Jenny A's Experience


Experience description:   

I had the feeling of floating, rising up in the air. Everything around me was black, I couldn't see anything or feel anything. Everything was silent, no sound or movement. I had the feeling of being suffocated at first, feeling like I couldn't catch my breath no matter how hard I tried.

Next the blackness faded and I started seeing a light that was getting closer and closer. All the feelings of suffocation went away. It was getting brighter the higher I floated. I had the feeling someone was beside me touching me on the arm but I couldn't see them. Like someone was holding my arm guiding me closer to the light. I remember feeling overwhelmed in fear. But the brighter the light grew the more comfort I felt until all the fear was gone. I heard music that kept getting louder.

Lastly I felt the light completely surround me. I heard music and I felt so much joy and happiness and all the fear was gone. I felt no worry and no pain. The light was so bright and beautiful and warm, a light like no other I've ever seen. It's hard to describe. I was so happy but I found myself saying I had to come back that I couldn't stay, that I needed to go back. I woke up with the feeling that I had stopped breathing. I was gasping to catch my breath.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

The feelings I had at the time of the experience.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was asleep.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   I was asleep and new I was asleep but had the feeling of not breathing, as if I had stopped breathing. I felt as if I had died in my sleep.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I never saw myself being separated but I felt as if I had disconnected from my body in some way.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           At first everything was dead silent, but then I heard music getting louder and louder.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No

Did you see a light?           Yes

I saw the brightest light that was getting brighter the closer I got to it. It was so bright, peaceful and warm. It looked as if it were surrounding me in it.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain

I had the feeling someone was with me, that someone was holding my arm but I couldn't see them. Only darkness then the light.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

When I was in the darkness I felt a void as if nothing were ever there. Like it was a blank space to pass through.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

I remember saying out-loud that I had to come back. That I couldn't stay.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

I told my mother and she thought it was strange and got worried.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I feel scared about it not knowing why it happened. I know I wasn't dreaming, it was much more then a dream, everything felt so real.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part is not understanding the purpose for my experience.

The best part is remembering the wonderful feeling I had in the light how peaceful and happy I felt.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes