Experience description:

I have always had a memory that I  for sure is before I was born. In this memory I am in darkness but this darkness doesn't feel like darkness. Like I have no sense of darkness. This darkness actually feels overwhelmingly illuminating. I feel like I belong here and have been here for a very long time and I can feel it slipping away from me along with my memories of this place whatever it is. In this darkness I know that I have never known anything else. This is my home as we would say today. I know that I have to leave and I don't want to. I have a choice to stay there or to leave but there is this consciousness that is with me of a different being someone that I respect and love and they want me to go. I also have a memory of me as a spirit watching myself as a child. And I remember this memory also as a child. In spirit form I see myself scared at one year of age in my parents bedroom. My bed in one corner and theirs across the room. I am watching myself and I know that it hasn't happened yet. And then my memory from when I was a child I remember laying in my parents room in my bed and theirs across from me and. Terrified because there is a lady in my face and she is watching me. She never speaks to me just watched me. I remember being so scared as a child and trying to tell my parents but I didn't know how to talk yet. I always kept this to myself because I thought that it sounded crazy but about a year ago I called my mom and told her about it  explained about where my bed was and there's. Explained the curtains in the room and explained how their bed has post on it that were really high and almost went to the ceiling. She said there is no way I remembered that house because I was less than a year old. Also I forgot to mention earlier. There were never any soon words in the dark place. We communicated telepathically. I have had many psychic abilities throughout my life. Whether it be instinctual feelings or having dreams about things before they happen. These dreams I have actually happen. And can be confirmed as usually I would be so shaken from the dream I would tell the people I love. My mother can also confirm the memory of me being a baby in their room.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No           

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?           No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?        No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?          Very alert and aware

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No was more real than anything I have felt on earth

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I had no appearance or form that I was aware of I was just there. Could not see myself

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Comfort. Completeness. Reluctance. Fear of leaving.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?          No sounds or notices everything was just a form of just knowing hard to explain

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    Yes     In the second memory I seen my parents house from when I was a year old.

Did you see a light?          Yes     It could be explained as a darkness that felt like a light or felt like a knowledge of sorts

Did you meet or see any other beings?          Yes     But I never seen this being it was just an understanding or feeling

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?            Yes    

Yes I seen myself and my parents as they would be later in life and I also have the memory as a child seeing my spirit I guess you would say. It's hard to explain.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    Yes     I seen myself as a child and seen my parents and the room which was later verified by my mom to be our house when I was 1 year and younger.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?         Yes            I had senses but they were very different. It was more of an understanding and being in tune with everything n around me. There were never actually any sounds as it was all just telepathically communicated. I do not remember any smells.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes     I knew it was before my life on earth. But when I was there.  There was no sense of time until it came time to decide whether I wanted to stay or go and then it felt urgent. I felt like my life before was being ripped from me. I remember feeling like I were going through death but it was actually choosing to be born. Hard to explain

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   Yes            When I was there I understood and embraced everything. Everything was connected. Every spirit was connected.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?            Yes     When I had to chose to stay or go it was feeling more than a visual boundary. I knew that I must go and could not stay

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     My second memory seen myself and my parents

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     Yes     It wasn't a return but a beginning. I had to chose whether I wanted to love live in a body

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I guess. I have psychic abilities now but with limited memories of before I was born I can't be sure I didn't have them before I was born

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No      

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I strive to be a good person and I try to embrace my empathy and psychic  abilities

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My mother completely freaked that I had a memory so clear like that from when I was an infant. I have talked about this very much with my significant other and he believes me

What emotions did you experience following your experience? I chose to embrace this life so that one day I may return to that oneness I felt before. I feel excited to return there.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best part was feeling one with God and other spirits. Worse part was reliving that memory as a child and how much it scared me

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       Not really.