Jennifer R's Experience
I read a book by Jessie Duplantis about his NDE. God more or less told him that he was no more special because of his NDE than any other person and that God was no respecter of persons. So in my heart I said a little prayer that if that was true I would like to experience seeing him also , but if he didn't grant my request that I would still believe in him anyway. So that evening I lay in my bed I have no recollection of how long I was asleep, if I was breathing, because of my sleep apnea or any other circumstances that surrounded me.
I went from unconsciousness , in a deep sleep, to complete awareness , in a fraction of a second. I could see before me, nothing but two shades of blackness. I say see as in, awareness: because I was not actually looking at the blackness with my eyes , it felt as if I was seeing out of one eye directly in the center of my forehead as strange as that sounds that is the only way I can describe it. To my left was a wall of black , blacker then the darkness I was observing. From around the wall a light started to immerge and before I knew it I was looking at a huge pair of almond shaped eyes and when I say huge it is hard to describe the dimensions. As I gazed upon these eyes I knew instantly that this was my creator. I was not told " I am your creator ", I just knew with every cell in my being who it was , as if every cell in my body corresponded with him in alignment to the past , present, and future. I merged with him, with his knowledge , with his love, with everything that was, and yet remained an individual. As I looked into his eyes, they appeared to look like crystal like the glass they use in lighthouses that reflected colors so bright and vivid that you became a part of them and they with you. As I looked passed the crystal into the center of his eye, it was as a gateway, a gateway to all of the knowledge that he had of every person , event, feeling, past present and future. Every sense that I had was at maximum 100 fold to what the body can accomplish, the earthly body in comparison was maybe a 1%. I knew everything he knew , there was nothing specifically I can recall it was just a feeling, I became one with the knowledge, if I had to compare it to an earthly feeling , it was as if, having amnesia for your whole life , then when you wake up (die) you remember instantly who you are. About a moment later if was standing back away from him looking at him instead of being one with him. I saw these golden strands of light floating towards me and I remember thinking um what's this? As these strands approached me I could literally feel them embracing me like a hug and as they touched me I could feel every ounce of pure love he had for me. As if I were the only being he ever loved, pure, unselfish, liquid strands of love that embraced me with acceptance and a willingness to share with me anything he had or created just for me to make me happy. There will never be words to describe the love he has for us. The only example I can even poorly compare it to is the love a mother has for her child, its the only thing even remotely comparable. God is real but the word God does not do justice. But the devil is just as real he is the anti everything good.
I thank God for the experience and for being able to share it. I just awoke the next morning feeling a range of emotion, from pure joy , to sadness, of not being able to stay, to doubt that anyone would believe me , and very unsure if I died momentarily because of a lack of oxygen, or if it was just a heart felt prayer answered.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain I suffered from severe sleep apnea although I prayed the prayer about God not being a respecter of persons. Its strange but I think I died when I gave birth to my son. I hemorrhaged into my abdominal cavity after having a c section and needed a full blood transfusion, after they put me under I could hear my blood splattering as it poured from my body , and hitting the floor , I could also hear them talking saying OMG but it wasn't from my ears. So I think I may have had a few experiences. I believe in the devil as much as God and I know he has made several attempts to kill me 7 that I can recall 3 of witch involve NDE or OBE.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Gods ways are not our ways, we are so confined in our human bodies that trying to explain the depths, dimensions, emotions, feelings, colors, hues that are not known to the human eye, our brains are too limited to express.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal every moment of it like I said every sense that I had was KEEN, at maximum if I had to scale it I would say there was a 100% and here was 1%
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. you don't see with human eyes you see with his knowledge
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. you don't hear with your ears you hear with your consciousness
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No well I did when I gave birth to my son but that was a separate incidence
What emotions did you feel during the experience? joy, peace, acceptance, excitement, loved, they didn't really feel like emotions, like you feel joy and happiness, pull at your heart strings when you see your baby for the first time. It was more just of a state of being those things.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin see above lol
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm just darkness at first then I was part of the light
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning there was no time , it just was , time is nonexistent or I was unaware of any
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I felt as if I became part of knowledge or vice versa you just know everything because you become one with everything , everything being GOD I think
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Uncertain
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: Slight changes in my life even with the experience I had I am still human I sin and fall short but I remember that the mark is much greater then the race, I care a lot less what people think of me , I try not to be so hard on myself , I have more faith... hope and love
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes not long after they all except for my mother had the same UM? look on there faces. but knowing me they know I would never make up or could possibly make up a story like this. I felt most I told were uncomfortable with it
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a few books about peoples journeys to heaven , but I didn't go to heaven
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real God is an awesome power , presence, person, you just know with every fiber of your soul that he IS reality
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I try to love more, have more patience , compassion, to see others the way he loved me.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Jesus Hugged me with liquid love coming from his eyes I would say that would cover significant
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I cant wait to go home ;)