My brother died, and unfortunately did NOT come back. I don't consider myself a psychic AT All. But I knew he died before anyone came over to tell me. I just had that "gut" feeling... The same gut feeling I got when I took these videos of the sky at his crash site right after we prayed for him to be with God... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNIrJzPk8vE  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lg16bFIxPDA

Experience description:   

April 30th-- Around 12am... My husband and I were getting ready for bed and I had this horrible gut feeling in my stomach. The only way I can describe it is when you are about to hit another car in a car accident you want to brace yourself, you are scared because you are not sure how bad you are going to hit, you want to resist by pushing yourself/bracing yourself in the car, the feeling of doom-like you know the results aren't going to be good...  That's how I felt in the comfort of my own bed. I looked at my husband and said "do you ever have that gut feeling that something really bad is about to happen?". He said no. I tried to shrug it off and a short while later the feeling slowly went away. We went to bed. Its the most peaceful night of sleep I had had in a long time when all of a sudden our buzzer rings at around 4 in the morning.... I peeked my head around the corner, slowly walked downstairs and there was my mom, dad, and sister at my front door all crying. That's when I got the news that my brother had passed away in the accident, ironically at the same time I had my gut feeling that something bad was about to happen. I ran upstairs and woke my husband up and told him and we just looked at each other because of what I had said to him the night before about something bad was about to happen... 

April 30th--later in the day.... After spending most of the day at the funeral home making plans, and most of our family had arrived from Ohio by then... We all went out to the crash site to see where it happened, pray etc. There was about 15-20 of us out there at the time. We all got into a HUGE circle around where Jesse died and prayed so passionately and sincerely there was NO way-if there was a God-that he couldn't have felt these prayers. It was VERY windy, chilly, cloudy and overcast. But as soon as our prayers were finished, the sun broke out of the clouds in SUCH a way... For the little sun that was poking through, it seemed like it heated up by about 20 degrees... It was the weirdest thing. I got another "feeling" but instead of the feeling of resistance and doom, it was a feeling of such peace, happiness, contentment. I didn't bring a camera or anything. I wasn't planning on taking any pictures. But that "feeling" I had just made me get out my camera phone and point it at the sun and clouds. I took pictures and two videos. In the pictures that I took, You can see the sun and clouds take the shape of Jesus on the cross. Where Jesus' head is, towards the top of the cross, you can see shapes of people/bodies and even the shape of a cross behind them. In the videos, I don't even know where to start. I see what looks like a cloud, gets really bright and takes shape of an angel and takes off out of the picture. I see a huge cross pierce thru the sun and sky when I ask heaven to show me something special, I see faces in the clouds that look like family members that have passed away, and in the second video I see human-like figures walking around, again with the cross right behind them.  

I know it sounds absolutely crazy, TRUST ME, I feel crazy sometimes just because I even have this video. I don't know what any of it REALLY is, what it means, why did I even record this, why did I have those feelings which turned out to be true, why did God LET me get this stuff on camera....  

Oh and there's more.... 

The day of his viewing--- We just had his service and we were all getting ready to leave the funeral home. I went to his casket and rubbed his hair, told him to come to my sisters tonight because were all going to be there, family and friends, I told him to come because we all love him so much and still need him... Well :) My husband and I were on our way to my sisters, a few blocks away. We came to a part of the street where you can ONLY turn Right. But at that part of the street there are NO streetlights, no homes, its just trees at this turn, nothing behind the tress except more and more trees. Well were driving closer to this area to make the right turn and all of a sudden I saw this BRIGHT soft-orange light float down from the tree line-diagonal-to the ground and disappeared RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES.... I was dead quiet. I didn't know what to say, or how to even say it to my husband what I had just seen. A few seconds later he asked "So, did you see that light too? Or is it just me". I was kind of scared but also so happy that I wasn't the only one that saw it. I was beginning to think I was NUTS.

Also, I had a dream a few months after his death. I was in a BRIGHT BRIGHT green field and there was a bench. My brother came up to me and we hugged. I asked him if he died instantly, he said yes. I asked if he was alone and he said no, I asked if he went right to heaven and he said yes... Then I remember we talked for a long long long time, but its like my dream went on mute. I could see us talking together, but I couldn't hear anything until the end of the dream and the last thing I heard him say was "I can't answer those questions, you will just have to find that out when you get here". I woke up and once again, felt SO at peace with his death.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     People always say its fake... Its hard to explain why I believe it is real. You see the video everything that happens, it is MORE then just a coincidence for all these things to happen at this moment in time RIGHT above the crash site... And the FEELING that was going on is what made me even take the video in the first place. We prayed our hearts out sincerely for God to accept my brother, forgive him for all his sins etc. It was such a cold windy spring morning and after we prayed it INSTANTLY went from being so chilly to being HOT. I closed my eyes and just felt a sense of peace that I have NEVER experienced before in my life. I had an excitement in me and I got out the camera phone and I can't even tell you what made me just tape the sun and clouds... I could have recorded family walking around, the road, the spot where my brother died, but I taped the sun and the clouds and asked heaven to show me something special, and it did.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      Not sure how to answer this, my brother had already passed the night before.... But the experience I had did not have a life threatening event involved...

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The entire time...

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            The entire time...

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     In my dream of my brother, EVERY color was the brightest shade of that color I had EVER seen. And I couldn't necessarily SEE things better, but I could FEEL things better. The videos for example... I took the videos... I watched them over and over for the rest of the day, but my screen on my cell phone is only so big. Even though I didn't SEE anything at this point, I KNEW there was something I wasn't seeing. My husband got sick of me talking about it so he downloaded it to our computer and blew it up... That's when we noticed all the different things going on in the picture. And it still took us even longer to see other things. We called my aunts and cousins over at 3am to our house to see the videos. We were all sitting in the dark in my living room when someone pointed out the angel. We all gasped and got the chills. :) Sometimes its not about necessarily SEEING, but just KNOWING or FEELING....

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Mostly, Peace, contentment, happiness, some sadness also of course due to the simple fact that I miss him so much and have to go the rest of my life without seeing him again...

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      Not sure how to answer that of course it wasn't that I had a near death experience... But light definitely had something to do with it. How the sun got so bright right after we prayed on a very cloudy overcast day...

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     There are definitely beings in the clouds. I can't say who because there are no faces on the beings, its just silhouettes I guess you could say? But the faces at the corner of the cross in the sky, those faces I can make out. One is my brother, that face does not change but stays the same--although it does move around... It almost looks like it has depth, his face seems to be farther away and then comes closer... The other faces are in one spot, and it is one cloud that just seems to change into a different face every 2 seconds or so... One looks like my Grandpa Mason, the other like my uncle Gary who passed away a month before my brother.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     In the dream I had of him, we were in a BRIGHT BRIGHT green are, I want to say a field... And we sat on a bench and talked for a long time.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain      In the dream, I was in this place for what seemed like HOURS... felt like 5-6 hours... but I really was only asleep for 3 hours...

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            The feelings I had...  

The night he died, I knew something bad was going to happen before I REALLY knew... 

At the crash site, just knowing that something beyond the ordinary was happening and I was fortunate enough to realize it, or to feel it... I feel like I was SUPPOSED to see it for some reason. Maybe to help me get through this better? Maybe if I hadn't gotten all these signs that he's ok, my life would be falling apart? Who knows...

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            I knew something bad was going to happen, didn't find out till 4 hours later...

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Dreams:

*one with my brother of course...

* One about my old neighbor Tom who has a rare form of cancer, I was told (not sure by who) that he is not going to make it, but he's not even at a point of dying yet, in fact he doesn't even look sick or anything yet...

*I had a dream two weeks ago that my dad was going to resign from his position at the hospital, sure enough the next day he called me and told me he was getting his paperwork ready to hand in to resign.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I feel like everyone in my family thinks Im just a joke. My sister has taken his death probably the worst. She has put him on a pedestal, but has pushed everyone away that is trying to be there for her. She is angry with God, and doesn't believe in him anymore... But yet she's still waiting for a sign from Jesse that he is ok. I think she is angry because I have had so many signs from him and she hasn't. So I feel like now, when I do get a sign from God or Jesse, I need to keep it to myself. My dad and mom WANT to believe that the videos aren't just coincidence, but aren't quite there yet...

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was too coincidental to NOT be real...

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Everything was... I know that were here on Earth for a very short period of time, but that life DOES go on after death. I know that my brother is in a safe place, waiting for us to get there and be a big happy family again.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     With my mom and dad---they WANT DESPERATELY to believe that everything that happened to me is real. I know its easier said then done to believe that he is ok just because of a dream about him... But its better then going thru life just thinking that he's gone, done, nothing left of him, that he does not exist anymore etc...