steps, doors opening and closing, the feeling of a presence)  . .  I was always scared and would try to wake up and snap out of it.  I now feel like this is my doorway to an obe and am planning on exploring it.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No